Memoirs .3

2003 to 2007. secondary school memo.

2003_ 1 daisi 3.
the place i first met with sze wen. mei yen.
boon. cheelit. toongtzee. song. kok leong. and etc.
i remembered clearly. i was forced.
i had to become the black sheep of that event.
they blame me for making the teacher lose her job.
and that year i like jessica. ngu's daughter.
and i met many frenz from neighbour class.
z-xiang. michael lee. yeeling. and others.
i still remember that time i still can chat.
with old primary school frenz. but that year.
not so good for me though. well.
it's juz a memory. =)

2004_ 2 daisi 1.
where i met kahyan. meiyee. sinsin.
many more lar. again =.= .
that year. was the worst school life i ever had.
i molested my frenz's gurlfrenz. and.
sent to diciplinary office to accept my punishment.
and i was insulted heavily everyday by kahyan.
if i not wrong. ignored by peoples around.
in class. i can't recognize the people beside me.
as my classmates. worst year. and.
my attitude sucks too. sorry everyone.
oh ya. sze wen changed her hairstyle that year =).

2005_ 3 daisi 5.
morning session class. i was same class with kok leong again.
and thank him. he forgave for what i've done to her gurlzfrenz.
i feel so grateful. and thank god. that year i have frenz.
karmay and piack way. and that year. the lala boy.
goh chuen yee. penguinx came to my class.
he changed from katholik high. i remember well.
he like to bully me. and i like to play with him too. =)
piack way. you are so straight that year. and funny.
karmay. nothing to say about you. but in class.
i think karmay, piackway, kok leong, goh.
is the most familiar frenz in my class.
thank you all. and that year. i sold my frenz off.
chan yang li. i feel so sorry about that. because.
i really dunno who tell you that. i also dunno.
whether did i tell anyone about that. but i guess.
i did. =( so sorry about that. very very sorry.
and finally. kahyan agreed my existance.
she start to talk with me. and i feel happy about that.
but still. i juz like a stranger to her.
PMR. go to kasturi tuition. wasting time and money.
and i met my kindergarden frenz. and met a new frenz.
jian ting and chai han yong. these 2 fellow.
super funny. funniest group i ever met.
feel happy for such reunion with jian ting.
and i still remember. when we attend seminar.
we provoked the indian gangster =.= . scared.
but luckily they didn't pick up a fight. thank god!!!
that time before pmr. i still can play with sze wen they all.
but when pmr around the corner. they dun bother me anymore.
i wonder why? i thought the relationship between me and them.
are closer than last time. but it seems like. they juz reply.
as a normal classmates. oh ya. that time i got a little bit.
feel on mei yen and sze wen. =( screw me.

2006_4 daisi 2.
i was chosen to be in science stream.
and of course. i was hoping to be same class with sze wen and meiyen.
but still. we were seperate. i feel so unhappy.
but never mind. i have new frenz in class.
z-xiang. teh. ckc. kahwei. you all are the best.
oops. and jenn shyang. but that year.
i less interact with jenn shyang. cause i heard. that time he very lan sii.
about his superior result. =.= sorry boss.
and that year i was same class as kahyan peiwen puiying sinsin.
the 4 leng luis in our class (lol? 4???) which later.
they called themselves the SHIT group. stupid =.= .
...hmmm. that year was so happy.
i can chat with kahyan. among the gurlz.
i chat with her the most. more than any other gurlz.
and i feel happy about it. everyday juz wanna chat with her.
then got rumors about 2 of us. if i not wrong. sorry if i mistaken. =P
oh ya. that year i joined chinese society interactive event.
and i helped out. not alot though. and then. i frenz with yangshan.
he's a good guyz. but a true MEN. hahaha. you know what i mean.
sorry yangshan. your plan was sucks that time. but still.
people stay till the event ends. hahahahaha.
and that time i was active in drama acting. teachers recognize me =.= .
i was look like a fool on the stage. but i was happy. i enjoyed it.
every moment every second. thanks for the oppurtunity.
what happen next that year. i forgotten. hahahaha.
i juz know. 2006. is the best among the 5 years secondary school life.
everybody starting to accept me. and i go for art class.
thanks everybody. who accept me as their frenz.
thank you. sincerely. in my heart.

2007_5 daisi 2.
this year. the class was same as last year.
and i sit in front kahyan. beside z-xiang.
i interact alot with z-xiang. thanks for replying me too. z-xiang.
and i try to talk with other frenz too.
many bitsy stuff happen in the class.
and we went to eye on malaysia for photograph.
for our magazine column purpose. the trip.
was between sucks and good. screw me =.=.
and i finally found out that. actually.
frenz are hiding themselves. i dun blame them.
oh ya. there's a gay in my class.
he say he would like to sacrifice himself for another guyz.
juz to be his best frenz. =.= man this sucks. officially.
i join the school uniform group camping too.
we went to mountain and camping there.
that trip was sucks. i was so selfish that time.
and totally no mood. because.
i was ignored by kahyan they all.
i dunno what happen. they juz hate me suddenly.
especially kahyan. after that trip she hate me so much.
but i know clearly now. it's not her problem. to her.
it's not my problem. to me. we can blame each other.
but i rather be blamed. i was too childish. and naive.
maybe thats why she ignored me. and i admit that.
i luv you. kahyan. i miss you every second.
but you seems like dun giving chance. i feel very sad.
real sad. i dunno why you hate me so much.
yea. 2007 i have a bunch of cocking frenz.
hahahahaha. thanks to them.
somehow my school life wouldn't so boring.
thank you all. thanks.
oh ya. and that year i sold a gurl off.
piackway. she said she told me her secret.
because to show that she trusted me.
sorry. my mouth are big. there is no turning back now.
and. although you forgive me.
that juz appearance speaking. i know.
in your heart. you hate me to the deepest.
never mind. i still guilty forever.
2007. absolutely anti-gurlz year.
oops. is being anti by gurlz.
and. SPM sucks.......................

i think thats all for my school life in 2003 to 2007.
2003 _ a bad start . 2004 _ nightmare.
2005 _ a U-turn. 2006 _ rising up.
2007 _ shocking. stupid me.

kahyan _ i wanna be your frenz. juz frenz.
please dun be so cool to me. ok?
i wanna talk with you. like the way we was last time.
i dun really satisfy with your answer you gave last time.
i feel so unworthy. i thought our relationship.
is strong enough. sighs. to tell you the truth.
i miss you every night. every day. in my heart.
but. it seems like. you dun appreciate.
here. i wish you good luck. and.
i will remember the time we spent together.
i will never forget. your name. Lau Kah Yan.
i luv you. and. goodbye.

sze wen _ you are so fake. i like to talk to you.
i show you my sincere. but you still lying back at me.
thats why i not bothering you anymore.
since you thought like that. i was speechless.
and. 5 years. i know you 5 years. and you know how many picture we taken together?
within 5 years? juz one. our form one class photograph.
that was sucks. go away.

mei yen _ you too. you are almost same with sze wen.
5 years. we juz taken one picture together.
i thought you were open minded. juz one more picture.
one last time. you also dun wan. what the hell?
why are you so bothering about people say your appearance?
"mei yen, something was on your hair."
"i dun wan take ler. dun wan lar" what the fuck?
you sucks. officially and totally.
get lost. i thought you agreed my existance too.

karmay _ i hate you. and you hate me as well.
lame faker. screw off.

sinsin _ you're sucks. sucks like shit.
you're clone of kahyan? or perhaps.
i should say you like to follow people fart???
stop being controlled. screw you for not fetching me purposely.
and thank you for finally fetching me these few weeks.

puiying _ i know you're good. and.
the relationship between kahyan they all are important.
but you're bluffing yourself. and you're becoming like them.
get lost and bang the wall. bitch.

kahwei _ taigo. please lar.
life have no 2nd chance. appreciate.

teng suk yian _ stupid fat bitch.

sharon and jiaqi _ so fake. still fake.
very fake. other than fake. still fake.

i think thats all i wanna say after these 5 years.
sorry everyone. and.
thanks everyone. i luv you all.
thanks for giving me the chance to be your frenz.
and sharing memories together.
T H A N K Y O U A L L .

