人很奇怪。常常在没事做的时候，就会胡思乱想。
想些有的没的。很多时候，脑袋都在不停转动。

趁着没事做，我看了看自己的电邮信箱。
突然想起了一些童年的家庭回忆。

不知怎的，很心酸。
其实那些只不过是一些小事。
却能够影响现在的心情。

突然很想，坦然面对家人。
跟他们说一句，最诚恳的对不起。
帮他们做一些，最诚恳的付出。
而不求任何代价。也不惜任何代价。

我爱你们。

Malay Land BOLEH!!!

manhand - 慢游世界

Manhand - 咩人



Lastly, my personal favourite, dedicated to all the haters. Cheers.
Fuck You by Lily Allen.

The Way I'm are.

Hmmmph.... It's strange you know?
What is the definition of blog? Do anyone out there have any idea about this?

Yeah, many might say it's a place for sharing text. Funny text interesting text distorted text anything you name it. Other than text, there will have pictures, videos, and audios. Same again, funny media interesting media distorted media, it's up to you to call whatever you like it.

Yes, you see the word "you like it"? It's your blog and you can do it the way you like it. Bloggers have many types, interesting one funny one distorted one etc. But when you gather all the bloggers and combine their ideas, it'll only become one. "I'll like to do the way I like it. Even if it means commercial or what-so-ever." See? Thats the idea of blogging, "The Way I like it". At least I thought so, and I'll always think so.

So here's about my blog, it's an open to public diary, a place where I split my silent sentences to the world, which filled with alot of emotional fuckers and biatches. See? Fuckers and biatches, I repeated and I'll just said 4 profanity in just 2 simple lines.

Ok you might say, my blog has alot of harsh sensitive contents. Yes it's true, and I like it the way I am. So if you're reading it, please please plea...hey wait, why the fuck am I begging you?
So at the end, whether you like it or not, just read and fuck off if you want. Leave harsh offensive counter-attack comments to me if you want. It's up to you and It's up to me.

Yeah, according to the last post, there's a guy commented and said why wanna diuz people in blog?? why not just talk and settle in front of that fucker's face? Ok now, here is the case.

-First I gave options to that fella, I gave my patience to that fella, and I gave my trust to him.

-Second He once felt damn fed up during the time I was seeking help from him. So for you, do you still wanna being an asshole and being fucked like a bitch again? Hell No.

-Third Blogging is my only options, that I can write everything DIRTY and CLEAR. Which means, whoever wanna know about the details, can refer to my blog because I write stories, pretty simple.


So at the end, This is my blog and This is my highway, you pay the rates I've set, you run the way I rules, and you leave with thousands of complains or rubbish whatever. I don't care. See?

I DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT IT BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT IN MY FAMILY BUSINESS.

***to all the readers that hates me. Cheers.***

FUCK YOU.

It's the 2nd last week before my assignment submission and yet I'm doing nothing. The digit "0" is really cool but this time, it sucks the feeling that I am having right now.
But why my working progress still remain at zero percent?? its already been 8 weeks since the college started. Yeah it's pretty much simple that even kids would've know what's happening.
-Lazy, extremely lazy.
-Gaming addict.
-Major issues of PC breakdown.

Yeah, it's inevitable that the first 2 reasons that proves me wrong and strike me guilty. But the 3rd one, it's really unpredictable. You know it's coming but you just can't see it when it strikes on your critical, you see? I've thought of few options that can actually solve the PC issues but yet, it fails me and it takes longer time to get fixed. It's out of my predict, and it's taking more time than I've anticipated.

Ok so here's the story.

My hard disk is spoiled. A BIG spoil. And what I did is, I send it back to the manufacturer, and get it fix. But the problem here is, it's taking time. My precious time. Especially that I'm standing on the edge and is going to fall at any moment. So, I've decided to find another way. Yes, it can be solve by using CASH. $$

Good, I've decided and I've got the cash. And I survey about the market price with my frenz. And.. this is what he told me that time.
"Oh how bout this, I'm going to buy a new one, so I'll sell this one to you to replace the new one larh, ok?"
"Yeah sure, how much?"
"70 larh!"
"Ok deal."
"So when are you going to buy it? Can give me as soon as possible?"
"Yeah I'm going to buy it next week."

