tonight, is not really a good night.
I was having a really rough night.
A very very rough type which you would never ever try to imagine how rough it is.

What sort of rough. No one asked.
Because no one's gonna read here.
It's rough like a motherfucking rock solid cold hearted lava stone.
It contains heat and thorn-shaped rough surface that could pierce a new butt hole for you.

Today, it's like what happened few days ago.
The girls came and find my roommate for help.
I mean, HELP. HE FUCKING DO EVERYTHING FOR THEM.
Of course I got no problem with that lar, because if I were him I'll help because it has the potential of increasing chances for me to touch their pussies.
But the problem here is, we have a very major pokemon issue.

Look, it's a MAJOR POKEMON ISSUE.

POKEMON. YES.

I was hanging inside my room.
Like the usual hours and days, and almost every moment.
Trying to get my mood and morale up to do my assignments.
But the pokemon phenomenon out there is driving me crazy.

My fren is like the pokemon trainer.
and the girls are all his pokemon. He's training them how to be a great sexual performers.
Not sexual actually, it's just something that includes penis and pussies if you know what I mean.

Ok, first I step out of this fucking room.
Second I walk to them, and I was trying to fucking socialize with them.
The atmosphere in my room is extremely awkward until I don't even recognize where the fuck am I.
Third, I'll start with the easiest person to talk.
She fucking ignored me, and she said if I go near her again I'll get rewarded the world most motherfucked rock solid tekken (it means iron fist).
COME ON MAN, I'M JUST A FUCKING INNOCENT SHEEP WITH DICKS.
Oops, without the 's' please.

Ok lar, i'm real scared because her punch can simply knock out a hamster.

So I try to move out to the next stop.
Aaaahh.. there goes the other pokemon.
Her face was fucking fierce, and I can feel she's feeling with hatred and extreme jealousy.
She could really start off with something real stupid at any minute.
She just need a detonator to support her.
Normally at this kind of fucked up thrilling situation, I would love to be the detonator and see dramas.
But hell no, this game is not my business today, I JUST WANNA HAVE SOME FUCKING USUAL TALK WOI.

OK, MOU MAN TAI.
The pokemons over there scared the shit outta me.
I go for the next station.
Where the trainer is training a pretty cute pokemon, erk herm, I could say.

And I thought this trainer could at least give me some positive respond.
MANA TAO.
HE ASK ME FUCK OFF AND CATCH MYSELF A RATTATA.
He didn't fucking said that ok, I just kinda feel it from his words.

OK LAR, I SIEN LIAO LORH.
And then I scooch back to my room and try to sing, at least it keeps me talking with rhythm.

But then what really happen is..
SUDDENLY OUTSIDE IS FILLING UP WITH HAPPINESS OI WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING MAN?!

WHAT
THE FUCK
IS REALLY HAPPENING OUT THERE MAN?!

They're actually having fun, just like what Ash did with his pokemons.
Having children sex in the pokemon centre, like that.
Very happy and everyone was "Hahahahah" and "pika pika!"

Wuuuaaat dee faakkk is this.

It's like I should've scooch back into my dirty nasty nest, and sleep with rattatas.

This is a place where I live, I paid to live.
And I thought I'm the owner, and I expect some respects and response larh walao.

I masuk you all scream like motherfucker.
I keluar you all silent like motherfucker also.
What also you all jadi sajelah.
NIIIIAAAMAAAAAA

IT'S LIKE WHOLE BUNCH OF POKEMON BOYCOTT ME IN MY OWN NEST WALAO.
YOU COME AND MESS AROUND MY NEST AND YOU BOYCOTT ME LIKE THIS IS YOUR FUCKING NEST.
MEH HAAAAII OOOOOOOHHHHHH

DIAO NGA NGAI DIAAAOO BETOL LAH.

FUCKING API OO NOW.
CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT THE FUCKED SHIT MAN.

YA LAR, IT'S TRUE THAT I JEALOUS LARH.
BUT NORMAL PEOPLE ALSO GET HURT LIKE THAT LORH.
MAHAI TALK ALSO CANNOT.
I THOUGHT WE'RE FROM THE SAME BATCH???!
CHAOCHEEBAI.

I ADMIT LAR, I HAMSUP, I SOHAI, I CHIAODISH.
SO WHAT.
WHO DOESN'T
LIKE THAT BOYCOTT ME, NIAMAHAI.
EVERYONE ALSO GOT THEIR PROBLEM.
I DEAL WITH IT YOU DEAL WITH YOURS.
WE BOTH GOT PROBLEM BOTH COME SETTLE LAR.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE PROPER INTERACTION?!

ITS NOT LIKE I WILL FUCK YOU AFTER I TALK TO YOU.
ITS NOT LIKE I WILL RAPE YOUR BOOBS AFTER LAUGHING WITH YOU.
WHAT?
I'M NOT EVEN GONNA CUM ON YOUR FACE WALAO.

EVERYTHING JUST DOESN'T SEEM REASONABLE IN FRONT OF ME.

ALL I WANNA SAY NOW IS FUCK.

FUCK.

Dang...
It's 8.16a.m. now and I'm awake.
My roommate is still sleeping now as in he's not really worried about what he's going to face.
Nah, not saying that he ready to fail or what.
It's just that, he's sleeping that tight and I'm pretty jealous.
But I know I can do it 2 weeks later.
So... better tired now and save for the golden time for the 2 weeks later.

Hmmm..
Time is really going fast and I'm not making any aggressive progress on my assignments.
This sucks because the render time will be a superb headache if everything weren't planned perfectly and end up shitting in front of people.
Gargh. I'm trying my best to speed it up people.
I mean... AT BEST.


Alright enough of short updates crap.



So here's the thing..
I think I'm a total asshole because..
There's these people that I hate, they're females.
But sometimes...
I just can't help falling into them.

who are these people?

They're hot and brilliant cancerian babes.

LipFei.
PuiKeun.