" I love you all. "
_by Hero†, in front of his own pc.

soon enough i'll kiss 2007 goodbye.
feel hard about it. cause. 2007.
is the year i leave my frenz.
frenz that i admire. i like. i luv.
sighs. dun wan say too much here.
maybe tomorrow write the whole story here.
it might be the longest post in my blog.
and.
i failed my undang test twice.
stupid. do i??

ok now. 3 days to go. before 2008.
i wanna make a promise here.
i'll make a confession.
within these 3 days. a confess.
about my 5 years secondary school life.
to all my frenz. new and old.

countdown for the truth.

i appreciate the dinner.
but it was jzu too much. and.
there is a rain outside.
my mood spoiled. so sorry.

watched warlord. nice.
a realistic society historical movie.
brother-hood. the line which bind people together.
and the line which ended by their own brothers.

lonely lonely christmas~~

ass.
my dad blaming me for not study well again.
and i checked.
i dun have the minimum requirement to go for college.
sad =( .

wanna share this song. quite old. but nice.
那首歌 _by 林侑嘉

monday. 17th december. the day is still the same.
same ol' me. same ol' house. same ol' environment.
see edi sien-zz. but never mind. i know.
the night will arrange a plan for me.
yeap. i went to my taigo house birthday party that day.
about. 20 peoples. barbeque. fried rice (not bad one. home made =) ).
and. playstation 2 =) . the main point of going.

i reach there about 6. and start play from 6. =.=
play until 11pm. and of course.
i burn some food for me. but too bad.
the chicken wings aren't so perfect as i thought.
maybe because it was the first time they throw bbq party.
and of course. the un-satisfaction also caused by.
some major technical problem =.= .
we eat. play. laugh. shout profanity in the house ( lol? ) .
quite happy. and screw that steamer.
he ruin my oppoturnity to get the videos =.= .
the gang leave at 11. and so was i.
and. ah yap. need step the gas so hard ma??
juz 100 meter road need reach 50km/h ???
dangerous. no wonder we always be blamed .

kahyan. i miss you so much.
what can i do for you? just to see you.
_by Hero† in pc / store room.

the cruise i board is called Wasa Queen.
and then company is called Star Cruise =.= .
sorry that i made a mistake in last post.

the trip is so boooooooring.
70% of the site in the ship is cabin. where visitors sleep.
and the remaining site are some entertainment facilities.
restaurant. disco. pub. KTV. and the most famous place.
C A S I N O. where old folks spent their time and lose their money.
the casino allow 18 and above ages to go in. too bad.
i'm juz 17. i thought the guard stupid but. he got a list.
that stated everything in there. and so are my age.
so i spent my time by calling my frenz. cook porridge on the phone.
and spent about 15 dollar juz talking to him.
i such a jerk. =.= . 2 days 1 night. sleep with boredom.

then the next day i left the ship in the morning.
and miss the sunrise part. because i'm juz too tired.
after my family take us to sunway pyramid.
to lurking around and spent some time.
and in the mean time. i bought a jeans and a shirt.
thanks for the person who paid the money. total $150.
after that we went to bukit kiara. to have a lunch with relatives.
because my cousins juz came back from austrialia for their summer vacation.
the place is sime darby business school if i'm not wrong.
and inside have a chinese restaurant.
where only rich people usually appear and eat in there.
so as usual. my uncle book a VIP room and 3 tables.
and we juz sit there and eat and talk abit bit.
the hell. my cousin. 16 years old. 181 cm.
last time he was juz as the same height as me.
but now. more than one and a half head. sad =( .

after the lunch we juz go home straight.
and everybody was sleeping except my sister. father.
they busying reading their stuff.

most probably going for january intake.
anyone here can teach me. how to go DASEIN???

"Help please. I've no idea. "
_by Hero† in front of this pathetic screen.

Friday 14th December 2007.
i went to sunway lagoon to play water with another 8 frenz.
4 gurlz 5 boyz including me. what should i say.
this trip is juz between sux and good.
what is the good part. that is many matured and hot
jiejie and leng lui go there and play. wearing bikini =) .
while the sux part is. when we meeting in school.
the gurlz thought we know the way to lagoon. and.
the driver get fed up. as well as i am. because. the gurlz juz
go on their way and left us behind. left us ourselves to figure
a way to sunway lagoon. and wasted alot of time on traffic jams.
.2 sux part is. the day still wet and raining. =( totally ruin the mood.
and the day was so cold. once jump out form water then start shivering.
bbbrrrrrrr. damn cold =.= .

then we went for pizza hut. and spent about $110 on our meal.
if i'm not wrong. 3 regular and 1 large. or 4 regular and 1 large.
forget =( . the meal was juz so normal. because it can only choose
those normal pizza. but not new recipe pizza. sad. and the service are not so good though.
imagine. 10% of service charge. Pizza Hut of Sunway Pyramid.
you may bang the wall from now.

so thats end of Friday's trip. too bad i'm short-sightened.
if not. today i should be capture many bikini hot gurlz in my head.
too bad. too bad. so so too bad.

and later about 4pm. gonna go holiday on a cruise.
Gemini cruise. if i'm not wrong. juz 2 days one night on that cruise.
nothing to do. juz run along and discover the ship.
and. feel the breeze. =)

" Awwww, man. I can't see a thing! "
_By Hero† .inside

I'm a Legend?? Taste my shit =(

today i wake at 12.00 pm. and receive one of my frenz sms.
he say. the movie starts at 1.30pm. starring by Will Smith.
" I'm a Legend "


stupid show =( . wasted $9. and me and my frenz we walk around and see.
they bowl. i see =( . short of paper. after that i came back and check on the web.
for the college january intake. and check on the fees too.
WHAT THE HELL. The One Academy and Dasein Academy of Art fees have such a big differences. TOA is juz way too expensive. Dasein still ok. but the problem is. Where is Dasein?
haven't been there before. but i've check the address. i think its quite near TARC.
at wangsa maju. Setapak.

tomorrow going to play water =)
and. this holiday sucks.

guess what. i wake up at 7.02 am.
gay. right??? extremely GAY.

the day after tomorrow i'll be going sunway.
the lagoon. to play water. i heard.
it was a class trip. but juz 15 of us going.
looking forward to it. at the same time.
preparing for the consequences. being a fool.

and tomorrow. i gonna go for a movie.
errr. what movie i dunno. i juz leave it to my frenz.
but i heard he say. wanna watch The Legend ( correct me if i'm wrong ).
and my brother say. this movie. shows on 20th ++ .
confusing. but still. there are many new movies to let us enjoy.
The Golden Compass. Warlord. National Treasure : Book Of Secret.
Alien VS Predator 2. Chronicles of Narnia : Prince Caspian ( heard it shows in 8 May 08)
and what else. i forget already. hahahaha ( lol ) .


by the way. yesterday i spent half day to watch 8 episodes of Prison Break.
Story starts with Michael Scofield. His brother Lincoln Burrow and etc etc.
Place setting. Sona. Prison of Panama. Time Setting. I think is juz daytime.
Social setting. Beats me.
this show is extremely rocks. i juz fall in luv with it.
the storyline are good. the characters are good.
dialogue are good too. and the way the cameraman takes every scene.
i bet. least people would have do that way.
and the way they break the prison. is far too smarter than how we break.
in malaysia.

" I'm Gay. " (?)
_by Wentworth Miller. starring as Michael Scofield in Prison Break.

today i wasted my time with my frenz. doing some useless stuff.
not only the time. and my cash too. never mind. i juz dun wanna mention about it.

i have a frenz. her life was well-scheduled.
i bet she's been busy lately. even though spm is over.
shifting. buying. shopping. learning. and etc.
i know now. without a doubt. she is the gurlz i admire so much.
brilliant. hardworked. social magnet. rich. pretty. and other etc facts.
maybe she having some problem that i can't imagine too.
but. she have the bravery to take on them. surpassed.
she is a lucky gurlz. a very lucky gurlz. that even god.
would wanna protect for the rest of her life.