Yeah, a pretty convincing conversation right? It sounds believable and dependable right. But it turns out like this.

"Hey, so.. can I get my hard disk?"
"Oh can't o, I haven't buy yet."
"oo.. Ok larh, please buy it ASAP."

Good, I've pleased him. and then...

"Hey, bought your hard disk?"
"Oh.. Now I'm sick, having headache.. running nose and coughs.."
"Oh.. Ok"

So when the fella comes back, I visited him and he does looks Pale.

"Hey how you doing man?"
"Haven't bought the hard disk yet?"
"No.. Not yet"
"Yeah how bout this? You have 3 partition right? So the idea is, why don't you just transfer one of your partition to another partition since they still got the enough space right?"
"Ohh.. Ok ok.. "
"Well man, take care, get well soon. And please make it fast. I need it urgently, to do my assignments already."
"Ohh.. Ok ok, but it might takes 1 or 2 days worh. Due to the file transferring."
"Never mind. As long as you can give it to me before friday."
"oo sure sure sure."
"ok man, take care."
"K, thanks bye."

SO here it is. The final conversation we had before I got into any trouble with handling with lecturers in school. And now.. this time, It's Friday. And it become Saturday. past 2 hours.

And you know what I got with me now?

NOTHING BUT A BIG SIGH.

He still haven't give my the hard disk.
and I'm really out of patience and I sms him, I even asked him about that 2 hours later.

"eh Can give me the hard disk already?"
"Oh cannot o."
"Why? I thought I told you a way to backup your file?"
"Oh no, the problem now is I've made alot of shortcuts in my partition, so if I do the transferring, my shortcuts will messed up and then I'll have to reset everything back. So if I buy a new one and set the partition as the same partition drive, everything will be ok because they didn't move from their original directory path."
"Ooh.."
"So fastest is tomorrow larh, I buy already and then I'll come back and give it to Michael and you get it from him larh. If tomorrow can't make it means Monday lorh."

Did you guys just read what he said?? Yes he is stalling my time again. and next week I'm going to remain zero progress AGAIN. ITS ALREADY THE 3RD WEEK I BEEN DOING NOTHING.

**So what I'm trying to tell is. How come this fella can be that irresponsible? I mean, I know you're busy, and I'm busy too. It's a rush hour for both of us, but why the fuck just because of "shortcuts troubles", you can't give me a hard disk? You still can organize it if you're really familiar with your system, you see? If now is the 5th week, maybe I still can keep my heart calm and stay cool for the mean time larh. But now its not the 5th week but the 8th week my frenz. What the fuck are you doing and do you know what the fuck am I doing during this 3 weeks of life without my computer?!! and now you're going to tell me that if you can't get it on saturday and you're going to get it at Monday?!!!!

And how are you going to confirmed and guarantee that I'm gonna get my parts at the next Monday?!!! You know why I suspect about that? Because you guys dun have any fucking classes at monday and tuesday!!

You know I really do want to scream and yell at you? I don't do it, because I care about your feelings. I know you're frustrated due to your assignments but I have my assignments issues too! So we have to be fair and I'm in emergency. I don't scold you I don't yell at you, I just sms and talk to you, I begged and pleased you to be quick and I talk so politely. AND I AM PRETTY SURE I'VE MENTIONED THE WORD "EMERGENCY". You dun give me sohai explaination, unless you yourself admit that you're a fucking retarded sohai.

I really dislike about complaining people. I really do. Because these options are chosen by myself. Complaining just make it worst!!

It's hard to make decision, especially when you know the ending is going to involve with relationship issues.

and lastly, thank you for making me to be such a bitch that tells people he hates complaining and he complains alot in his blog.