Who else?
I really don't know.

At least these 2 people have almost the same personality.

Maybe I'm too naive and shallow to judge people.
But right now, I believe my eye for once.

They're pretty.
They're smart.
and maybe I can say, They're indepedent.
Oh, and they're rich too.

I've got nothin' much to say now.

All I can say is...
I love 'em. <3

我就是冲着你来的
怎么样？？

我好像跟每个人都那样说
因为如果我不是冲着你来的话
我是不会跟你开玩笑的
我是不会开你玩笑的
我根本就不会想知道你到底是什么卡

不过人类真的超级犯贱
我很需要朋友
不过这种时候我觉得一个人
真的很不错
因为死是我一个人
不是全部人

坦白说
这句话我重复了N次
我可能没那么多
我的朋友也许有那么多

“你只是想引起众人注意”

我自己如果没有那么多笨细胞的话
我是不会随便同意这个讲法的

“只是有时你，用错方法”

还是那句
我不会随便同意这句话，不过这个是一种事实

很多时候
我们人类作的东西都是以一面镜子来衡量
我们为何吃饭
因为我们看到有人吃饭
我们为何走路
因为我们看到有人走路
我们为何跳楼自杀
因为我们看到有人跳楼自杀

如果一开始
这句 “我鸟你”的句子不是被列为粗口的话
现在的打招呼应该就是“我鸟你”这3个字
而你好吗就是干你奶奶的意思

回到来
我看过很多人也是这么过日子
不如说 我看到的你们也是这样过日子的
轮到我拿主意的时候
为何都是一堆反对票？

这种时候要找借口实在是太矛盾了
可以说非常容易
也可以说非常难
因为我们人类实在是太复杂了
复杂到我们自己都觉得突然变笨

我现在没什么好话想说
只是在收拾心情
给自己一个借口来掩盖人家给我的审判

FUCK LAR.

Touch your laptop only jeh.
No need say whack dao I cacat one mah.
It's not like I'm a total stranger.
I know you you know me.
What's the point of threatening me like that man?
You sohai meh?
You don't tell me you coming period also because I checked you got 2 balls.
Unless your balls hurts every week.
Like that I might forgive you for being so stupid because you got distracted.

But, you got no problem with your balls right?
SO WHY THE FUCK YOU WANNA THREATEN ME LIKE THAT?!!!
SOHAI MEH?!! YOU TOUCH MY STUFF I ALSO NEVER THREATEN YOU LORH WALAO.
EVERYDAY LET YOU JOKE AROUND AND THEN YOU THOUGHT I'M A FUCKING JOKER?!!
JOKER ALSO NEED RESPECT LORH WALAO.
I RESPECT YOU AS A FRENZ THATS WHY I DON'T FUCK YOU AT THE SCENE LAR CHEEBUY.
I RESPECT YOU THAT'S WHY I KEEP QUIET AND LET YOU WIN LAR SOHAI.
NIAMA YOU THOUGHT YOU FUCKING RICH THEN YOU CAN DO ANYTHING MEH.
USE YOUR RETARDED BRAINLESS FUCKED JUICES LAR.
SOHAI ONE.
LIKE A MOTHERFUCKER ONLY.
GO HOME AND FUCKS WITH YOUR MOTHER'S MOTHER'S MOTHER LAR.
AKA YOUR 18 GENERATION ANCESTORS.

niama chao fah hai..
sohai punya babi, next time don't talk like that larh mahai.
macam i'm your dog like that.
fuck then fuck, screw then screw.

fuck the world who don't appreciate the joker.

Today is not really a very good day because I've got a shitload of complains in my dumb fucking head.
So what the fuck is wrong with a good Saturday of week in August?

Everything started quietly in this morning..
I was in the middle of some semi-wet dream and then my phone alarm alarmed me in the middle of chicks boob.
Gaaaaaah It's okay actually because I got a class to catch up with.
So... Like the usual, me and my frenz went to school.
We do stuff.
We talk about stuff.
And this shit lecturer isn't giving any proper attention to what I'm about to tell.
Fuck lar.. and then after getting a rough idea from me.
You know, what the fuck?
HE GIVE SHIT OPINION AND HE THINK OF SHIT WHEN HE'S RESPONDING TO MY QUESTION.
FUCK YOU LAR SEI SOHAI.
See you I also wanna vomit what I've shitted 5 years ago.
IS WHAT I SHITTED NOT WHAT I CONSUMED.

Ok lar.. everybody know that he's a total straight asshole.
It's ok that he acted so shitt-ly.

Actually I was quite delighted when I got a invitation for movie session during class.
I was looking forward to it and guess what?
SHIT HAPPENED AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND NO SHIT REASON.

My frenz told me the driver will come at 8 to pick me up for movie session
Ok lorh, and so I thought he will reach in time.
I told my family I'm going for dinner with them.
and I expect to enjoy my dinner slowly, just like what I actually do in almost every meal.
I prepared myself. at 7.30pm.
I waited. at 8pm.
I waited. again. at 8.15pm.
I again and again, waited. at 8.30pm.
And so I decided to lie on the bed because I shut down everything I'm playing and hanging with.
I lie down for roughly 7 minutes and I heard the stupid horn and I knew, they're here.

and So I jumped into the car.
I was really expecting an actual apologize..
but I was kinda invisible in the car because they ignored the fact that I'm actually pissed off.

