Memoirs .3

2003 to 2007. secondary school memo.

2003_ 1 daisi 3.
the place i first met with sze wen. mei yen.
boon. cheelit. toongtzee. song. kok leong. and etc.
i remembered clearly. i was forced.
i had to become the black sheep of that event.
they blame me for making the teacher lose her job.
and that year i like jessica. ngu's daughter.
and i met many frenz from neighbour class.
z-xiang. michael lee. yeeling. and others.
i still remember that time i still can chat.
with old primary school frenz. but that year.
not so good for me though. well.
it's juz a memory. =)

2004_ 2 daisi 1.
where i met kahyan. meiyee. sinsin.
many more lar. again =.= .
that year. was the worst school life i ever had.
i molested my frenz's gurlfrenz. and.
sent to diciplinary office to accept my punishment.
and i was insulted heavily everyday by kahyan.
if i not wrong. ignored by peoples around.
in class. i can't recognize the people beside me.
as my classmates. worst year. and.
my attitude sucks too. sorry everyone.
oh ya. sze wen changed her hairstyle that year =).

2005_ 3 daisi 5.
morning session class. i was same class with kok leong again.
and thank him. he forgave for what i've done to her gurlzfrenz.
i feel so grateful. and thank god. that year i have frenz.
karmay and piack way. and that year. the lala boy.
goh chuen yee. penguinx came to my class.
he changed from katholik high. i remember well.
he like to bully me. and i like to play with him too. =)
piack way. you are so straight that year. and funny.
karmay. nothing to say about you. but in class.
i think karmay, piackway, kok leong, goh.
is the most familiar frenz in my class.
thank you all. and that year. i sold my frenz off.
chan yang li. i feel so sorry about that. because.
i really dunno who tell you that. i also dunno.
whether did i tell anyone about that. but i guess.
i did. =( so sorry about that. very very sorry.
and finally. kahyan agreed my existance.
she start to talk with me. and i feel happy about that.
but still. i juz like a stranger to her.
PMR. go to kasturi tuition. wasting time and money.
and i met my kindergarden frenz. and met a new frenz.
jian ting and chai han yong. these 2 fellow.
super funny. funniest group i ever met.
feel happy for such reunion with jian ting.
and i still remember. when we attend seminar.
we provoked the indian gangster =.= . scared.
but luckily they didn't pick up a fight. thank god!!!
that time before pmr. i still can play with sze wen they all.
but when pmr around the corner. they dun bother me anymore.
i wonder why? i thought the relationship between me and them.
are closer than last time. but it seems like. they juz reply.
as a normal classmates. oh ya. that time i got a little bit.
feel on mei yen and sze wen. =( screw me.

2006_4 daisi 2.
i was chosen to be in science stream.
and of course. i was hoping to be same class with sze wen and meiyen.
but still. we were seperate. i feel so unhappy.
but never mind. i have new frenz in class.
z-xiang. teh. ckc. kahwei. you all are the best.
oops. and jenn shyang. but that year.
i less interact with jenn shyang. cause i heard. that time he very lan sii.
about his superior result. =.= sorry boss.
and that year i was same class as kahyan peiwen puiying sinsin.
the 4 leng luis in our class (lol? 4???) which later.
they called themselves the SHIT group. stupid =.= .
...hmmm. that year was so happy.
i can chat with kahyan. among the gurlz.
i chat with her the most. more than any other gurlz.
and i feel happy about it. everyday juz wanna chat with her.
then got rumors about 2 of us. if i not wrong. sorry if i mistaken. =P
oh ya. that year i joined chinese society interactive event.
and i helped out. not alot though. and then. i frenz with yangshan.
he's a good guyz. but a true MEN. hahaha. you know what i mean.
sorry yangshan. your plan was sucks that time. but still.
people stay till the event ends. hahahahaha.
and that time i was active in drama acting. teachers recognize me =.= .
i was look like a fool on the stage. but i was happy. i enjoyed it.
every moment every second. thanks for the oppurtunity.
what happen next that year. i forgotten. hahahaha.
i juz know. 2006. is the best among the 5 years secondary school life.
everybody starting to accept me. and i go for art class.
thanks everybody. who accept me as their frenz.
thank you. sincerely. in my heart.