So many to be complain now.
Too much of it.
It's really too much of it.
Maybe its not just complaining, but explaining as well.

-1
There's a guy, which is quite.. capable? and knowledgeable?
yeah i guess that's how to describe him. and he help people while he can.
ok so, here's the thing.
Recently I've encountered alot of this.. configuring pc hardware and software stuff.
Everytime I encounter one of these problems, I'll ask and find out from him.
because he knows alot about computer. so.. for you you also will ask him one ma, right?
but the problem is.
once you ask too much, for normal person larh, also will out of patience one right.
so.. thats the case lorh =.= .
he out of patience d.

BUT. I'm sorry to tell you that, sometimes when it comes to emergency.
I really fuck it, I dun care what you think, because my situation also quite danger d you know.
It's not that I dun respect your feelings, but sometimes shits do happen, and I had to make tough decision. It's not easy man, it's really not easy.

So.. from here, to all my friends and frenz.

Sometimes I could be very disturbing.
but please, I have my own reason and I'll do it to achieve my target.
And I apologize about it, but please forgive me that I really cannot afford to care about your feelings at the mean time.

thank you.

-2
Sometimes I've been thinking... Did I really often make the wrong choices?
It sucks. It is really sucks to tell myself, "yeah, you're so wrong"

Did I come to the world at the wrong time?
Did I walk at the wrong time?
Did I talk at the wrong time?
Did I draw at the wrong time?
Did I choose at the wrong time?
Did I think at the wrong time?

Seriously I do not know the answer.
but the truth of my heart is telling me.
"Yes."

Why am I assuming that this is wrong?
Because I've been so jealous about the others life.
Some are rich.
Some are pretty.
Some are adorable.
Some are smart.
Some are kind.
There's so many 'some are..' that I've been jealous about.
And it can't be satisfied by complaining in words, or even pictures.

The life that I've dreamed of.
When will it come? The foundation stage is over.
It's hard to come. It's hard to find.
and It's hard to keep.

Yeah, maybe I'm just myself all the time.

All, by myself.

-3
I hate complaining.
Why people complain? because.
They cannot get what they want. and it end up with shits that they can never foresee.

Why I hate? because.
I believe everything muz have a reason behind.
I choose the path. and no one warn or stop me.
It's my path and I shall face whatever consequences.
Even if its mean death.

It will be never-ending for complaining issues.
Because issues are all chain-related.
You complain about A and you will complain about B later.
After B then it comes to C.
and complaining means, You're always right. I hate this.
If you're wrong then just admit it. No point finding excuse to defend yourself.

I guess now I sounds like complaining too.
Complain about people who like to complain.
Yeah, it sucks, and I feel conflict about myself, about hating to complain.

So at the end of the day, I'm disturbing but forced to do so, and I'm lonely, and I hate complaining but I'm complaining.

Cakap Cakap.

why today's title so plain.
because there's some stupid irritating shit is reading this blog.

-so first i'm gonna say. i'm most probably moving somewhere.
-second. it sucks that people watching over you. i dun specify who larh, later sensitive issues came in and all that shits.

oh ya. last night me and my frenz went to the CC for games.
I suddenly found out arh... nowadays de gamers.
dun have this .. so called, DotA Spirit.

they complain everytime when:
-enemy know their whereabout ; some pros really know where you are. they can predict
-enemy can evade their ambushes ; some pros really know what you're doing.
-teammate 'kill and steal' mistake ; sometimes the global spell juz can't help, especially the random one
-teammate finger slow ; err this one is because teammate skill not that good, but dun blame if you know it lar.
-enemy owning ; they jealous
-blame by teammate ; they think they're always right and the most geng one
-enemy/teammate leave game ; they spoiled the game
-teammate feed(this i sure complain lol. =.=) ; ..... totally noob??

i mean, what the fuck is this arh??
just a game only mah, why spit on people face and blame the others??
oh i miss the olden days while i'm playing in blueserver v3.
where the Pros and the Noobs gather around.
no one will ever lan sii, no one will ever leave.
THESE PEOPLES. EVEN IF THEY FEED, THEY'VE GOT THE SPIRIT!!!
and all the people there, they are well educated.
they understand english. they can talk and write english.
its like a hall of higher end gamers.