SO...WHAT THE FUCK MAN?
YOU'RE LATE AND YOU DON'T THINK YOU'RE ACTUALLY OWE ME AN APOLOGY?!!
DON'T TELL ME YOU'RE FUCKING LATE BECAUSE OF PICKING UP PEOPLE LAR.
YOU KNOW YOU HAVE TO PICK PEOPLE UP THEN YOU MAH GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE EARLIER LORH.
EVEN IF YOU'RE GOING TO LATE ALSO PLEASE GIVE ME A CALL LAR.
YOU BUAT SAYA TUNGGU MACAM SOHAI BABI YANG SEDANG TUNGGU SUSU TAO.
YOU'RE MAKING ME WAIT AND EXPECTING FOR A PROPER DINNER IN A EMPTY STOMACH?!
WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU NOW.
YOU FUCKING RUIN MY MOOD LORH SOHAI DRIVER.
NIAMA GAH CHAO HAI.
I'M NOT TRYING TO COMPARE BUT EVERYTIME I'LL GO OUT EARLIER TO BE IN TIME TO FETCH ME FRENZ ONE LORH.
YOU DON'T THINK THE WHOLE WORLD IS RUNNING YOUR TIME OK.
I GOT A NAME AND YOU GOT ONE AND YOU KNOW WHAT?!
WE AIN'T SIMILAR IN SEVERAL ASSHOLE WAYS YOU UNDERSTAND?!!

SEI SOHAI.

You give me a word of sorry mah nothing will screwed up lorh..
I got into the car and you act nothing.
Sei motherfucker. You better don't drive I tell you.
Waste people time and energy waiting for you only.
Got phone also dunno call.
Inside the whole fucking car all also tak ada otak one.
Thank god another sohai girl isn't in the car, if not confirm diu chao.

Fucking ruined.
because of that self-arrogant stupid brainless fucked retarded driver.



FUCK OFF LAR NEXT TIME.

Hell Yes.

It's late at night now and my mind is seriously corrupted.
I just finish blogging a ranting post in my public blog.
But here I am to start a new post that may cause alot of guilt and vengeance intention.

I don't know what I've really been through but I must admit.
I hate the fact of women existing as a power of equal among the society.
It's not really a random intention but this question is really haunting me ever since I met a few fucked up living pussy in my early life.
But today I'm not really giving a lecture.
I'm here to release stress.


First of all to the pussy I hate the most.
Lau Kah Yan.
People who read this blog might've know how much I hated her because.
She's the one who started all this. Literally. Un-intentionally.
She makes me hate every single living pussy on Earth.
In the dark side of me, I would really love to see 1000 men raping her 20 hours per day.
And torture her to become a sex slave.
Oh, public humiliation is unevitable for this fucking dope shit.
I wish I could just do it and hang her up on the KLCC and make news.
If it's possible, I would like to kill her whole family.
Oops, her sis is fuckable, so... I wouldn't really kill a money-machine, would I?

2nd.
This girl is actually kinda cute.
hmmmm... pretty? I not sure how to describe her but.
She's another fucked up.
Her name is Cheang Yee Ling.
I'm not sure what the fuck happened between me and her.
But she seems to be hated me so much and I don't know whats the main reason of it.
Is it because I appeared in her wet dream?
Or I accidently raped her? Nope, that never happened even though I've thought about it.
She has a very interesting personality and perhaps I could say... it's really unique.
Yeah? Because you know what?
SHE ONLY FUCKS WITH WHAT I'VE SAID.
Yes. ONLY. WITH WHAT I'VE SAID.
And she often ruin my mood because of that.
I HATE GIRLS FUCKS ME AND FUCKS WITH ME.
It's really humiliating.
I would like to see she become another cheap ho too.
It's one of my dream. My wish.

So like.. I got a long list about who I hate.

And then..
Ya, this girl is named.. Koh Ning Xin.
Everyone called her mika, but I seriously wanna fuck her up in several ways.
Not because she's sexy. But because she's hot.
TOO HOT TO HANDLE YOU KNOW?!
What kind of hot, you asked?
It's like a chilli.
It hurts your taste bud and your stomach.
I'm not sure what happen again but I got a pretty bad reputation among people.
So I guess she hates me for that and you know what?
I'm the only one got screamed in the class.
FUCK YOU LAR SEI SOHAI.
ONE DAY I TELL YOU I'LL STUCK AN EXHAUST PIPE IN YOUR PUSSY.
AND IF YOU MANAGE TO SURVIVE AFTER THAT.
GOOD LUCK. YOU CAN FINALLY HAVE FUN WITH HORSES.
H O R S E S. YOU MIGHT ACTUALLY ENJOY THEIR DICK BECAUSE THEY WERE MUCH SMALLER THAN AN EXHAUST PIPE.

and then..
Let's keep this short because it's really too long to talk about everything.

Lim Pui Kuen.
Lim Hwi Yee.
This 2 girl.. aihz, they're pretty.
And I think they can really make a fortune by prostituting.
Seriously dude.
They love to make plenty of public social appearances.
It's their dream to become a star. Pornstar that everyone dreamed to fuck with.

So many even me myself also dunno how to write.
Anyway. that's all for today.

Fuck off, folks.


Oops. Hell yes, I wanted to rape all the girl I listed above except one.
Lau KahYan. Because she's a boy.
I can't really fuck a dick right? It could do a lot of damage with a pipe and small hole.

我其实很普通。

现在是1：45凌晨

对 没有错

我还没睡

当然 我自己 本身也觉得很累

但是 现在的我想 逞一逞强

看看 自以为是的利害

到底 有多厉害

昨天下午

我什么都没做

我躲在宿舍 和朋友

来了个 所谓的讨论

然后 闲着没事做

我跟我朋友两人

去拿了成绩

前几天 听到室友说

我拿到不错的分数

我好高兴 自己好像厉害了

结果 却出乎预料的

比想象中 更差

好失望 好伤心

失望的时候 却不能诬赖别人

因为 这些 都是自己的错

我一直都在人家背后

讥笑人家 常常不读好书

做人做得那么失败

简直就是垃圾

其实 当我拿出镜子照时

我却比别人丑陋百倍

才发现原来

过去的讥笑

都是由嫉妒 和安慰

这两种丑陋无耻的嗜好而形成的

一直以来 都被这种学习风气

温柔体贴般 的被眷恋着

当年的霸气 输给了一个汤匙

输给了 一个装满白糖的汤匙

上瘾了 还不得已

还害到害虫滋生 任由弥漫

就来死了 还不清醒

我其实 是不是太幸福了呢

我很怀疑 我不明白

我到底 需要什么才能够改变呢

是不是 要等到我最亲爱的人死了

才甘心呢

是不是 要等到我最受用的身体残废呢

坦白说 我遇到很多问题

我遇过了 我却没有面对过

我一直都在 逃避

我害怕 许下的承诺是一种谎言

所以我不敢担当责任

已经是最后一个学期了

真的好怕 前途一片渺茫

本以为自己很厉害

其实 自己却是最普通的那个

只能靠有限的电池力量

来发出虚伪的光芒

我 真的很失败。

我其实 很普通。

It's dirty.