2007_5 daisi 2.
this year. the class was same as last year.
and i sit in front kahyan. beside z-xiang.
i interact alot with z-xiang. thanks for replying me too. z-xiang.
and i try to talk with other frenz too.
many bitsy stuff happen in the class.
and we went to eye on malaysia for photograph.
for our magazine column purpose. the trip.
was between sucks and good. screw me =.=.
and i finally found out that. actually.
frenz are hiding themselves. i dun blame them.
oh ya. there's a gay in my class.
he say he would like to sacrifice himself for another guyz.
juz to be his best frenz. =.= man this sucks. officially.
i join the school uniform group camping too.
we went to mountain and camping there.
that trip was sucks. i was so selfish that time.
and totally no mood. because.
i was ignored by kahyan they all.
i dunno what happen. they juz hate me suddenly.
especially kahyan. after that trip she hate me so much.
but i know clearly now. it's not her problem. to her.
it's not my problem. to me. we can blame each other.
but i rather be blamed. i was too childish. and naive.
maybe thats why she ignored me. and i admit that.
i luv you. kahyan. i miss you every second.
but you seems like dun giving chance. i feel very sad.
real sad. i dunno why you hate me so much.
yea. 2007 i have a bunch of cocking frenz.
hahahahaha. thanks to them.
somehow my school life wouldn't so boring.
thank you all. thanks.
oh ya. and that year i sold a gurl off.
piackway. she said she told me her secret.
because to show that she trusted me.
sorry. my mouth are big. there is no turning back now.
and. although you forgive me.
that juz appearance speaking. i know.
in your heart. you hate me to the deepest.
never mind. i still guilty forever.
2007. absolutely anti-gurlz year.
oops. is being anti by gurlz.
and. SPM sucks.......................

i think thats all for my school life in 2003 to 2007.
2003 _ a bad start . 2004 _ nightmare.
2005 _ a U-turn. 2006 _ rising up.
2007 _ shocking. stupid me.

kahyan _ i wanna be your frenz. juz frenz.
please dun be so cool to me. ok?
i wanna talk with you. like the way we was last time.
i dun really satisfy with your answer you gave last time.
i feel so unworthy. i thought our relationship.
is strong enough. sighs. to tell you the truth.
i miss you every night. every day. in my heart.
but. it seems like. you dun appreciate.
here. i wish you good luck. and.
i will remember the time we spent together.
i will never forget. your name. Lau Kah Yan.
i luv you. and. goodbye.

sze wen _ you are so fake. i like to talk to you.
i show you my sincere. but you still lying back at me.
thats why i not bothering you anymore.
since you thought like that. i was speechless.
and. 5 years. i know you 5 years. and you know how many picture we taken together?
within 5 years? juz one. our form one class photograph.
that was sucks. go away.

mei yen _ you too. you are almost same with sze wen.
5 years. we juz taken one picture together.
i thought you were open minded. juz one more picture.
one last time. you also dun wan. what the hell?
why are you so bothering about people say your appearance?
"mei yen, something was on your hair."
"i dun wan take ler. dun wan lar" what the fuck?
you sucks. officially and totally.
get lost. i thought you agreed my existance too.

karmay _ i hate you. and you hate me as well.
lame faker. screw off.

sinsin _ you're sucks. sucks like shit.
you're clone of kahyan? or perhaps.
i should say you like to follow people fart???
stop being controlled. screw you for not fetching me purposely.
and thank you for finally fetching me these few weeks.

puiying _ i know you're good. and.
the relationship between kahyan they all are important.
but you're bluffing yourself. and you're becoming like them.
get lost and bang the wall. bitch.

kahwei _ taigo. please lar.
life have no 2nd chance. appreciate.

teng suk yian _ stupid fat bitch.

sharon and jiaqi _ so fake. still fake.
very fake. other than fake. still fake.

i think thats all i wanna say after these 5 years.
sorry everyone. and.
thanks everyone. i luv you all.
thanks for giving me the chance to be your frenz.
and sharing memories together.
T H A N K Y O U A L L .