" Bravo, fIfIFei "
_ Hero† by S.m.K.S.K

well. juz read some people's blog. suddenly.
felt like wanna do something extraordinary.
but how. i have got no idea.

.1 says. sorry about this and that.
.2 says. sorry about this and that too.
.3 says. i'll gonna miss you all.
.4 1 + .2 + .3 = etc etc etc.

why. hearts are unpredictable.
maybe later i gonna follow them too.
cause. i have something to apologize also.

but. not now. for sure.
or maybe not. apologize doesn't trade in anything.
instead. you trade in your pride. strange.
but still people like to do it.

" Heart it's full kinds of a feeling. "
_Sora by Kingdom Heart 2

suddenly i felt my family damn stupid.
dunno why. maybe juz my heart confusing.

sighs.

whatever lar.

it's finally ended.

applause from everyone. bye for everyone.
cheer for everyone. look for everyone.

people changed after this. but i'm still me.
myself. wonder if. i juz stay at the usual spot.

goodbye everyone. set the future. be what you wanna be.
and i, will be what i used to be.

damn it. juz heard a bad news from my frenz.
he said someone got the photos i edited last time.
the photos i edit for fun. and it contain 18+ stuff.

the hell. hellllllllll.
dunno which imbeciles sell me out.
sighs. maybe thats the ending for what i've done.

this holiday. sure is bored. all i do is juz playing.
playing my playstation 2. Kingdom Heart 2. Proud mode. means hard mode.
damn hard.

i miss her.

juz saw her online in msn.

guess that, she didn't even bother about me.

well, i guess one of my frenz, enjoying chatting with her juz now.

fooled again.

i feel like being fooled by people.

bluffing myself.

s i e n z .

Confession .2

刚刚搬完座椅，独自从学校走回来。
表面上说“没什么舍不得，走吧~”
可是心里却感到非常遗憾。
看着校舍，勾起了很多回忆。喜怒哀乐，都有。
我曾经在这所学校喜欢上一个人。
刚开始她很串，也没什么认同我。
我也很讨厌她。直到初三，也许是她变通了。
我们开始像平常那样聊天。
然后很凑巧，高一也跟她同班。
不知不觉，我跟她的感情比以前好了一些些。
然后我喜欢了她。我们俩的感情一路来，应该算是不错。
但是，永远只是一个童话，一个幻想。
到了高二，我们的距离慢慢疏远了。
她说，我很幼稚。我没话说。
我也觉得她幼稚，但我没说。
然后我喜欢她的事，不知不觉中散播了出去。
其实我觉得她并不会很在意。
但是她还是很讨厌我，也许是看不起我吧。
我没关系，我之后，也想过要放弃。
我想和她成为朋友。我不想毕业后见面了，却像陌生人一样，擦肩而过。
也许我朋友说得没错，事情不说出来，没有人会知道真相。
但是既然她觉得，多我不多，少我不少。
我没话说，也没想过要挽回，过了就算了吧。
反正我也不是站在她舞台上的人。不关要紧。
现在我没跟她说过话了，她也没跟我说话。
我很欣赏我的朋友，他很有勇气去挽回和她的关系。
我真的很放不开我们的感情，我很不舍得。
我很妒嫉，我很羡慕，我很想要，我很需要。
我很遗憾，真的很遗憾。
原来这一切只是一个谎言。一个美丽的谎言。

其实，在放弃她的时候，我喜欢上另外一个女孩。
也许是因为她经历过不少风雨，她思想很成熟。
回想，我跟她一起出街的次数，屈指可数。
有一次，就和朋友去看戏，然后她就跟来了。
那一天的事情，我很记得，一清二楚。
虽然我们没怎么样谈天，但是她的性格，在我心里印下深刻的烙印。
很少女孩，会像她那样。
其实我知道，她不可能会喜欢我。
没关系。我就和她做朋友，就满足了。
事情并没想象中般顺利。因为她朋友很多。
好朋友也很多。而且她再也不是以前的她了。
想和她沟通，再也没有比这件事更难。
也许，她不相信我了。
也可能，她觉得我很幼稚，无药可救。
Fine,我对自己说。

这世界，很享受玩弄别人。
我也被玩弄在手。很悲哀。

生存，就是为了遗憾世事。
遗憾世事，就是为了生存。

我很羡慕，也很妒嫉，每一个男生。

shit lor =.=
my frenz says, i absent for 27 days jor...
almost reach the limit ler...if over 30 days, then my kelakuan will get a C
sienzzz... if the teacher tell me earlier then today i go school lar =.=
god damn it, i'm ass-fucked~

yea~~!!!! say bravo for Disney and Vanessa Anne Hudgens~~
DISNEY are not going to kick vanessa away~!!!!
hooray for Vanessa!! Hooray for High School Musical 3~~!!!
thank god.

woot? Ashley Tisdale, aka Sharpay Evan in High School Musical.
have her own album, HeadStrong, now only i noticed =.=
some of her song quite nice. modern pop. i recommend...
"He Said She Said"

juz hang around in YouTube. found this funny parody of High School Musical.
ENJOY.

reasons why i hate to having meal with my family members.

1. they chew food with mouth opened.
2. they like to use the spoon to knock the plates and bowl.
3. the sound of chewing food of theirs are so disgusting.

damn it..

juz heard another jay new song, 彩虹, errrr, i believe that if you hear Secret OST before. you will found out that the song is juz exactly same like 淡水河边.

another few 10 days, i'm going to face the most important exam in my lifetime.
people says, future depends on it. i dunno about it.

its glad that i totally ignore her existance. i bet she feel happy with that too.
fuck off.

damn the xiao loong zi, always pull my plug. everytime i can finish my download
but you pulled my plug. damn you, DAMN YOU ! ! !

ahhhh, finish my contest stuff, feel so free now. doing new project...errr, not new lar. =.=
now i focus on my maths, add maths, engli...woops? and my character designing.

well, i've change my blog's theme song, Breaking Free by Troy_Zac Efron featuring Gabriella_Vanessa Hudgen. nice song, a original soundtrack of High School Musical season 1.

" ooo we're breaking free~~ "
yes, we do need to breaking free, need air here.

我爱我的新村~~

latest artwork of mine, gonna use it to win some cash, dunno can or not =.=
title 我爱我的新村~~~
this is the picture i based on...taken by my art teacher. Mr Hew photo skills rox!!

this is my artwork, based on the picture above. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
if got any pro here, comment please ~~

wow, my bro bought a new laptop for himself.
and i juz found out that, many old title games, has been active recently.
in latest form.
i juz finish checking out for some consoles top games, and some new titles trailer.

Need For Speed ProStreet rocks, it depends on your cash, if you dun have the papers in the game, your broken drive will HAD to use plasters, cellophane tape to join the broken pieces up. gay, eh?

And i juz check out the new Street Fighter IV, which i think, not a big deal
but still i'll go see the trailer. cause, Street Fighter was once my childhood memoirs....hehehe
here's the first trailer of new Street Fighter title, Street Fighter IV.
very nice, is juz the 2 main character fighting, Ryu and Ken. but in 21st century ways combined with Chinese Ink Painting skills...PRO.

Jason Bourne.

juz finish watching The Bourne Supremacy.
i juz luv The Bourne movies~ their storyline rocks!!!

well, i think i get the image of the whole story~
the Bourne movies seperate in 3 episodes.
First is The Bourne Identity, which introduce who is Jason Bourne.
Second is The Bourne Supremacy, to seek answer and revenge of Jason Bourne's girl.
Third is The Bourne Ultimatum, Jason Bourne find out an answer of himself.

wow, i can tell that this movie director, are genius.
i juz luv luv luv luv LUV their storyline.

here are some of its promotional posters. click for bigger image.
but seriously, The Bourne Identity poster sux =.= .

Sadistic .1

well err...
this holiday makes me feel so depressed.
dunno why, its juz a single word, that i used to say to the others, and listen from the others.
but this time, its truly hurt. really hurt, i feel pain inside, deep in my heart.

sighs...
i deserved everything?
is that, what i live for?
"first time i use that word"
what happen to you? you too stress?
or you juz hate me so much? i dun get it.
its ridiculous.

i juz dunno how to continue to talk about it.
i feel sad, really sad. i thought we can be frenz.
i really thought, we can be frenz!!
juz frenz..normal frenz, we can talk, we can share, we can work together about.

i feel like crying now. searching for warming spot.
unfortunately, the world is a cruel fact.
i found nothing warm in my life.