I went for clubbing last night.

And I drink a lot, but not a shit load, alot of divas.

Oh my oh my... these liquids sure brings alot of complicated ideas to the brain juices.

You can never imagine what is the chemical reaction resulting your mental.

Shaking asses.

Deep V boobies.

Bouncing titties.

Waving sweats and bellies.

These precious scenes are just in front of my very wet eyeball.

One small step forward of the hand could've get me a lawsuit of molesting these sexy Cinderellas.

Just can't resist myself of becoming a criminal after having so much so seduce in the club.

Drops. Balls. Makeups. Breathe. Lips.

Oooo yeah baby.

After the night I dreamt of having a crazy party with a female friend of mine.

I don't like her but she is kinda hot that night.

I should've grab her and kiss her brain outta her head.

and who knows? Maybe we end up on the bed having a super blast of the life.

Kissing and grabbing.

The highest level of getting high baby.

I'm dirty, it's a dirty secret.

xoxo <3

Cheers to the hotties of the world.

Feel free to come and shake your pussies and boobies up into my fantasy.

It's been a long time brother. Long.. long.. time.

我很不爽

我真的很不爽

到底有没有搞错

你们到底认不认识我

干吗有节目不预我

干吗把我排挤出去

我很多问题 就是大错

你们身边的那些朋友也有问题

但是做么他们都没有错的？？

我年纪小哦？

我思想幼稚哦？

我不帅哦？

我不够聪明哦？

我不够有钱哦？

我什么都没有？

我变成这个样子都是因为你们！！

我不理啦！！

什么事我都会责怪于你们！！

很多事情 都是要跟你们学习的！！

你们都不让我加入 我不知道该怎么办！！

我不知道你们的想法

我说错就得看你们那像狗般的脸色

我静静不出声你们就讲我很有问题

你们是想我怎样？？

我的确是说话没什么大脑

我没你们演技那么厉害

这些都是归功于你们这班扑街！！

我承认我很笨

我承认没天分

所以我才想多接触你们！！

我想学多一些！！知道多一些！！

平时找你们你们嫌我烦

不见你们找我我鸟你们？！

你说你不得空

但是你转头就和人家逍遥自在

找你出街 你说你没钱

别人找你出 交不出功课你都能去！！

不是没钱 不然就是没趣

说我很闷 说我很显！！

是你们！！你们小看我年龄

你们觉得我太小孩子 根本不想理我！！

每次都只针对我！！

认真和你们说话都不能得到好好的一个回答

还要看你们脸色过日子！！

不认真回答你们就说我耍脾气！！

平时说某某人很烦 转过头

还不是和他们打成一片 一起滚上床！！

说我一句 你很烦 过后就好像打仗般

势不两立 看到我都要凶神恶煞般盯我！！

还有你们这班女孩子！！

给我适可而止一点！！

别人跟你开玩笑 你还笑到跟人家做爱

我跟你开玩笑 你叫我跟狗做爱

你什么问题？？！！

干吗看到我就跑远远

干吗看到他们就连脱衣也来不及

很两极化你们知道吗？！！！

很讨厌你们！！！

很恨你们！！！！

恨不得想把你们撕开挂在街边卖！！

我不是一个很邪恶的人

我很正常 我比一般人都来得正常很多

但是就是因为你们的这种有色对比！！

你们弄到我根本不想理会世界！！

你们弄到我很想消灭人类！！！

你们弄到我觉得世界很丑陋！！！！

一点爱都没有！！！

一点面子感情什么都没有！！！！

每天看着你们嬉皮笑脸我很不开心！！

每天看着自己变得越来越陌生我更不开心！！

我一直在想 你们是不是都在骗我！！！

你是不是觉得我不在 世界变得很美丽！！

你们觉得我的存在一点都不重要！！

到底什么一回事！！！

我很愿意让你们看看我丑陋的心！

但是你们却觉得这是一种恶心呈现！

你们不知道把心掏出来的痛！！

那种牺牲是很痛的！

掏出来让你们看看那伤口

想让你们多了解我的累积！！

你们却讲我sohai!!

讲我死狗够力变态恶心！！！

我很累啦！！

你们统统去死！！！！

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It's pretty hard to know what your heart trying to tell.

But it's in my nature to hate every life on the Earth.

Please forgive me arrogant and childish thoughts.

But before that please prepare your own grave because you're so gonna die in no time.

You earthlings...!!

