滚，滚回家!!

FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK..!!!

First, I'm fucking the sohai weather.
Raining can, but dun raining non stop larh wei, very suffering you know.
Want go out also cannot. What are you? Trying to trap me in my house?!!
GARRRRRRHHHHHHH.

Second, I'm fucking the sohai broadband service.
You lag can, BUT DON'T SO FREQUENT LARH WEI...
Annoying you know?!!! Want surf net also cannot..!!!
I stay at home very kesian liao.. no game no music..
Wanna find some enjoyment on the net also cannot meh...
FUCK YOU CHIBAI KIA MOTHERFUCKED A-HOLE!!!!

Third, I'm fucking... errr... OH!!!
JUST NOW THERE'S A SOHAI KELISA.
MAPUKI. I was trying to cross the road and I forgot to look whether there's other car from the back, and thank god I'm super agile larh.
I noticed the kelisa and I hold my steps before I make another tragedy.
and then horh, THE SOHAI KELISA DRIVER AND PASSENGER LOOKING AT ME WITH THEIR FUCKING EYES.
OMIGOD THEY ARE SO DAMN UGLY!!!!
AND THEY'RE FAT!!! DARK!!! LOOK UNEDUCATED!!!!
FUCK OFF LAR KIMAK, YOU THOUGHT YOU ELDER THAN ME YOU CAN GIMME THAT SHIT ASS EYE LOOK??? SUCK DICK PLEASE

Fourth.. dunno who to fuck liao...
maybe I should fuck my old pc. YEAH..!!!
But it's not really his fault also.. sighs..
so.. I'm fucking nothing right now. ho ho =.=

Fifth..!!! I really got no one to fuck liao.
If i wanna fuck, I could've fuck anyone lol.
Seriously, I CAN. But for some reason dun simply fuck people d.
Cause you know lar, one fuck can cause a thousand impacts.
Might crush something valueble or even a tank!!! hoho.

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It's 5.50am now and I'm awake. Yes, I'm awake from sleep.
SERIOUS LERH BOSS =.=
Sometimes my body organism just alittle bit too strange for me, myself to figure, y'know.
Let's make an example.
Today I sleep at 3am, and I can sleep for 10 hours straight, until like 1pm on the next day.
And then, the next day I sleep at 12am, and I fucking wake up at 4.30am!!!
and How fucking stupid odd is that..?!!
Holyshit.. =.= My body is trying to ruin myself lar.. my spirit and my body..damn suffering shit.

Life's been very lazy...Oh, yeah, VERY LAZY.
None of the assignments has any progress, guess now I really repeating what I've been doing like the past semesters lol.
Aihz, better pray hard that tomorrow the world move slower abit.

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One day I saw my frenz posting a shoutout in facebook
and says that he's not studying anymore, and he posting farewell wishes to all his classmates.
But to be honest, he is not my brother or what important frenz lar, just normal frenz.
He cannot continue study.. then cannot lorh, so why the fuck I need to be sad about it?
Ok.
So when I see he finally make clear of shits and post it in facebook.
I'm trying to joke around with my frenz and told him let's sing a song for him.
"Goodbye my love..~ wo di ai ren..~ zai jian..~"
and you know what my frenz reply me?
When I heard this reply oo... I was kinda shocked, kinda FUCKING SHOCKED.
He answer me... "How come you seems to be very happy when you see he posting that shoutout?"
I was like...what the fuck?
Like I said just now.. me and him.. we don't have a strong bond, and I believe he don't appreciate me better also. because some shits happen before lar. small matter to him but big matter to me and I just too lazy to take it out and argue with him.
Sometimes arh...my sohai roommate oo.. talk without using brain one..
I admit I also brainless most of the time larh, I know you all so MATURED ma.
Always neglect me like a tao gei.
but my roommate o.. just to based on the case above lar.
When I hurt myself or die or whatever unlucky shit happen, he stand behind and laugh like a shittard. and never try to help, ya it sucks. and he thinks that, "It's none of my business"
HAH, GOOD ONE.
Even if it's none of your business.. also don't laugh in front of me lorh,
and never laugh behind my back.
You see ar.. everytime he diuz about my attitude o.. he most of the time also accidently doing it.
aihz.. human are really a stupid kind, they never do what they told.
Shit face roommate. and always trying to act pro. not to say act pro larh.
but he never trust me on something I'm certain.
and he never trust me on something that I dunno.

hoho i've got alot to tell now, and the fucktard is sleeping beside me.