...

seriously, The Bourne movie, is a good show
nice storyline. i like it.
and Matt Damon rox, ROX THE WORLD.

god damn, juz chat with the gurl...really let her zadao
i mean, this is ridiculous for a gurl say something like that
...sighs, i dunno what happen lar, maybe she juz hate me so much

"I'm Jason Bourne."
" wtf "

yeahoo~ my bro bluff me T_T
he said i cannot online cause my mama say so...
but actually is my ip got problem =.= mama sorry ya?

yesterday went to jusco with some frenz
sing and watch movie. but, the suasana got abit strange =.=
very cold, cause few people in a BIG room.
quite enjoy lar =.= cause she also got come...HAHAHAHAHAHA
then the gurlz went home after that, and we 5 malat lou go watch movie

Bourne Ultimatum. nice show. from begining till the end, also very kan jiong.
too bad one of us watched it. 3rd times. =.= and i finally figure out what is really happening
in the movie.

i hate you, but why i still have the feel on you?
strange, right?

" grip the gold, hold on tight "
" you have none worry for the oncoming encounter."
" i hold the Divine Rapier, protect the protected. "

above image, done everything on monday.
hehe, good eh???

sad, my mum forbid me from online, luckily now my bro not at home.
i connect myself. sienz, but also never mind, cause
can study finally =)

bye bye, for few weeks..

The End

well, 10 days of holiday wasted like that

~咻~~咻~~咻~~咻~~咻~

and today is the last day...AND I STILL HAVEN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT MY STUDIES.

...sad
...bored, holiday. as usual
i missed every event in this holiday, i mean
juz gone like that... sighs lar

its the end now. ending for this holiday.
this final holiday of my secondary school.
final holiday for me to enjoy.

The Trap is set, at Halloween.
I would like to play a game with you.
In my Rules.

-Saw IV-


Never Forget, Never Forgive.
The Scissors is on the way.
Welcome to the Fleet Street, London.
The Demon, is awaken. At Christmas.

-Sweeney Todd : The Demon Scissors in Fleet Street-

好久不见 by Eason 陈弈讯

nice mv, i luv it. enjoy.

5th day of holiday...BORED

what a bored holiday
now is 5th day d, sienz
blueserver down recently, wanna play also cannot.

juz go out yam cha with frenz, so happy,
chat with him, very funny, can release some stress~~

but my father sohai, thought i have school, see me go out come call me,
and scold me, what the fuck

fuck you lar, FUCKER

i am fucking moodless now,
i'm angry, i'm sad, and i'm fucking gay now.

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god damn, juz spam my keyboards.

once again, I AM FUCKING [ ANGRY + SAD + HAPPY + GAY ]

rainy 4th boring day.

yesterday sleep at 2am
today wake at 12pm, the hell...i SLEPT for 10 hours.

midnight suddenly raining heavily, i remembered about her and her.
i wonder, if i can hug with her and her in a blanket, and share our secret.
feel the warm.

wake up, and still raining. the hell...wanna go out also cannot.
starving here. and bored.

bored, rainy 4th day~
do you miss me?

3rd day ~ 16.43pm, is it evening or afternoon?

today i went for art class.
receive some photos, draw, eat and talks whole day long over there.

i came home, and watch movies, sleep again.
"Wedding Crasher" a movies talks about 2 silly fellow, crashing people's wedding,
and find singles to sleep with them. and finally the man knows about true love.

and then i wake up, blogging right now.

bored 3rd Day.

2nd Day ~ Afternoon

bored, wake up dunno do what.

bored again.

bored Afternoon.

" souls within, confidence "
" keep an eye as a guardian "
" i protect, the protected ones "

1st Day

bored. when to play ball.
but juz a while only.

bored 1st Day.

recently i juz get crazy on POWER RANGERS, cause they really rox~~
juz found some series of power rangers intro...i like some...hope you like it too...

Mystic Force


Lightspeed Rescue


now this is my favourite among the series...WILD FORCE

" colours and colours, surpassing the life of earth. "
" back and forth, past and futures, combining histories "
" yet it still the beginning, hold the gem, beyond the stream "
" this is the world. " " FINAL FANTASY "

" shining grey in the steel, flashing red. juz to keep an eye "
" hold to the holy aura, protect the protected. thats what i existed for."
" I am a warrior. A sworn-protector. "

SHAO JIBAI
SEI SOHAI, CAN PLAY BALL DUN WAN PLAY
GO DO SOMETHING THAT CAN DO EVERYDAY
NOW GOT CHANCE PLAY BALL BUT YOU ALL SOHAI DUN WAN
LATER NO CHANCE THEN BLAME HERE AND THERE AND UP DOWN
SOHAI LAR YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!

recently i found out that
actually i am so alone.

A L O N E .

errr
i dunno what happen to her,
she suddenly come ask me, how i know she go steamboat???

is there anything wrong? that i know about you going for anything?
hmmm, i bet there's someone found out about it and spread it.
but, i'm sure that retard should not be me, because i only tell one person.

and, is that a secret???
questioning though =.=

http://picasaweb.google.com/nezhew

my art teacher's online gallery.
feel free to pay a visit on it.
he is pro, you know?

today i having a 150 minutes of trip to Serdang.
searching for a corner, a meaningful corner, and perform it as the greatest on a stage.

me and kok leong, 2 stupid fellow walk from school to dunno where,
in serdang area, to search and take photo for competition.
the day was hot, and burning.

maybe later at night i'll post the photo up here.
enjoy~~

URGENT

wei boyz and gurlz
i wanna ask you all
since you online, and why you put appear offline?????

sighs, i feel very sad about it
juz wanna communicate with you all.
but since you all insist to put normal status...
sighs, might as well as forgetting

but to tell the truth, is there anyone need my rememberance???

i think the answer should be
NO

CHAO JIBAI

MACHAOHAI, DAYS ARE GONE MORE AND MORE DANGEROUS
I REALLY BEH TAHAN D, I FEEL THE PAIN!!!

JUZ READ THE PAPERS, MAHAI THOSE SOHAI, SOHAI INSANE MANIACS,
GO STUCK SOMETHING TO SUBSTITUTE HIS LITTLE PITY TINY PENIS IN A
10 YEARS OLD GURLZ VAGINA. WHAT THE FUCK? ARE YOU SOHAI? YOU WANNA DIE IS IT? OR IS IT YOU SEE PEOPLE SCREAMING SHOUTING ONLY YOU GET TO EJACULATE YOUR POOR SPERM????
HUH?!!

WHAT THE FUCK LAR, THE GURLZ, ABDOMEN BURST BECAUSE OF STUCKING SOMETING INSIDE, I MEAN, THAT INSANE MANIAC SOHAI RETARDED MOTHER FUCKER STUCK SOMETHING INSIDE UNTIL THE GURL ABDOMEN BURST, RUPTURED
CHAO JIBAI, AND SHAO JIBAI TOO. MAHAI LAR.

THIS IS SO FUCKING CRUEL. I BET ONE DAY IF WE GOT HIM,
HE WILL SUFFER MORE THAN THE GURLZ. AS THE PAPERS SAID,
WE WILL NOT LET YOU DIE IN VAIN, LITTLE GURLZ.

sorry guyz, i juz gone too mad, i used too many profanity here,
if you feel disgusting, dun read.

today, i can say that my exam is finished.
cause, this is the last day of those difficult subjects =.=

today i found out who play my phone few days ago.
stupid goh =.= why you wanna play my phone?
hari raya you no need pay money what...LOL lar you

and he tell me : " ei i tell you, today i get my english paper, i get 74!
class highest score, teacher also say me good! you say i pro or not?"

still the same he, " you say i pro or not? say me pro "

GOH, YOU REALLY MAKE ME LOL LAR

" mama~!! mama~!! helppppp~~!!! "
" i...i...i saw a GHOST!!! "

yeap, this is what i encounter this morning, the morning feel has been ruined.
in totally. i said, what the hell? usually you already dressed up like a ghost, and
ruining peoples mood. and now...YOUR LOOK IS TOTALLY LIKE A GHOST.
I MEAN, YOUR LOOK!!!
m.c.b.... dunno what happen to her, suddenly look so depressed.
maybe raped by some dogs, or some Tanah-Melayu made freakos.

today's math sux, i did sux, very very SUX.

wish me luck tomorrow, ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS.