" I love you all. "
_by Hero†, in front of his own pc.

soon enough i'll kiss 2007 goodbye.
feel hard about it. cause. 2007.
is the year i leave my frenz.
frenz that i admire. i like. i luv.
sighs. dun wan say too much here.
maybe tomorrow write the whole story here.
it might be the longest post in my blog.
and.
i failed my undang test twice.
stupid. do i??

ok now. 3 days to go. before 2008.
i wanna make a promise here.
i'll make a confession.
within these 3 days. a confess.
about my 5 years secondary school life.
to all my frenz. new and old.

countdown for the truth.

i appreciate the dinner.
but it was jzu too much. and.
there is a rain outside.
my mood spoiled. so sorry.

watched warlord. nice.
a realistic society historical movie.
brother-hood. the line which bind people together.
and the line which ended by their own brothers.

lonely lonely christmas~~

ass.
my dad blaming me for not study well again.
and i checked.
i dun have the minimum requirement to go for college.
sad =( .

wanna share this song. quite old. but nice.
那首歌 _by 林侑嘉

monday. 17th december. the day is still the same.
same ol' me. same ol' house. same ol' environment.
see edi sien-zz. but never mind. i know.
the night will arrange a plan for me.
yeap. i went to my taigo house birthday party that day.
about. 20 peoples. barbeque. fried rice (not bad one. home made =) ).
and. playstation 2 =) . the main point of going.

i reach there about 6. and start play from 6. =.=
play until 11pm. and of course.
i burn some food for me. but too bad.
the chicken wings aren't so perfect as i thought.
maybe because it was the first time they throw bbq party.
and of course. the un-satisfaction also caused by.
some major technical problem =.= .
we eat. play. laugh. shout profanity in the house ( lol? ) .
quite happy. and screw that steamer.
he ruin my oppoturnity to get the videos =.= .
the gang leave at 11. and so was i.
and. ah yap. need step the gas so hard ma??
juz 100 meter road need reach 50km/h ???
dangerous. no wonder we always be blamed .

kahyan. i miss you so much.
what can i do for you? just to see you.
_by Hero† in pc / store room.

the cruise i board is called Wasa Queen.
and then company is called Star Cruise =.= .
sorry that i made a mistake in last post.

the trip is so boooooooring.
70% of the site in the ship is cabin. where visitors sleep.
and the remaining site are some entertainment facilities.
restaurant. disco. pub. KTV. and the most famous place.
C A S I N O. where old folks spent their time and lose their money.
the casino allow 18 and above ages to go in. too bad.
i'm juz 17. i thought the guard stupid but. he got a list.
that stated everything in there. and so are my age.
so i spent my time by calling my frenz. cook porridge on the phone.
and spent about 15 dollar juz talking to him.
i such a jerk. =.= . 2 days 1 night. sleep with boredom.

then the next day i left the ship in the morning.
and miss the sunrise part. because i'm juz too tired.
after my family take us to sunway pyramid.
to lurking around and spent some time.
and in the mean time. i bought a jeans and a shirt.
thanks for the person who paid the money. total $150.
after that we went to bukit kiara. to have a lunch with relatives.
because my cousins juz came back from austrialia for their summer vacation.
the place is sime darby business school if i'm not wrong.
and inside have a chinese restaurant.
where only rich people usually appear and eat in there.
so as usual. my uncle book a VIP room and 3 tables.
and we juz sit there and eat and talk abit bit.
the hell. my cousin. 16 years old. 181 cm.
last time he was juz as the same height as me.
but now. more than one and a half head. sad =( .

after the lunch we juz go home straight.
and everybody was sleeping except my sister. father.
they busying reading their stuff.

most probably going for january intake.
anyone here can teach me. how to go DASEIN???

"Help please. I've no idea. "
_by Hero† in front of this pathetic screen.

Friday 14th December 2007.
i went to sunway lagoon to play water with another 8 frenz.
4 gurlz 5 boyz including me. what should i say.
this trip is juz between sux and good.
what is the good part. that is many matured and hot
jiejie and leng lui go there and play. wearing bikini =) .
while the sux part is. when we meeting in school.
the gurlz thought we know the way to lagoon. and.
the driver get fed up. as well as i am. because. the gurlz juz
go on their way and left us behind. left us ourselves to figure
a way to sunway lagoon. and wasted alot of time on traffic jams.
.2 sux part is. the day still wet and raining. =( totally ruin the mood.
and the day was so cold. once jump out form water then start shivering.
bbbrrrrrrr. damn cold =.= .

then we went for pizza hut. and spent about $110 on our meal.
if i'm not wrong. 3 regular and 1 large. or 4 regular and 1 large.
forget =( . the meal was juz so normal. because it can only choose
those normal pizza. but not new recipe pizza. sad. and the service are not so good though.
imagine. 10% of service charge. Pizza Hut of Sunway Pyramid.
you may bang the wall from now.

so thats end of Friday's trip. too bad i'm short-sightened.
if not. today i should be capture many bikini hot gurlz in my head.
too bad. too bad. so so too bad.