花

突然间
觉得自己
好不适合谈恋爱

其实 什么是爱情呢
我第一次 想这种问题
我第一次 问这个问题
我第一次 写这个问题

看戏常常都是
你让我有感觉 那是什么感觉？
我 真的不知道
是心跳加速吗 应该是
又好像不是
仔细想想 发觉自己对这门学问
有一定的矛盾

我有喜欢的女孩子
但是 说实话
我真的 喜欢每一个女孩子
只要能吸引我 我都喜欢
很奇怪吧

我不像其他男人一样
都能专注于一个
可以的话
我想要多多个

唉
那天 我喜欢的女生问了酱的一个问题
“你能够为你爱的女生付出多少，可以越过多少？”
我很正常的回答他
“凡事都以她优先”

很好听吧 以她优先

我回家后我想了想
我现在想追这个女的
可是我没什么可以为她牺牲
我根本 没那个本钱来亏钱
单纯的靠感觉 不能了
她这个年纪 她这个经历
不行了
已经不允许她这么傻傻 疯狂般
跟一个实验品站在边缘冒险了

呵呵 说实在
我不知道 怎样追女孩子
已经那么久了
那些心跳加速的曾经
现在想起
真的好幼稚

我不想一世都单身
我不希望爱一个我不爱的人
我更不希望 长大了才学会长大

已经错过了能疯能狂的时期
接下来的思想 绝对不能敷衍

我感到好难过
因为我觉得 一个人要谈一个成熟的恋爱
一定 要在少年时期经历过不少疯狂经验
每个人 都必须在青春狂热的时候
谈一场轰轰烈烈的一次
我现在20岁了
我什么都不懂
我什么都没有

我现在很想谈恋爱
说实在 我的目的非常自私
我谈恋爱 我觉得是一个必须
我谈恋爱 是一个成长过程
我不想错过 还能狂野的瞬间
哪怕是哪一分钟
我20岁了 我谈恋爱
真的不是少年时期的那个
我爱你 爱死你 全世界你是我的唯一 爱你哟宝贝
我的票已经过期了
只能拿来开个20分钟的玩笑
来留恋 来回味
想象中的鲁莽甜蜜

我现在 好希望
她能够让我倾听 让我深入
她那独一无二 甜蜜无比的心跳
呵呵 说起来 真够伤心的
我一点也不知道她是谁
我只是知道她和我说话
我一点也摸不透她
我一点也不认识她
我们彼此生活环境差了个地和天
彼此互不相干

她现在变美了许多
跟以前比较 的确是事实
而且生活习惯也变了
每天都过着和我截然不一样的生活
她很outgoing
我却天天在家里蹲
想找个聊得开的话题
有如登天一般难
因为接触环境关系
我知道 很多人在追她
而且还很有钱
又或许 她有了男朋友
唉 打到这里心好酸
明明就不能涉及与她的事

我好多想法
可是每个想法都有个矛盾
感觉好烦
猜不透 也想不透
曾经试过做人简单些
看到画面 却情不自禁
好失败

筱倩 你在哪里~
我想要你的温柔
我想要珍惜你的存在




好emo.


fuck. 头脑好乱，笨脑

sighs.
sometimes I feel so fucking sad about myself.

**
I really wanted to be.. the guy who can sacrifice himself for you.
I really wanted to be.. your one and only guardian angel.

Sighs...
what to do larh?!!
HOW?!!!

Teach me please. thank you.

Candy.

I heart you~

I suka you~

I want to hug you~

Candy baby~ come come~~

Suka.

I like you alot lerh...
how to say..
today you call my cell, actually i very happy one.

sighs.

but its just too bad.
that I know you'll never accept me.
we're both old enough to think ourselves.
and we're both living in 2 different society.

you have richness escort everyday.
you live your life independance.
you have your rainbow life.

i have no money.
i have no attitude.
i have no genius.
i dun even have any interesting section for you to admire.

aiiiihhhhzzzzzzz...
life is truly unfair.
its just taste like shit when you know how unfair it is.

anyway.. all i trying to tell is...
I suka you >.<

I heart you >.<

I want you to be my girl girl~~ >3<

Fuck.

The very first thing that comes into my mind is this.
FUCK.

I post a shoutout in facebook.
and I wrote. "失业是我的爱好~失业好好玩~"
Don't ask me why because I'm gonna tell you after this.

and then got one fella come and comment my status.
Ok lorh, replying only what. No problem.

He said." you lost job?" (a very bad grammar in a proper reply.)

I said." No.. but I'm currently jobless now XD." (I suppose that he could understand me.)

He replied." say no, but say jobless?dunno what you talking about =='"( ok sorry, he don't understand me, apparently.)

So I replied, "I never had a job, so I never lose a job. But I am so fucking jobless now, go learn better english please XD" ( I trying to explain, and of course.. lan sii abit, can't help it man, it's the natural traits of a animation student, the art of lansiiness)

and you know what he replied?
A very fucked up one, but I forgive his narrow knowledge lar, since everybody knows he retained twice and lose a few jobs in a row.
"I think you're the one who need to learn, the way you express got big problem, tq =)"
( What the fuck? WHAT THE FUCK?????? )

WHAT THE FUCK?!

Before I continue my fucking expressionism, let me translate what I'm trying to say.
Based on "I never had a job, so I never lose a job. But I'm so fucking jobless now, go learn better english please XD"
"我不曾拥有工作，所以我从来没失业过，但是我现在是失业分子"
Still don't understand??!!! Oh brother.. for motherfucked sake lar.

我不曾拥有工作, easy lorh? means I never had a job before.
所以我从来没失业过, easy right? means I never lose a job. means I never jobless before.
但是我现在是失业分子, walao you dun understand can bang wall d. means I'm jobless now.

phew.. translate job is hard man, especially for a english noob like me.

So back to the story, I was like, Oh My Fucking God?
Are you motherfucking retarded or what???
I know you got the all-known-superior google english dictionary...
But that shit never teach you how to use informal sentences..
Just like I diuz you "Oi lu machaohai 做么没有去打机?"
Can google dictionary fully translate the proper meaning or not?
NO MAH YOU FUCK-BRAINLESS-TARD.

I know my english not enough standard lar..
but you should know, yes YOU.
No need to look at the left and right because I'm slapping right in front of your fucked face.
You should know... Your english, never get better than me.
I'm so sorry that I'm so lan sii about it... but I just can't help it.
The truth is, I am very lan sii. and You're sucks.
You know that?? SO SUCKENING...!! LIKE A LEECH..!!
SUCK LIKE A BABI AND DIE WITH ONE SMALL PINCH OF SALT!!!