I A M S O B O R E D .
D A M N B O R E D .

NEW BLOG SKIN

juz finish edit this new blog skin =.=
tooks me forever to do it.

nice?

sighs, recently i found out my storyboards has alot of 'sighs'
sighs, because of being unlucky...SIGHS

errr, juz read her blog, and flash back something.
"女人不应当全职主妇" another title, came out from last chinese examination.
i disagree =.= but when i disagree with it, i think most of the people...
will hate me ( o.O lol? ) sighs, lazy to tell the reason here, cause...
it juz my opinion though...

women should become a full-time housewife.
know why?
because, nowadays kids have gone in wrong ways.
kids thought : parents luv is come from their money.
but for me : from hearts is more important, no money, doesn't matter
juz pay for enough.

all day long i dream about sex and
all night long i think about sex and
all the time i think about sex with you~ with you~~
song by JC Chasez

juz chat with some frenz~
exam almost finish, now left mathematic and add math, the only 2 i need to care about.
errr, and maybe, BIO 3 too =.=

sienz, my frenz put away in his msn, and tell me he go play PS2
this reminds me my PlayStation 2, since when...my whole PS2 missing.
and i doubt my mama keep it in somewhere or maybe sold it.
if she sold it, i gonna smash her car right after that.

=.= i'm a bad son, right?

YES I AM

http://profiles.friendster.com/9498590

my pro frenzster profile.

another week passed, and left one more week for the exam.
sighs, what a suffering two weeks =.=
err, sienz, sienz, sienz.

nothing special happen. woops, and i need to say one last thing.

damn you indian retarded freakos, sooner or later,
you will kena BAMP by those lorries, not yet, still have breathe.
and then, when you try to stand up, your leg twisted like biscuit
*crisp* and broken into 4 parts. and then another LamboGini come bam
your fuckin' blackened body, and your intestine all pop out. not die yet.
and then...thousands of fire ant imported from africa to museum suddenly gone rampage, and bite your intestine. and run into your body.
and you may suffer for the last 1 hour for let biten.

recently i met some new frenz
gurlz , not leng lui de =.=
but i like to talk to her, dunno why =.=

what the hell...no people online recently
all go study for their exam, sienzzzz

monday no go school, i feel so happy
cause monday subject is none of my business.

juz scold my dad, cause he really dumb.
why i scold him? under a reason, secret.
no lar, i dun keep secret =.= damn me myself.
my dad, really stupid, wanna eat also dun wan tell, then after i finish the dinner.
then only i saw him eat some leftover in the freezer, some more frozen type.
shit lar, if he wanna eat i sure left some for him, some more, i think the freezer only got rice,
no vege...he eat what? rice only????
[ ba, next time wanna eat, tell lar, dun juz say "if you can finish, you finish it."
mahai you know now i very fucked up? because i ate your dinner!!"

D A M N

tomorrow is HISTORY, the worst subject ever,
better study for friday subjects, P.MORAL
more easier =.=

tomorrow is trial, wish me luck

GOGOGO!!!!!

yes!!! i finally found my scanner driver =.= and i scan my latest artwork...
although the scanner cannot fit the original size, but this is enough.
nice e??? PRO

DORAEMON~~~

i said...
DORAEMON is a forever CLASSIC.

juz finish watch it...the movie de, remake version.
Doraemon : Nobite no Kyoruu <>
Doraemon : Nobita no Shin Makai Daibouken - Shichinin no Mahoutsukai


errr, now i searching for the Theme Song to download...and the ending of each series...
i mean, the movie's theme song..hehehe

my views for DORAEMON ( i mean the movie...>.<) : erm...got new things, storyline same, but, is worth to watch it, REALLY.


CUTE???? real world doraemon =.=

juz came back, outside dark dark =.=
very scary, but i like it, sounds like raining soon~
can stay at home enjoy the cool weather, and enjoy the light on.

juz read her blog, she pressed herself too hard.
dunno what to say, she's crazy, too crazy about her studies.
for what? i dunno, for her own purpose, or maybe some promises she made.
yea, most probably.
if i have half of her spirit, i am the best now.

guyz and gurlz, merdeka to our country, 5oth anniversary of independence.
remember to sing [Negarakuku] tomorrow~

today, i'm fooled, and being bored in the school for 7 hours.

say hooray to wee meng chee~
his new album going out soon!!!!!
i scare i promote his album i kena sue =.=
haha, but, i am a chinese, come lar babi!!



[我现在全身很痒，有本事那我去玩！！！]

wa...juz watched [Black Sheep] trailer...
damn horror =.= so scary~

Hero's come back in Butter-Fly, with 1000 words of Ignited Pride.

Hero's come back - Naruto Shippuden OP1, nobodyknows+
Butter-Fly - Digimon 01 OP, Kouji Wada
1000 words - Final Fantasy X-2 soundtrack
Ignited - Gundam SEED Destiny OP1, T.M.Revolution
Pride - Gundam SEED Destiny OP2, HIGH and MIGHTY Color.

back, and lose =.=
but one of us win the consolation prize.

Chew Kok Leong, congratulation again ~
RM10k of scholarship, RM150 cash prize, and some sponsorer merchandise.

wish me luck guyz~

holiday gonna end, about 48 + unknown hours.
and tomorrow, i'm going to Corus Hotel, to compete with some artistics freakos,
to get scholarship~wish me luck!!!! halleluyah, amen, amitabha~!!

juz read frenz blog, her life is so colourful, lots of memories, PRO.
dunno why, they got so many photos of themselves =.= i dun usually take photos,
but i like to take photo of other stuff than myself, like, erm
gurlz (lolz...) , err..scenery, stuff, everything that look nice to me~
oops, and my art too.

"blinks and wings, time's up."

yesterday go watch movie, SECRET.
my frenz ride his motor, 黄忠大人 ride it from taman U to taman sungai besi indah.
without license, and with the speed of 110 and above km/h.
after the show we explored taman sungai besi indah, somewhere i've never went before.
and then, we ride on to the highway...and here it is, the nightmare riding...

omfg,150km/h on the highway with 2 person on a bike.

now this, is what you called insane, and i've broke his fetching speed record. 150km/h.
gosh, we travelled at high speed on a highway to Jusco Cheras Selatan.
that sure is scary =.= luckily both of us is sound and safe.

woops, holiday gonna end soon. dunno whether can i study or not?
might enjoy hard in this mean time =.= i mean, real HARD

oh and, i have a nice UNcyclopedia to share with you guyz...
discover, read, and enjoy the fun of criticism.

http://uncyclopedia.org/wiki/Malay----> truth about malay.
http://uncyclopedia.org/wiki/Malaysia-> truth about malaysia.

Ingredient of creating a MALAY
-1/2 cup of baboon's blood®
-1/2 cup of wild boar's blood®
-2kg of Soil or "Tanah Melayu"
-200ml of concentrated Hydrochloric Acid solution (HCL)
-1/4 teaspoon of Nitroglycerin
-30% Cursed Scroll for Keris for ATT obtained from Sleepywood Dungeon
-An old Keris

Directions

1. Cream together baboon's blood®, wild boar's blood®, Nitroglycerin and "Tanah Melayu". Beat well with Keris.

2. Add Hydrochloric Acid solution SLOWLY to the mixture. I MEAN SLOWLY! I held no responsible if it Asplode!

3. Shape into approximately 1 meter tall monument. Forms hand, leg and tail.

4. Bake under hot sun for 5-30mins according to your colour choice.

5. This is the hardest step, to make it become a living Malay, you will need to cast the 30% Cursed Scroll for Keris for ATT on your Malay. There are only 30% chance of success, so pray hard.