and later about 4pm. gonna go holiday on a cruise.
Gemini cruise. if i'm not wrong. juz 2 days one night on that cruise.
nothing to do. juz run along and discover the ship.
and. feel the breeze. =)

" Awwww, man. I can't see a thing! "
_By Hero† .inside

I'm a Legend?? Taste my shit =(

today i wake at 12.00 pm. and receive one of my frenz sms.
he say. the movie starts at 1.30pm. starring by Will Smith.
" I'm a Legend "


stupid show =( . wasted $9. and me and my frenz we walk around and see.
they bowl. i see =( . short of paper. after that i came back and check on the web.
for the college january intake. and check on the fees too.
WHAT THE HELL. The One Academy and Dasein Academy of Art fees have such a big differences. TOA is juz way too expensive. Dasein still ok. but the problem is. Where is Dasein?
haven't been there before. but i've check the address. i think its quite near TARC.
at wangsa maju. Setapak.

tomorrow going to play water =)
and. this holiday sucks.

guess what. i wake up at 7.02 am.
gay. right??? extremely GAY.

the day after tomorrow i'll be going sunway.
the lagoon. to play water. i heard.
it was a class trip. but juz 15 of us going.
looking forward to it. at the same time.
preparing for the consequences. being a fool.

and tomorrow. i gonna go for a movie.
errr. what movie i dunno. i juz leave it to my frenz.
but i heard he say. wanna watch The Legend ( correct me if i'm wrong ).
and my brother say. this movie. shows on 20th ++ .
confusing. but still. there are many new movies to let us enjoy.
The Golden Compass. Warlord. National Treasure : Book Of Secret.
Alien VS Predator 2. Chronicles of Narnia : Prince Caspian ( heard it shows in 8 May 08)
and what else. i forget already. hahahaha ( lol ) .


by the way. yesterday i spent half day to watch 8 episodes of Prison Break.
Story starts with Michael Scofield. His brother Lincoln Burrow and etc etc.
Place setting. Sona. Prison of Panama. Time Setting. I think is juz daytime.
Social setting. Beats me.
this show is extremely rocks. i juz fall in luv with it.
the storyline are good. the characters are good.
dialogue are good too. and the way the cameraman takes every scene.
i bet. least people would have do that way.
and the way they break the prison. is far too smarter than how we break.
in malaysia.

" I'm Gay. " (?)
_by Wentworth Miller. starring as Michael Scofield in Prison Break.

today i wasted my time with my frenz. doing some useless stuff.
not only the time. and my cash too. never mind. i juz dun wanna mention about it.

i have a frenz. her life was well-scheduled.
i bet she's been busy lately. even though spm is over.
shifting. buying. shopping. learning. and etc.
i know now. without a doubt. she is the gurlz i admire so much.
brilliant. hardworked. social magnet. rich. pretty. and other etc facts.
maybe she having some problem that i can't imagine too.
but. she have the bravery to take on them. surpassed.
she is a lucky gurlz. a very lucky gurlz. that even god.
would wanna protect for the rest of her life.

" Bravo, fIfIFei "
_ Hero† by S.m.K.S.K

well. juz read some people's blog. suddenly.
felt like wanna do something extraordinary.
but how. i have got no idea.

.1 says. sorry about this and that.
.2 says. sorry about this and that too.
.3 says. i'll gonna miss you all.
.4 1 + .2 + .3 = etc etc etc.

why. hearts are unpredictable.
maybe later i gonna follow them too.
cause. i have something to apologize also.

but. not now. for sure.
or maybe not. apologize doesn't trade in anything.
instead. you trade in your pride. strange.
but still people like to do it.

" Heart it's full kinds of a feeling. "
_Sora by Kingdom Heart 2

suddenly i felt my family damn stupid.
dunno why. maybe juz my heart confusing.

sighs.

whatever lar.

it's finally ended.

applause from everyone. bye for everyone.
cheer for everyone. look for everyone.

people changed after this. but i'm still me.
myself. wonder if. i juz stay at the usual spot.

goodbye everyone. set the future. be what you wanna be.
and i, will be what i used to be.

damn it. juz heard a bad news from my frenz.
he said someone got the photos i edited last time.
the photos i edit for fun. and it contain 18+ stuff.

the hell. hellllllllll.
dunno which imbeciles sell me out.
sighs. maybe thats the ending for what i've done.

this holiday. sure is bored. all i do is juz playing.
playing my playstation 2. Kingdom Heart 2. Proud mode. means hard mode.
damn hard.