So like.. for example.
I know about.. slightly lar, slightly know about networking data or stuff like that.
and then oo... everytime I get connected to the internet I'll automatically open a command prompt and ping the internet data transfer rate one ma.. to see and observe whether there's anything wrong about the house networking lar. you know lar, some biatches and fuckers like to complain and show some fuck face when they can't connect and play their facebook games.
and then oooh.. you know what my sohai roommate say arh?
"Yerrr what is that, you open that to snatch the speed arh?! no wonder you so smooth and fast lar..!!" LOL WHAT THE FUCK?! YOU MOTHERFUCKED RETARDED?!!!
and after that I tried to explain lar.. since he told me he never know about it.
and guess what, the next day he tells everyone about that and say I'm trying to snatch the fucking line. HOLYSHIT WEIII.. MY NAME ALREADY SO FUCKING BUSUK YOU STILL WANNA POUR WHAT ON IT? CHEMICAL ACID...?! WHAT.. YOU'RE TRYING TO RUIN MY NAME OR WHAT..? ALREADY BUSUK LIAO STILL DUN WANNA LET ME GO MEH.

ok another case.
one day he come and ask me about... some english stuff. or some other stuff.
and then i tell him i dunno ma, and i ask him to google lorh.
and you know what? he show me the fuck face.
like i know and i never wanted to tell him. MAHAI.
YOU THOUGHT I'M WHAT, WIKIPEDIA?
GOOGLE SO GENG JUST GO GOOGLE EVERY QUESTION YOU WANNA ASK LAR MACHIBAI.
EVERYTIME ASK YOU GOOGLE YOURSELF ALSO TAK MAO LISTEN. KIMAK LU.

and another case.. holyshit all these shit cases.
one day i see he making mistake, a very common mistake that i've been through before and i tell him. I TELL HIM POLITELY.
"oi, dun do that lar, cannot one, because o.. blablabla.. so it'll end up like that"
he give me a fuck face.. and then he turn his fucking head away and said.
"I don't believe it" and oops, he did it again~
"Hah, told you."
and again the fuck face he show me, some more use some stupid weird accent and say
"Ouuh Sssorry." mahai.. langsung tak de respect. like i need your apologize.

and this fucktard is a total asshole. not to say he look like a canned abalone lar.
but he act like one.

HE WILL ALWAYS HELP GIRLS.
i dunno why.
but he does
ALWAYS HELP GIRLS.
and GIRLS ALWAYS ASK FOR HIS HELP.
i dunno why too.
but he helped the guys too..
ONLY CERTAIN GUYS.
HE WILL ALWAYS HELP CERTAIN GUYS.
i dunno why, again.
and CERTAIN GUYS NEVER FIND HIS HELP.
this one i guess i know why.

and guess what?
he never help me. =(
every help i asked it's like i sending my request to government and once it sent, it never return and never reply.

how motherfucked is that?

做roommate做到酱死人样，还有什么意思？
平时跟你谈两句话就将我幼稚。你又何尝不是？
是啦，我回家是因为我要跟家人伸手讨钱，你就是回家尽你的lanjiao孝道！
是啦，房间我没扫过，是你扫罢了，功劳全归你！
是啦，我很不man，也不gentlemen，你最棒，你最好，你简直是女人心中的英雄！
给你讲对全部东西了啦，开心没？
给你讲中啦，我在幸灾乐祸，你满意没？
跌倒还要被你踩几脚，你爽了没？
是不是要让你看到我彻底毁灭了你才高兴？
是不是要让你看到我登逝世启示你才快乐？