Playing in BlueServer. Its the best server I've ever played with.

-but now it become UCPro. and it charged for members.
sighs. =( and the installation protocols are troublesome.
maybe later i'll consider playing. hahahahhaa.

at the end of the day. all i wanna say is.

ITS JUZ A GAME, WHO CARES AND WHY CARES??!!!

Sometimes its juz plain pathetic that you've got a blog. But you've got nothing to blog about. This kind of emptiness is driving me crazy man. Maybe I've lost the colour pencil to paint out my days? Ok enough about craps and shits. (why the fuck I write like someone is reading it? good here i go again, Think too much :p)

.1

Just went to THE MINES ( i guess this is so damn familiar and popular to people nowadays lol ) for dinner. and just for the DINNER. Dua Puloh terbang macam babi already. Stupid Carl's Jr. why charge so darn expensive, dun have student price meh?
And guess who I saw there? He's a celebrity.
He's tall! He's handsome! He's smart! He's...rich? He can sing! He can dance!

and He's.....Will Pan 潘韦伯!! (did i spell wrongly? fuck it :p)

Ok it was crazy there..errr, ok lar, not so crazy. But it still crazy. All the people do are juz screaming. SCREAMING. SCREAMING ONLY!!!! And all the fans are like.. kiddos? Daukei i should say.
Come, let me analyse and interpret the gurlz screaming.

-First Will Pan step onto the stage *AARRRHHHHH~~~*
it means, "OMIGOD HE'S HERE!!!"

-Second Will Pan talk on the mic. *ARRRRHHHHHH~~`*
it means, "OMIGOD HE TALKS!!!" (what, you think he retarded??)

-Third, Will Pan walks. *ARRRHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~*
it means, "OMIGOD HE KNOWS HOW TO WALK!!!" ......
....
...ok this is juz i simply made one. sorry fans. i dun mean to say he's stupid.

-Fourth, Will Pan waves his hands to the fans. *ARRHHHHHHHH!!!*
it means, "OMIGOD HE WAVES AT ME!! I THINK HE LOVES ME!!!"
sure love you lar, you pay his salary one ler jiejie.

-Fifth, Will Pan sing. *ARRRHHHHH~~!!! ENCORE ENCORE ENCORE!!"
it means, "OMIGOD HE SING!!! SING AGAIN PLEASE!!!"
yeah this one I agree, sing more please >.< its like a free concert XD hahahaha. but anyway, what the fuck??? A singer that dunno how to sing, still dare to release album and sing to you meh? fuck brainless shits. after all the introduction shits then its time to sign autograph to the fans. well it ends very fast. I guess thats like.. abit faster than Jolin signing at Times Square. =.= ALOT faster. LOL sorry Will Pan, dun mean to say that you're out of fans XD its juz that you're not sexy enough to attract boys =P Oh, and There's another new celeb with Will Pan too, I dunno whats his name, but he looks alot like a LaLa-zai, a gangsta...oh, no not a gangsta, a... spoilt loser??? =.= and you know what he did on the stage?? HE'S JUST FUCKING PLAYING WITH HIS MOUTH AND THATS IT. beat box lar ... this is plain stupidness. =.= sick of these shits ler. some more its not that good. Sorry guys!! I stil prefer DaiChi!! sighs, Tonight's a waste you know. Thought I can find some pretty at the event. But hell, all the gurlz are like... still in mid-school??? 15 16 years old?? ....but kids nowadays arh.. really geng, can make up super thick one. and you know what they wear? They wear a 21 years old female fashion. I wonder what will happen 5 years after. Will they ever wear grandma clothes that time??? and... one thing for sure, 5 years later there will be no true beauty. Because everything is covered up. I prefer.. staying behind the scene lol.

