now that she's really gone.
to tell the truth. i dun really feel sad like fuck.
i juz sad. thats all. and happy for her.

and then she hug everyone.
and i saw her family feel very sad.
crying. even her strong-tough-looking father.
well i guess thats what a family was about.
caring loving and all that.

later that. there's one more special someone.
who cried for her. her best and only 'brother'.
the time he hug. it was like suddenly remembered all those memories.
and gush into his eyes. and then his tears juz fall out like that.
and he hug very tight. very very tight.
can tell and see. that he really gonna miss her alot.
i wish i had a special someone to let me cry for too.
i guess. everyone will felt jealous about their special relationship.
close. but not in partner love. its what everyone wished for.

friendship love.

gurl : hey. life is gonna be tough out there. i know everyone repeated this alot of times.
but still. be strong. and never forget. your friends still there for you. and i'll promise.
i will remember you no matter what. i want to remember you no matter what.
although we're not close. but. i do appreciate you. as my friend. as the very first female.
that can talk so much with me. that can hang out with me.
that can really accept me. after i did so many mistakes.

guy : being lonely all of a sudden is hard to take. i know i'm not any important people for you.
but i juz wanna say. if you wan. you can find me. =) though that was quite impossible.


The Promise is never meant to be left empty.
It says : " I'll never forget about you until the day I had eternal sleep."
" Until then. The Promised shall never fade. "

***haaaiiiii ..
so envy about their relationship.***




what so bad about being lonely?
i dun feel bad about it.
life still goes on no matter how.
so to me.. i can't handle relationship well.
because of what i think. i do prefer friendship.
but i often left out. what to do?
i'm not available when they're available.
they're not avaialbe when i'm available.
but sometimes. i do cry for what i dun have.
i really looking forward for a gurl. like her.
to become my bestie. like him.
i dun love to be alone.
but thats what i am.