滚，滚回家，用尽一生去干你的lanjiao事情！
你什么理由也不用说了，以后放飞机也不用道歉！
因为我都知道，你一定是回家尽你的孝道，孝顺父母爱护家人，很伟大兼高耸的责任来的！

Aihz, another emo post here liao larh.
Firstly I wanna congrats to a bitch that juz lost 2 rabbits in a row.
I mean her rabbits dead in a day, if i'm correct.
Hahahaha guess I'm really evil in some ways.
It's not that I hate her rabbits, but I hate her.
But anyway that doesn't matter now, she's not even in my interest list also lol.

Oh, let me start to work on my story here first.
I'm so glad that no one knows my blog ( i guess? )
in that case I can blog alot of stuff about other people that i hate or dislike.

Sighs, sometimes I guess friendship are really hard to maintain,
or even to find one, don't you think? maybe not you, but for me, yes.
Few days ago me and my frenz, were playing this online game,
Ragnarok Online, sounds familiar anyone? yeah that was a hell of a game.

We love the game, but we hate the system, so I go and find a dirtier server.
Not to say dirtier, that's a more exciting private server.
but why private server? because the experience rates is so... so... err, irresistable..!!
but still, everything seems to be very balance to me. for a private server.
so, i find and downloaded it, and i tried it.
of course, my frenz would love to play it, but i can't give it to him because of some small problem about file transferring.
so.. so i guess i play alone first lorh, until my frenz gimme back my pendrive.
but then after that i came back and then he suddenly told me.
they dun wanna play with that private server already, they're playing the actual server.
suddenly i was like, what the fuck? you kiddin' me?
then what for i search for the private server? my godness, waste my fucking shit ass time to find and download for you all.
but what i really afraid is, i scared that, i'll miss out alot of fun playing with them.
i dun wanna play that stupid noob freakin' server already, the rate is so lowwwww.
SUPER DUPERLY LOWWWWWWWWW THAT TYPE.
sighs, never mind larh, like i told myself.
i play myself, just for fun larh. because i'm not really that into online games.
but i'll certainly spend alot of time on this one, RAGNAROK ONLINE OWNED!!!

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aihz, about the pendrive stuff.
my sohai frenz, also very sohai one.
he never EVER take care of stuff around him.
he lost his phone before.
he lost his wallet before.
he lost his pendrive before.
and he lost my pendrive.
HE NEVER KEPT ANYTHING. LOL.
OMIGOD HOW COULD THIS FELLA CAN BE SO STUPID?!
hopefully he can buy me back my pendrive...
because i need it urgently.
and if i got the cash, i'm going to get another new hard disk also.
the old one cannot use d, fuck. 200 dollars lari.
let see.. the 200 hundred dollars credit is.. like.. spent 2 years ago.
and 2 years ago the value it's like.. 250. FUCK!!!!!!

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I had a weird dream this morning.
not to say weird, but a dream about my family.
for the very first time, i dreamt about them, with lots of hearts.

I saw them, going somewhere. seperated with my brother and sister.
I feel so sad. because I've got so much to tell and do to them.
Then my brother and sister, left as well, I felt so depressing.
Deep down in my heart, I'm crying out very loud, screaming for love.
I walked, and walked, and walked. Finally I found a trace of theirs.
I walked through the path. and I saw my parents, my siblings.
Gather at a spot, it seems like they're waiting for me.
I reunite with them. I smiled, and I laughed.
My family members are very happy. Surroundings are turning warm.
It seems like the indulgence of love is the source of the incredible.
I turned my head, I saw my parents.
I thought they're gone forever, but they're not.
I ran to them. I hug them tight, real tight.
I cried. I cried out of joy. I cried because I love them.
Because I can't afford to lose them in a second.
We spent alot of time together, doing nothing, chit-chatting.
and then, my parents is leaving us.
I dunno why, but their feets are moving, taking steps away from me, from us.
But they looked back, giving the smile that I've never felt so comfortable before.
and then...
I wake up. My hearts are sore, but the feeling is very complicated.
I can't tell, whether it's sad or happy. I just have the feeling.
That I've cried for quite some time.
I think the dream.. is trying to deliver a message to me.
But it'll never be revealed, not until the day I grown up as a true man.

