This morning 4am. My parents has gone to the airport to catch a flight.
to Macau ( i think ) for vacation.

so.. to me its quite normal for them to travel.
but.. i feel really strange right now.
because.
there's no other else except me, was in the house.
my bro also went to his coursemate house to stay over night.
my cousin went to cambodia.
and his brother went to work, and most probably won't be coming back before 3am.

the environment was so quiet. dimmed. loneliness.
although it does not look gloomy. but thanks to my negatively mental.
i feel like going to die some how.
listening to Jay's song doesn't really help much to ease the feeling.
accumulate with my assignments pressure.
i feel like going to kill myself.

sighs. i always thought that home alone will be the best for me.
but i guess... i was wrong. maybe i still can't get used to it.
yeah. i'm a very dependent chiaodish boy.
i just can't live alone. sighs.
what a loser... =(

i was hoping that.. next time, wherever i go.
i hope my family will always be with me.
especially those i cared most.

i. just dun wanna. be alone. anymore.