6. Repeat step 1-5 if the scroll failed.

today go watch movie, now very tired
dun wanna type so much
tomorrow first =.=

juz heard about microsoft stuff. some said hackers hacked into the programming system.
controlling world wide or maybe juz here? de IE, MSN, anything that has relation with Microsoft.

oops, and dun simply receive photo album from frenz.

yesterday(sunday) i sleep at 11.30pm
well, maybe today late abit...
what i wanna say is...

omg, i've became a good kid, sleep so early =.=

argh, juz argue with a frenz.
maybe i give a too-hard time for him.
now he dun bother about me =.=

i hate that fella, and i dare to say his name here.
his name is fanshu, JUNG GUN LIM.

Gurlz.

juz drew, juz finished.
in 1 hours i think.

cry me a river~
cry me a river~ gurlz~

holiday is juz like shit,
school days are shit too.
so whats good to me? lotsa paper and paper.

born to be unique, but normal to people
colours has become reddish, juz because of sin action
hands cover with blood, but others blood.
the spree is rising, mankind collapsing, 2 second.
...
...
good night and goodbye.

sienz!!!

juz downloaded 《不能说的秘密》电影原声带
a nice original soundtrack album...combination of expression within music.
very very nice. you can hear about happiness, sadness, sweetiness...
i willing to share it to you guyz...but i dunno how to upload as direct link
to let you guyz download...but, if you guyz want.
you can let me have your pendrive and i'll drag to your pendrive...

today feels good, morning played ball, evening too,
and i take a nap from 2 to 6...very free today.
sigh, dunno when can i start my revision.
juz like she say,

you get everything if you get good result
you get nothing if you get bad result.

so guyz...start now before its too late.
GO GO GO GO

sienz, sienz, sienz, sienz, sienz, sienz... etc x 100

nobody bothering me
arghhhhhh~time passed by damn slow now, but i like it
"i miss you so much~"

Nobuo Uematsu is a great musician.

JAY CHOU is a GENIUS, G.E.N.I.U.S.
juz downloaded [Secret] a.k.a. [不能说的秘密]
2 hours of napping then ngam ngam finish download
download speed very fast o, cause i start download it at 2pm
and it finish at 4pm...and i watch it...as fast as i can...

i almost cried after the show...cause its really touching.
storyline good, acting good, scene capture good...oops
not good...is GREAT
" thumbs up " " five-star " " masterpiece "
jay, you really my idol forever !!!

Dragoon

By hz32290 at 2007-08-15

this is a dragoon. =.=
ngam ngam finish de.
look quite lame actually
...no effect ... @@

oops, forgotten one important thing
today mr.richard leave our school officially
S.M.K.Seri Kembangan

he came back to eat cakes with his students, 5 daisi 1

goodbye and good luck Mr.Richard~

omg, i spell wrong something
this is the real name of the competition =.=
DaMaC 2007 = Dasein Media and Art Competition 2007
-.-'' big mistake i did last time

juz receive letter from dasein, details of DaMaC 2007
compete venue is at Corus Hotel...you hear me, HOTEL
food should be better than The One de bah... cause
the One held at their own college =.= so in conclusion,
i decide for DaMaC 2007...cause they compete in Hotel...
its juz opposite of KLCC...hahahahahahahaha

i am fucking sick
sniff* sniff*

today finally pass up my folio
dunno deduct how many marks jor =.=
still the same school day, sleep and talk
but today class talk about same topic
NATIONAL SERVICE
" are you in? " " omg, pity you " " i'm so happy!! " " never mind..."
bla bla bla~
bla bla black sheep...woops?

my bag is so heavy, SAMSONITE
travelling bag, is now used as my school bag
juz a few books inside, but the total weight is already become triple of my books weight
darn, juz have to pray and hope my mama tomorrow free,
and help me sew that stupid TL bag

tonight's dinner, FAN HUP again
but no rice in it,is chee cheong fun
lame chee cheong fun lar...cold, and less good good de things(?) =.=
sigh...thought chee cheong fun would be better, but now it sux
mama...please lar, cook lar

lemme tell you guyz one cruel fact
every week, my dinner schedule
5 of 7 = outside food
2 of 7 = canned food, which cook by my mama, and she said
" i dunno what to cook, house no buy vegetable also "
and when my mama cook, the dishes is usually look it this way
[ eggs, canned food like sardins, baked bean etc, sausages from supermarket ]
or maybe sometime, she make soup.

sigh...i really admire and jealous about other people
i juz love to eat house cooked dishes, but not canned food!!
and i dun like to eat maggi mee as my lunch either.

god, i pray sincerely here, i wish i have a wife,
that can cook, take care of children, nice, and sexy.
and hope i can earn lots of papers, for my family.
because i hate to see my children become another
clone of me, you get what i mean?
PLEASE GOD, LOVE~!!

many people lucky didn't get to NS
and i lucky to become one of them

today go for art, sit with frenz, as usual
but our table hari ni tambah a girl girl
seems like smaller than me =.=
she so talkative, and i dun really like that
i know she like to share her thoughts
but i dunno how to compatible with her =.=
then we spent whole day on this title
" imagine you've become a small animal or rat, describe your surrounding "
nice creative title, eh?
if you wanna play, you can play whatever you want in this title
because, creativity is unlimited
you heard me, UNLIMITED

raining again, sleep again,
play again, eat again.

errr, who wanna watch "Secret" with me?

our country national service for 2008 de name list is out~
luckily...

I'M NOT THE LUCKY ONE!!!!!

oh and ar...
now i become another art competition finalist...
The One Academy, now thats make me headache
DAMAC 2007 and The One Creative Media Award 2007,
both final are held at the same day. WHAT THE HELL

sigh...

here are those i sent for The One competition







click for bigger image.

juz watched rush hour 3
quite funny =)

jackie chan has gone old =(
and christ tucker has gone more funnier =)

that show cost 7 dollars
but i've earn 8 from it

pro? hehe

am i sux? why do i always get hate by those biatches?
maybe juz like he said, they still childish and dun mind them
hehe, i'm mature =)

wow...Selina wearing short skirt =.= and i like it~
she remind me of someone...
ELLA LOOKS MORE LIKE SHEMALE NOW...
but it makes S.H.E. a unique~
and she remind me of her...
Hebe so sexy...i juz luv to see her dance...
but she didn't remind me of someone~ ( LOLZ? )

here you are...
藉口- SHE



another song here to share...not to enjoy the MV
梯田-周杰伦

world gone chaos
and i hate it

stock crash
politics madness
war rampage
stomach ache

cash flying all around
juz for fleeing and hiding
economy falls because of wasting

sigh...
big sigh

gigi going to putus again
sad~

my bag putus again, is it destinated?
is it my fate that every of my bag putus?
damn, still questioning on it.

no bag use
maybe not going to school. tomorrow.

means, 8 August.

headache~

headache now
grrrr, head bursting soon
so many problems

1. my future
2. my characteristic
3. my choice

sigh...

let me define each of them :

my future = i so lazy, except drawing, i am totally useless, what can i do next?

my characteristic = i am so fucking lazy, totally useless

my choice = this is juz an hypothesis, as you all know, i'm a damac 2007 finalist, but, what if i'm The One Academy Media Award 2007 finalist too? the problem is...BOTH OF THE FINAL IS HELD AT THE SAME DATE SAME DAY!!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I DID IT
I'M A DASEIN MEDIA AWARD COMPETITION FINALIST
WOOHOOOOO~~~~

today so happy~went out with khong yip and piack way
for movie----- Flash Point 导火线
quite ok ok, i juz love the main character inside
dunno call what 子丹 one...i love to see he fighting
and his favourite move --- Suplex

first time sit her car, she drive quite steady =.=
and then she fetch me home and give me time change clothes
then off we go~ to Aeon Cheras Selatan, Jusco
we took our lunch at dunno what name de restaurant, my food quite sux
is really sux...DAMN sux, whole soup also oil lai de, 辣焦油

after the show, because of the heavy rain, we had to spent some time
to wait the rain stop ( because her car park at outdoor )
chance to get well with them =.=
sigh...she say i'm a neet ( define:neet = 宅男/宅女 )
we walk whole mall i think =.= then we go home
before go home, we go eat some bread(?) at...ah
Auntie Anne i think...hehe

she changed alot, really alot
better than last time d, dunno why
i feel that she so mature...better than others
maybe because i 心理作用, i dunno lar
but she really give me a feel
good jie jie~
thanks for driving me home~

long time no post video d
now i post one nice music video...quite insane lar
this band de song...quite ok de ba =.=
My Chemical Romance, their performance in this video is great.
hehe, full of expression of gloomy.

