is it really.. that i dun deserve a true friend?

how come.

there are friends who talk behind my back.

there are friends who treat me like a dog.

there are friends who dun treat me like their friend.

there are friends who dun really wanna maintain the relationship.

there are friends who dun care about me while i trying my best to care about them.


...is it because..

i met them at wrong time?

wrong place?

wrong reason?


i dun understand.
what is this.
i really dun understand.

feeling really down now.
everything seems blue to me.