Wuaah laouh.. really cannot imagine lar.
But I forgive him for being so motherfucking sohai lar.
I can't really blame him for studying smelly shits for his whole loser life.
Right or not people?? See, I'm so saint, please call me an ice-cold motherfucker St. TaSiang.

Oh.. why do I blog about this person who just made a small mistake?
Easy, because I wanted to do so for a very very long time already.

What so special about this person?
Nothing. I guess I'm quite impressed with his loserness and lousiness... ya, I think that's it.

Ok. Let me list down his record. hahaha, it's one kind of loser facts if you wanna refer to.

.1 He retained for 2 semester.
First retainment is because of failing subjects, stupid lar, at last change idea, some more copy 99% from the original idea. Sad boy, he thought lecturer eye-blinded.
Second retainment because of his super-almighty-ultimate laziness. I also dunno why lerh, he paste a... big(? i suppose so) notice in front of his pc says... "Must get 2.4 GPA this sem!!" (For your info, before that he wrote 2.8 one if i not wrong... it drops to 2.4 dramatically.......sweat)
and then ok lar, everything went smooth, except he's so fucking addicted with some dao gei game and deny to be one of the addicted dao gei.
Ok worh, being an addict is still better than being an asshole right?
He fully used his addictness to propose the idea to his lecturer, and fucking approved by his lecturer..! So he design all the shits, and print out everything he could.
and Guess what?
At the very last minute, he didn't attend the presentation. What the fuck?
I was wondering why. Hahahahaha it makes me wanna laugh because.. even if I get a zero mark, I never get retained also. Sorry I being so motherfucking lan sii, it's in my nature!!!!

.2 He was dumped by his girlfrenz.
Why? Because his girlfrenz think he's a loser. Sad boy, your girl just poke the shit out of you man.
Unless you're very rich, like that no matter how loser are you your girl gonna stay with you... oh not you, YOUR MONEY forever and ever~
Anyway don't feel sad, you can try considering being fucked instead. =)

.3 He lose 3 jobs in 2 months.
After his 2nd 'retirement' in studies, he found a job, i forgot what he's doing d.
And I heard he's happy with it.
and then he never went to work after a few days of working.
First excuse. "Overslept."
Second excuse. "No event d, can off day."
Third excuse. (...eh, I got fired.)

He found 2nd job, he's selling Photoshop CS4 tutorial just right in front of my college.
My godness, that's the most stupid location ever to sell something like that.
Even Huungry Cafe auntie's skill also better than the tutorial lar oh my fucked god.
Ok, the very first day he told us.
"I've found a better job, a better one than this. Tomorrow you won't see me again liao. Hahaha"
(Shit, he talk like we'll fucking miss him alot, yeah, kiss my ass and let me kick yours until you kiss the moon)

and then He found a 3rd job.
That's a... Celcom customer service or some sort like that.
I heard the price is good, at least it's better than my sis' paid.
1600++ Per month, easy job, pick up calls, answer calls, disconnect calls.
and then he post "a good career oppurtunity even WITHOUT complete study" in facebook.
Hahaha, I know, we're all surprised by that, and felt offended by that (at least for me).
It's like he's teasing student like us will become a loser even with complete study you know?
Ok, never mind, me and my frenz said we look forward and see how he progress.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HE NEVER DISAPPOINT US I'D SAY..!!
For the first few days, he did attend for work.
and then, he didn't attend for work again.
First excuse."Shop renovating, because there is new area."
Second excuse."Shop renovating, not finish yet."
Third excuse. "I headache."
Fourth excuse. "I overslept."
Wow, record broken, got 4 excuses.
Everytime we see he didn't go for work, we laughed our shit out and roll on the floor like fire burning on our dicks. LOL
He's a really bad liar... I wonder what kind of shop would like to start their business when they still have renovation job taking place?
Like that I also wanna do lorh~ SO SIMPLE.
6 DAYS SLEEP 3 DAYS. SWEET LIKE HELL MAN.
and then few days ago he post again.
"Just come back from work, today work half day only, salary also half only ><" I was wondering whether this is true or wrong, because.. The next day he bought some newspaper and looking for jobs AGAIN.
(oh, 'the next day' is a weekday, working day, and he never went for work.
you know what I mean.)

4th job coming and we're so looking forward to see how he got fired again.
(Shit I'm so evil, but I'm enjoying being one...muahahahahhaa)

.4 He owe money, it depends on your imagination about the HUGE amount.
Like the title said. Elaboration is extremely unnecassary I should say.
All I can say is.. He likes to spend like a richie, while he's not.
Anyway cannot blame him, his imaginary vision has gotten into his real life.
It's a superior extremely rare trait of an ex-graphic design STUDENT.

---------
So...all I'm trying to say is...
My english is very bad, it often offend people because of the bad usage.
Like this,
"Motherfucking retarded brainiac shitdick uncle fucker with a huge beef jerky testis malfunctioned petrified."
See, sooooo bad.


(Oh yeah, I think he couldn't understand my last reply in my shoutout. Well, I hope XD)

A-hole.

Sometimes I've been wondering...
Why does people who don't wear specs, don't look clearly about the alphabets and digest it properly?

Lu bodoh ga?

anyway thats the super beginning of this post. cheers people.

-------------------------------------

Well.. it's been a long time since the last time I fucking update my blog.

I mean, I have 2 blogs and I've barely touch them now.

Nothing happened recently, nothing that special to be mention about.

So... yeah.. It's the 3rd week of studies and I have 7 weeks left.

Time passes real quick and you never realize it until your lecturer alarm you.

"Oi, bila mao hantar faina?"

(OOOoowwhhh diu lorh..!) Thats what student have inside their brain most of the time.

It's the fai-nal year for everyone of us, but except that special someONE.

We're having a headache everyday and that special someONE.

Never get a headache. NEVER~

Why? Is it because he's a superhuman with strong anti-body system?

Hell no people... He's very normal lar.. he tah fei kei also one..

But why is it he never get headache arh?

Because, whenever he feel headache or even, his hand fucking numbed.