.2

there goes another major big problem about my sohai pc. it sucks that I'm a true PC dumb lar, cruel said I'm a sohai in PC sector lar. It's like a hell and heaven. When I use it, its like heaven, worry-free and ecstasy shits; When I'm about to lose it, its like hell, worry-ful and ecstasy shits again. SIGGHHHSSS Tomorrow have to get back early to solve shits again.
WHY?!!!!!

.3

ok, games are really addictive. I mean, REAL ADDICTIVE. all these gaming shits are totally pwned and owned me since I've got my SUPER(compare to the old one larh..god dammit) CPU to play.
Lets make an example,
[Prototype].
Ok this is a game title, not a serial code for your fucking projects ok. It's a sandbox-gaming style game, and It has like.. totally freedom for you to roam the whole fucking Manhattan to kill.. oh, is CONSUME (that means eat people lar, for kiddos language) people. You can either consume civillians, armies, creatures bla bla shits. and it's really FUN to consume INNOCENT CIVILLIANS!! HOHOHOHOO!! Me and my frenz are totally into this shits and we're really enjoying killing the innocent one...muahahahahaha.

it's fun that you can see how your weapon shove the enemy asshole up from the bottom.

consuming is another entertaining brutality that you can find in the game.. omigod..yummy^^

another example, The Sims 3.
alright this game is really sucking me in. I've SPENT most of the time on this never-ending game. because its fun! its new!! and It's like living in my dream... Hohoho, I can manipulate lives in the game XD thats what I love to play with. but sometimes shits does happens, My wife juz popped out 2 TWINS!!! 2 X 2 = 4 !!! THAT MEANS I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF 4 XIAO CHAR SHAO AT THE SAME TIME!!! WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. Thank god they've got babysitting services... muahahahahahahahah!!! ITS FUN TO MANIPULATE LIVES!!!

omigod i'm going into gaming madness.. someone please drag me into hell... OH NO, not into hell lar.. outta hell.. XD hahahaha and then push me into the gaming heaven~

.4

this post is so gonna be extremely longer than before.

.5

taxi fare is damn expensive now. last time the meter starts at 2. now starts at 3. what the fuck...and now the meter is jumping superbly faster than before. I guess nows the time for me to quit my study and join the cab services lol. Imagine one day you fetch 20 trip from one place to another with the average rate of 5 dollar. everyday you earn 100. and one month you're earning 3000. THE LEAST!!!! ok for more detail, 20 of weekdays, 2000. and let say weekends they got doubled-customers, so they're earning 200 each weekend. 10 days of weekends x 200 = 2000. IMAGINE LAR PRICKS!! ONE MONTH THEY CAN AT LEAST EARN 4000
OMIGOD
THAT IS SO MUCH MORE THAN A TOP STUDENT JUZ FRESHLY GRADUATES FROM FAMOUS SCHOOL EMPLOYED HIMSELF IN A BIG 5 COMPANY!!!

SO FELLAS!! EVER THINK OF QUITTING STUDY AND ROAMING THE CITY WITH TOTAL FREEDOM?!! COME AND JOIN OUR TAXI CAB SERVICES!!! WEALTHINESS SHALL AWAITS YOU AT THE END OF THE HIGHWAY!!! WOOOHOOOOOO~~fuck shits...

picture is so darn not related.

.6
My Impossible Wish List :
-I'm a pussy magnet
-I have a strong sex appeal
-I'm tall
-I'm strong but not so buffed
-I've got a wide shoulder and comfortable chest
-Somehow but I dunno how every morning my wallet automatically reload 2 pieces of 100 dollars note. If can, let it be BUCKS.
-I have a girlfriend that is super compatible with me.
-Having houses everywhere and nicely decorated.
-Having 48 hours per day but everything progress like 24hours per day.
-Have a really healthy body and heart.
-Have a strong heart.
-Have an agile body.
-Have a fast and intelligent brain.
...lol i guess i've wished too much XD.

omigod...juz concentrate on the height part lar wei.. i want her height only.. but stil.. omigod..@@