here you go,
My Chemical Romance - Helena

juz heard about the marks for my PSV project
so unfair, but my marks deducted and i surrender, cause i late pass up =.=
one of my frenz, deducted many marks because
1. the 考官 say his project got people help
2. the project is not coloured, is paste of colour paper.
3. the teacher say his folio many wrongs
so shit....is this racist or what? discrimination?
sigh...i'm going to lose many marks on it
late pass up and project not completed


GGGRRRAAAGGGHHHHHH why i so lazy?

nice? a naked girl girl bathing under a pure waterfall~
please dun think i hamsup, cause my teacher gimme a
theme of 'camping' and he says, draw whatever you want~

absent for school today
juz to extend the date i hand up my project
and rush for the complete

i went to SK market juz now
to buy some papers for my folio
and i saw pure SK people
so bitchy, i think,
those biatches give birth to their baby because
the baby is a side effect, they juz enjoying the "making of"
the way they talk, the way they think, they way they act,
so so cheap and bitchy.
like a cheap whore. smoking some more, auntie,
second hand smoke kills lar please.

I am Fucked UP

tomorrow won't be going school i think
juz MAYBE, because i got whole lot of shit on my plate.
what the hell...why i so fucking lazy????????

i am fucked up
FUCKED up

WHY
WHY
WHY
WHY
why...why...WHY!!!!!!

my life is painted with black and white.
i'm jealousing, to tell the truth
i'm fucking jealousing
why....
..why..
....why
..why..
why....

Jusco™

rainy day again...and i use it as a excuse to ponteng the 10th period
and ran home. luckily i asked my frenz,
many people absent for the 10th period, so i think i won't be punished alone =.=
after afternoon napping i go dinner with family and 3rd uncle
and we went to Cheras Selatan Jusco after that
first time i went there, quite big and clean and nice
but air cond too powerful =.= freezing like shit
after shopping with my uncle, i realize
China is not that cheap also...many import stuff quite expensive
like a lip balm, in malaysia, it cost RM7
but in China, it cost 28RMB, which means RM14
quite ridiculous eh?
after that they went to eat DURIAN
and i hate this fruit the most!
shucks...

bought KitKat Latte flavor, limited edition
SAKIT BETUL, RM5 for 2, and thanks for my uncle RM10
i'll make use of that paper.

I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY, WONDERING HOW YOU DOING NOW
AND YOU TOO

today my uncles came
the 3rd and the 4th one
the 3rd one come alone, staying our house now
then the 4th one bring his family come,thank god he brought them
almost 10 years i didn't meet my cousins
there is two of them. one is name as beatrix, another is derrace( i think )
god sake, the girl is so so so so so beautiful,
wow, ABC is definitely different.
i wish she's not my cousin =.=
she juz so tall, perfect puberty
i juz gonna fall in love if she was my frenz =.=
another kid...the small fella,
he is juz so cute, 11 years old, 10 years old in detail
now they learning how to speak chinese
amen for that =.=
hahahahahahaha

OMG, 碧翠 you are so so so so so beautiful
gonna fall in love if you were my girl next door
YEAH!!!


stop dreamin' now.... =.="
W H Y

finally can online, what the hell
my house got a stupid retard
do some private setting to the modem and router
make me cannot online yesterday for whole day
shit him lar..niama dunno why his mind so fucking retarded
i got nothing to say about him d, i swear i won't help unless
he broke one of his leg or whateve body parts

"dailou, have legs have hands you do sendiri lar"

for papa

did you ever think,
your papa may take his last action in order
to complete his duty
to accomplish his mission
to build a perfect life for you?

and the last action is the very last
very last year
very last month
very last day
very last hours
very last minutes
very last second
very very last breathe
of his, to revise everything he taught.
appreciate, and be useful of his tutorial.

i'm so fucking sorry for my parents now, i only know how to talk
but take no action like a fool. cried me a river

for mama

i was taught

1. art
2. love
3. sex
4. manners
5. leadership
6. talk
7. think
8. sing
9. write
10. play
11. enjoy
12. eat
13. drink
14. pee
15. shit
16. hit
17. move
18. walk
19. run
20. mechanism
21. idolism
22. realiticism
23. idealism
24. count
25. calculate

did you ever, think of your mama taught you how much in your life?

aiyoh auntie, you fed up of fetching then dun fetch lar
ur eldest son so fucking free at home at night
why wanna force yourself to fetch us?
some more lepas geram while driving
dangerous you know?
you're life is too good lar auntie
cannot sleep later a bit meh?
juz late for 5 minutes you also cannot tahan
what about my mother? you sent your children to class
then you should prepare for the consequences
not juz paying the fees and thats all, you know?
to me, you fail as a mother
you lazy to take care of your son in order to maintain your simple
and leisure lifestyle.
i know i like this also fail to do as son, for not taking care of my mother
at least i appreciate her for sacrifice so much
i swear to god i'll repay her, and i SWEAR it
but you as your kids mother, cannot even bear to do something simple
juz be an escort.
please lar auntie, think lar
next time you want we all early also can, but you please
tell your son, ask him to ask teacher lar
dun juz wait me sit inside your car only ask
you ask me "what time is your class finish?"
you should ask "can ask your teacher early a bit?"
zzzz lar auntie
really ZZZZZZ

明志万岁

http://namewee.blogspot.com/

you're great man, seriously
GREAT
hope your song, can change the entire world,
especially our country.

lolz? juz read her blog
baru tao ada gathering di midvalley =.=
never mind lar, go there also sou heng
no close frenz along, some more that fella going too
and i hate the movie,
harry potter~ he's a pervert...


hari ni ponteng sekolah, di rumah tak buat ape-pe pun
hanya tao telah duduk depan monitor selama 10 jam =.=
dan hidung ada sikit sikit problem, kasih saya banyak masalah
tak boleh hisap oksigen seperti biasa~

wow, my BM can score E++ for it

Absent very fun is it?

sigh...
yesterday whole day raining, non-stop
the weather is quite cool
but wet
cool but wet
all my frenz say they enjoying the weather
by staying home like that...but i dun really like
the wet weather makes me feel uncomfortable
i prefer cool and dry a bit, juz like Austrialia weather
never mind, i can save the electricity =.=
by turning the fan speed from 4 to 1
very very very cold o, dun on the fan also feel cold like shit
so, i hide inside my blanket until 5.30am this morning

but then, when i was about to prepare to go to school
what the fuck? i said. my clothes, my school pants, because of yesterday bad weather
still remain wet wet de...ARGH, gonna absent for class one more day
my parents start to complaint ler..say that they receive my letter
siigh, today muz write letter about my absent
to avoid anymore letter coming =.=

wei GOD, make me absent
very fun is it?

Party™

today is his birthday
well, wish you a happy 17th annivesary
sad that his " goddess " didn't come
haha, but never mind
whether she come or not
i also feel alone and sien-zzzz
i thought can go there eat bit full
but now my tummy
juz ¼ full
sigh, that bbq, actually he really miscalculated
maybe because he first time, he put too little flint in the big one
=.= wanna bbq a chicken wing needs a whole century
never mind, juz go there to spend my time
but actually
i really preferred STEAMBOAT rather than BARBEQUE

Hero™

Hero

Extra-odinary courage

Bravery

Skilled

Unbearable facts

neither the Quest Of Hallow

A primal crave

Comes within the strength

We've got the hope

What is the Hero?

inside you.

only you yourself know what it is.