He goes to sleep. Owh, I forget to mention that.

This special someONE is working. It's really funny, and fucked up about his great story.

So... yeah like I've said just now. Whenever he feels that somethings not right.

He goes to sleep. Just ... sleep ... ...zzz. ...zz. z.. ...zzz...

WHAT THE FUCK?

This fella is really geng lol... he quit study. and go for work.

but all he's been doing is sleeping only.

He already changed his job for like.. a few times already? nah, I better keep the number secret. HAH.

A months ago he quit his study, due to his super mega bummer duper motherfucked laziness.

and addictiness on gaming I suppose.. Neh that jibai kia lar, everytime he found new online game he'll drag everyone into the pool and see how they die in the flood.

Ok, back to the story.

He quit his study, and he say he wanna search for a job.

oh, the time he quit his study, his ex dumped him. pathetic combo...but I like it personally LOL.

Owh father please forgive me for being a total motherfucker ninja~

At first he's on fire, I can feel the heat baby! At least he thought his heat burn everyone else..

But certainly not affected an ice cold handsome chillin' ninja like me... hmmm I'm proud.

I can see his effort on searching jobs. But I think he never give it all..

But never mind, days later he found a job. and Everyone asked about it.

"Oi whats that lanjiao job about" "Hah, err.. that job is about doing advertising campaign and events and all kinds of shits lar."
"I thought you looking for graphic designing related post?"
"This got related ma, do event."

Ok lorh, I know he get the wrong stuff and shits liao lar.

He never check the dictionary. Forgive this fool please.

and guess what?

He wake up early to get to work.

He bought formal dress.. oops not dress lar, formal attire.

Forgive me from being smart like an ice ninja killa.. thanks.

The first few days.. like 3 days? Everything was cool. Smooth like a puss.

But after that, shit happened. He's getting a headache.

He sleep. and sleep.. and .. sleep.. z.. z...zzz.. ...zzz...

Ok lor.. never mind lorh.. first time ma, getting an MC during trial. (wtf?)

But then.. the next 2 days his lanjiao pain. Sleep.

Finger pain due to extreme dota and footballs. Sleep.

Brain pain due to extreme streaming on dota and footballs skills. Sleep.

Eye pain due to extreme blue-filming. Sleep.

At last, he get fired. Very fast pace. 2 Weeks only if I not wrong.

and then he said he got a better job. That so nice, if he got someone to lie with.

Days later he found another job. He worked as a promoter.

and that job really gets to my exciting nerves. It makes me laugh my ass out all the time.

Even the shits also could reverse through my intestine to my fucking mouth. LOL.

Ok, here goes. He worked as a promoter, promoting DVDs. Eh, ori one ok.

"PHOTOSHOP CS3 TUTORIAL"
HOLYSHIT SHIT SHIT OH MAI GOD.

HE'S FUCKING SELLING IT IN THE STREET RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY COLLEGE.

HALO BOSS, LU TAO APA COLLEGE SAYA BELAJAR?

DASEIN ART OF ACADEMY BOSS. BOLEH RIPIT DENGAN SAYA GA BOSS?

Mai goodness, the GD students in my college also can do better than the tutorials in the dvd lol.. mai gawd.. foundation student might fall into it lar. XD

and then he said.."I only work here for a day only, and then you guys won't see me here liao. Because I found another better job"
Sounds familiar? "B E T T E R J O B"

Ha Ha. A present for you.

And ya, days later again, he found another job.

I heard he's working.. as a celcom customer service cadet something like that.

the paid was fair though. and you know what he did after he get the job?

He typed this.

"great career opportunity even WITHOUT complete study~" in facebook.

I know, it feels lan sii. Extraordinary Lan-siiness.

Aku tao you nak expess feeling boss.. but don't type like this lar.

You finish study only type also not late lorh pundek.

You see what happen now? By next month you'll be jobless again I tell you.

Got yourself a good job, and then you're wasting it again.

One week consist of 6 working days.

and Every week you have your own permission off-day.

What the fuck man? 2 FUCKING OFF DAY.

IF YOU'RE WORKING 5 DAYS PER WEEK.

THAT MEANS YOUR WORKING LOAD IS HALF OF OTHERS AND YOU GET NORMAL PAID??!!!

WOW THAT'S A REALLY GOOD SHIT TO DO YOU KNOW.

IT'S REALLY A GOOD CAREER OPPORTUNITY WITHOUT STUDY!!!

A MOTHERFUCKING GOOD ONE PERHAPS, LIKE THAT ALL PEOPLE BECOME BOSS LIAO LORHH WALAOUH

Good try lar boy, I really admire your laziness lar.

I damn jealous you ler, I also wanna get a job something like that.

Can sleep can get normal paid and most importantly, I can just sit back, laid back, and laugh at people while they fucking work their asses off.

Isn't it great?

Ooops, for your info, I think he just got fired again, cause I saw he asking for freelance jobs at february. See? today is 24th January.

****the below memo is a piece of mine for him. Viewer discretion is advised. If you're not reaching the year of 3 please fuck off and suck your mama's wondermilk.****

FUCK OFF LAR RETARDED SHIT MOTHERFUCKER.

I CAN EVEN WRITE OUT A FUCKING BOOK ABOUT YOUR MOTHERFUCKED LIFE AND EARN ROYALTIES EVERY WEEK YOU KNOW?

"SHOW PEOPLE I CAN DO IT" WAAA

DON'T MAKE PEOPLE LAUGH LAR.

AFTER QUITTING STUDY STILL KACAO KACAO.

NOW YOUR EX ALSO DUN WAN DIUZ YOU LIAO LAR CHAOHAI.

BLOCK GAO YOU ALSO. SOME MORE I THINK HER FACEBOOK ALSO CHANGE ID BECAUSE OF YOUR RETARDED IMMATURED ACT I TELL YOU.

NO MONEY STILL LEARN PEOPLE SPEND MONEY.