Over-Protected

Cried
in the middle of bloodwell
she pray for peace
and gave up on the prince
but yet
it brings another encounter
Warriors
from the round and fair table
gathers around
Creatures
from the depth of Forestia
assembled again
to protect the Goddess.
Provoked endlessly,
she cried again.
Sad for the prince,
sad for the provoked,
sad for the killings...
She cried upon,
"If this is the best way it is, let it be.
please, this is not i wanted, i dun wan to be imprisoned,
i dun wan to be over-protected, i juz wan the world most simple thing...
the most desire by every living creatures in this standing surfaces..
give me back, my Freedom!!!"
A scream, tears the sky into two,
A tears, purifies the hearts into purest,
The war stopped, the procedures ended.
it was a unbearable history,
for a girl, who is being over-protected.

T R U S T

World is gone chaos
Country has gone mad
States are being angry
The art is crazy

Simple but deadly
T R U S T
whether there is necessary or not
we have to let go of it
in order to get a higher paid
in this realistism world
we gain because we sold
it is such a simple rule
but it was so deadly
it may lost your love ones
your property
your homeland
or maybe the world

I'm ok with the way i am
i sold people to get myself a heaven
and that is what
an art meant.

Grand Theft Auto IV

today i absent again =.=
because i fall sick d
headache~now my head still pain like shit
but i dun absent for nothing
haha~
juz check out some new games intro by E3 2007
what the hell...Playstation 3 rox
and this is the latest version of Rockstar Production
"Grand Theft Auto IV"
these are the trailers and teasers

teaser


trailer


"Life is complicated, I've killed people, smuggled people
and sold people. Perhaps here, things will be different."
-Kino

Sick

fall sick liao
body damn weak now
tomorrow maybe absent school again
SAD
SICK

Envy

Envy-ing everyone i met
they are so lucky
some are rich
some are full of love around
some are so talented
some are so healthy
i was so damn shit
=.= lolz, to tell the truth
i really useless

*ps : what so good about blocking people?
or appear offline? fun enough?

Memorial™

i was wrong
today's 交流会 is a big success
at least..better than the last 2 years
this day gonna be a memorial of everyone
people who has a close frenz that play together today
the drama, modified is perfect
the dance...still the same =.= , lolz
the school band, great performance as usual
i'm very satisfied for this year interactive
super satisfied, FUCKING satisfied

although i have no close frenz to share this day
but, i'll remember this day. a memorial in my heart.
sad that i still can't get photoshot with some people
and getting well with others =.=

anyway, tired d
wanna sleep, none of us shall forget
the day we create a MYTHin S.M.K.Seri Kembangan

i wanna be a pro photographer~

juz visit her blog
i realised my camera skills improved =.=
maybe some are co-incidence
but i'm still proud of it
hhahahaha~

i wanna a camera phone too
muz have high mega pixels~
or own myself a high mega pixels, slim camera
hahaha~

feel free and visit her blog
for my picture =.=
childishfififei.blogspot.com

PRO

Tomorrow is a SHIT

juz came back from drama practice
and some other practice for tomorrow
interactive in our school
damn tired now, i think my left leg 'worn' out too
can't walk well
here's my thought for today and before practices

话剧 : it maybe my fault too, but, this time de
drama so so so so so UN-suitable for this year theme
the storyline, quite boring and lame, i know i maybe blamed for
not coming up any idea...but, its really LAME

女子十二乐坊不卸妆 : another lame show, last year it was perfect than ever
but maybe this year everyone is stressed, or their mind changed
everything is out of control, tempo not followed, steps are confusing,
especially our guyz part...I FEEL SHAME AND LAME
and for KungFu Hustle part...I FEEL TIRED

舞蹈表演 "精武门" : now only i found out what is happening,
no wonder that whole dance dun have an impact, juz because of someone
care too much about the others said..sigh lar, dance also be pro a bit please
NO IMPACT AT ALL YOU KNOW???
没有震撼力知道吗??精武门耶大哥~!!

sigh...until now i think the best performance will be taekwondo performance
or maybe the diabolo club, sad for this year interactive
juz wanna say...if i came up any nice idea before
maybe we can do better, so sorry about not helping you guyz help~
*PS: hope tomorrow got many leng luis attend =.=

tired

tired
tired
tired
tired
tired
TIRED

i'm fucking tired, so many things to rush this year
my art project, my school co-curiculum activity
my results, my book, and my art competition
what the hell? oh and...cash problem
month of July dasein art competition" hero "
the one academy art competition " design my apron - Ratatouille "
interactive activity by Chinese Society
Art project - Membuat pembungkusan untuk Perfume and Talcum Powder
wtf...i wan rest also cannot
some more...
ATTRACTED BY THIS STUPID PC

PlayStation 3

Juz found some nice commercial ad in YouTube
damn...PlayStation is my FAVOURITE house console EVER
it is damn cool, is really COOL

"Play B3YOND"

Video again

a stupid naruto fan flash
quite funny de...hahahaha

"I WANT TO BRING YOU TO A GAY BAR~!!"

HOT™

yerrrr...today is damn hot
juz came back from my area de 糖水档
the fucking sun like burning up my skin
i really feel hot on the exposed side of my face
what the hell...murdering, global warming, country pollitics chaos
the world really have gone chaos
sooner or later we'll need someone like transformer
or maybe superman is enough
to save our world
but luckily..our world still not as hot as my art class' toilet
that toiler is like this
----------------------------
[ 冲水的 ]
--> l l
--> l 马桶 l
--> \____/

---------------------
-----( --> is the air cond thing that we used to put outside one...
can see clearly? can imagine??? )
inside that stupid toilet...even my spec also can feel the heat
no play play lar..

*juz wanna ask...is it everyone feel stressed today?
or because i'm a freak???

WTF?!

now is 5.30 a.m.

juz read a frenz's blog
she said a innocent girl murdered by her mama
B.O.Y.F.R.I.E.N.D.
...fuck~the world going chaos
curse that mama and her bf too
what the fuck you do that for?
get nothing in the ends...damn you guyz

oi girl, what the fuck to you now?
i sit where also none of your business ok?
why the fuck you piss me off when i sit his place?
what you said again..."你坐前面真的很有问题啦..."
what the fuck? what problem?
i asking you girl, dun act nothing
WHAT THE FUCK HAS GONE TO YOU??!!
please lar girl, for god sake please
dun kena fool by your psycho lar
心理作用啦小姐

What I've Done~

song from Linkin Park latest album
"Minutes to Midnight"
dun like it at first..but after watching Transformer
began to like it =.=
Chester Bennington is so cool in this music video
showing his expression with his voice and body action
damn, he is so damn cool~!

ps: Chester Bennington is the main vocal of the band ^^
enjoy the music video~oh ya, there is lyrics there
sing it in front of your screen also can =.=

The Last Remnants

a new game published by SquarE-Enix
only support Xbox360 and PlayStation 3
damn...i'm fucking sad
because now my PlayStation 2 is useless...
GRRRRAAAAAAAGGGGHHHHHHH~~

my tarGET :
-Wii™
-PlayStation 3™
-NDS™
-PlayStation Portable™

PPstream sucks or ???

what the hell~
that day i install that stupid PPstream
then my pc kena virus
what the fuck~
folder option lost, search option cannot be use
shit..
now my pc is backup before 1 week
hope it still ok till i got the money to repair this shit
but...PPstream quite good de
i like it, cause it fast downloading 2 hours movie
very very very very very fast
sigh lar..i wan watch Pirates of te Carribean 3..
but install ppstream scare kena virus again
i dun wan take risk =.=

FRENZ, WHO HAVE
POTC3 PLEASE LEND ME!!!
FOR GOD SAKE!!

思念是一种病

a song performed by 张震嶽
a very very very nice song
quite lovely~i like the feel~
how come he came up with such brilliant ideas?
and how come she
can define so many things into our daily usage?
and that is why
i love to visit her blog~

ohh~~思念是一种病~
ohh~~思念是一种病~

reminded me to miss her always
what are you doing now?

mahai you
dun think you black skin i fucking scare
come lar sohai
one day i gonna bust your heads off with my leg
juz like that

BUMP!

am i too free?

am i too free actually?
everybody is doing their things
busy about their businesss
but what i doing?

still questioning though
help me think please
anyone?