NO GUTS STILL LEARN PEOPLE ACT PRO.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOUR TINY LION BRAIN?

STOP WASTING PEOPLE AROUND YOU LAR CHIBAI.

WASTING MONEY WASTING TIME WASTING ENERY WASTING CHANCES.

YOU THOUGHT YOU GET FIRED AND GET ANOTHER JOB THATS IT ARH?

YOU THOUGHT YOU CAN WORK 2 WEEKS AND REST 2 YEARS AND WORK FOR ANOTHER 2 WEEKS ARH?

DON'T FORGET YOU'RE 23 THIS YEAR. YOU'RE STILL BREATHING IN KL BECAUSE YOUR FAMILY IS SETTLING YOUR FINANCIAL STATUS I TELLIN' YOU.

GOT RETAINED TWICE AND YET YOU'RE LEARNING NOTHING FROM YOUR MOTHERFUCKING MISTAKES.

DON'T RUN AND TELL PEOPLE NO ONE UNDERSTAND YOU AND YOUR FUCKED-UP SITUATION.

IS YOU YOURSELF WHO DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONTROL SHITS IN YOUR ASS.

ONE LAST FAI NAL WORD FOR YOU LAR ASSHOLE.

FUCK OFF AND BALIK KAMPUNG...!!!

其实
没什么好说的
这里没有人看到

该从哪里开始呢

今天
父母吵架了
还打起来
差点就酿成一场血祭

妈妈
因为爸爸的一些举动
感到很烦恼
今天
不知觉的 爆发了

我
一直都在旁观看
整个过程
觉得 妈妈好幼稚

我 看了以后
我直觉 爸爸其实没有错
有， 他也很冷静的解释
没错 我觉得 我爸爸
很明白事理
很佩服 我爸爸
没有动手

我妈妈
骂了两下
就打了三下
还一度冲动的
拿刀 叫爸爸杀死他
好幼稚
此动作 何止怕死
还很没有脑

我现在好想
找个好朋友
诉苦
虽然 不关我事
但是
我 很懊恼

朋友，你好啊~

首先我想说
谁酱得空没事做走去惹哭她？！！！

干你...得空没事做就去和你的女友做爱吧
插前面显了就插屁股洞，很刺激的！！！
你老娘的草枝摆...

刚刚一个朋友哭了
就被刚刚我讲的那个臭枝摆王八混蛋大魔王惹哭的
干！
言归正传，这个朋友她哭了
因为经不起寂寞的考验
所以她哭了

她
其实有好朋友
也不是小猫两三只般的数量
至少我看得到，那里有一帮
在本地 她跟她的朋友
的感情都很好
一块儿玩
一块儿癫
什么事 都是一块儿的
就好象发了誓般
一世人扯不开

结果
她比我们每一个
都早了 出发攻陷海外
我还记得送机当天
场面 是有几分心酸 几分感动 几分不舍
那些流过的眼泪 就好象梦一般
被岁月冲洗以后
就像早晨般 任何事物 都翻新了
连泪水化成的那条钻石桥
也溶化了 感觉好像 什么也没有过

她 只身到了海外
准备考验自己 测试自己
努力的岁月 却不能让他摆脱
寂寞的缠绕

已经过了一年半左右
姐姐的忽略
朋友稀少
种种的因素 让他觉得这个冬天
特别的冷
一颗炽热的心
就来认输了

当年的感情
冲淡了 一年半后
仿佛被遗忘人间
经提醒 好不容易
才能唤醒 那段回忆

他很努力
记着每一个特别时光
为的只是 能和本地的好朋友
一起同步欢喜

结果 残酷无比
冰冷不堪 的时间
刺透了这颗 炽热的心

崩溃只是他现在的反应
他梦想的回报
原来只是虚报

伤心欲绝的前提下
我跟他说了说话
他累了 他睡了

hmmmm...
what to say now.

firstly i'm fucking tired.
its 3.35 now and i think i'm going to go to bed very soon enough.

just now i was discussing something with a.. former classmate.
she's having trouble finding a boyfrenz.

so i try to suggest something i think might work.
and you know what. she fucked me.
and say i naive.

i was totally stunned. and i shaddap.
and then she just keep on diu diu diu diu like no tomorrow. walao.
hehe maybe she's fucking true about anything.
since i'm not that matured like her
i dun think no shit you know.

so..
she said.
no people chase her.
so i said..
maybe you should try putting make-up.
might help a little. go ask your frenz help.
she should be good at it.
'she also no people chase her one lorh. even if she put make-up.'
and then i said.. its really none of the business about she's got admirer with makeups.
all i trying to tell her is.
maybe she wear make-up got better result. might get attention ma.

and then she say makeup is not that neccesary and might not effective also.
then i said.. you havent try also.
she diuz me lorh, say.. how you know i never try. since we so long never meet each other.
so i said i sorry lorh.

and then she start to diuz me d. i also dunno why the fuck she wanna fuck me though.
i just trying to suggest her some ways to attract boys.
it might not work, but at least people will glipse on you.

and she said..
"stop being a god" ...........i fucking speechless.
aihz maybe my word is alittle too hard.
hahahaha anyway fuck it.

and then...
..she said she wanna sell natural beautiness.
so i said lor.. since no one care about your natural beautiness.
and you so desperate.
better wear makeup lar. better ma.
and i then i said.
'i tell you, i put you with someone together. the audience won't choose you de.'
'your radiant also not there. how you going to sell.'

hmmmm i guess she's not really comfortable with that.
i think i'm too honest though.
she said i'm too brainless to talk.


anyway this is just some random post for none to read.
all i wanna say is...
suggesting also a bad idea. for me. =.=
because my idea.. has a very complete storyline in it.
it might sounds stupid. it might sounds ridiculous.
any possibilities you can get something in stupidity. right?

anyway.
I'm stupid. thats what people said, i guess.
I have a very low self-esteem. at least I think so.