Once again, I love, my family.
Cheers.

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I guess thats all for today. =P

Shits.

It seems like no one has found my blog. hoho.
Should I be happy or not? Heh, I guess I should be happy.

Life's been sucks.
No money. No pussies. No plans.
Garrrhh. Assignments been piling up like shits.
Going to become a trash mountain. Even Apollo11 also cannot reach that type.

Few days ago, my friend, DRIVE ALL THE WAY DOWN FROM PJ TO SERDANG.
come and find me. *yo, i emphasize your hardwork ok* says he miss me alot.
Yeah, I miss him too. Not to say I'm a fucking gay lar, but as a friend.
It has been quite a long time that we never meet each other already.
Hah, so that's it. He came and we hang out, to the basketball court.
Like what we used to during the weekends. Everything was cool though.
Nothing interesting to report =( my goodness, I think my blogging style ada siu siu problem d.

Everyone is writing like their own diary but I think I'm writing it like a damn fucked report shit man.
Just reporting the life I am lol. =(
Anyway this post suppose to be done in last few days, but I postponed it for unknown reason.
Please, don't ask. Because I can't even think of any fucking reason for it.
"Owwhhh ya.. I'm sicked. Thats why.." This ain't gonna work if it weren't used for class studies. =.=

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Days been passing in real quick and slow pace, whether you like it or not.
and the weather it's like hell like that. It's freaking COLD.
I mean it's nice to have a cooooooooooooool weather, but certainly not cold.
I can't really stand coldness myself, I rather the weather become slightly hotter.
It makes me sweat and it makes me feel like drinking water all the time. which keeps me healthy...in some ways lol? Fuck it.

Freakin' ass.. assignments are trying to occupy my time space liao.
Gets me scary all the night and keeps me asleep all day long. Why?
"I'm doing assignment at home.." and "Diuz lorh, another day for gaming, shit, done no shit."
Understand? or not, I don't fucking care. =P

Sighs. Sometimes it's sucks to being a smarter person.
I mean, not to say I'm very smart also. But when you're particularly good at some shit.
People just keep bugging you about it when it comes to a problem, you know?
Like...
...erm, see, every household, I mean student's hostel household has one nice rule for the house.
and thats
"No download that exceeding the limit of 10MB size are available before 12am, and that includes BT seeding down/upload, and PPStreaming."
Yeah, me myself set this also in this house.
and... I actually broke it =P I mean, into half or pieces. Hah, for your info, I'm still downloading now. My goodness the speed is fucking slow, I mean I downloading it, earlier than my frenz but he already finish download and playing d. FUCK.

Ok back to the story. So now.. the line service has been very bad since last week, or I should say, since the raining season started.
As the PM says all the time lar, Malaysia boleh ma. Line also boleh lag till you can't even fall asleep because of not even a chance to post a goodbye message on facebook.
So, yeah, all I want to say is.
I'm not trying to say girls are stupid, but please, gain alittle bit more knowledge.
Just siu siu enough, know the major reason of something else, problems, questions.
Don't come to me with a fuck face when the line become so lag and point the fingers to me lar.
I feel so disrespect lerh, when you came and ask "Hey are you downloading" while I'm not!
I know I did something big shit mistakes thats why you people misunderstand me lar.
But come on lorh, trust me alittle bit won't takes away 20 years of your life right.
It could've been any other reason for the cause of lagging internet!
Already told you all a thousand times that I am so not involved in this shit but you guys still suspects me!
Not to say I'm so innocent lar, but come on, I've gave you all the permission and the explaination. I did what I can, and I fucking tried to fix it but hell, I'm not the technician of the broadband service ok, Even if you ask the fella to come and fix, he might just rape your pussy and even your ass, then he tell you "Owh tak boleh oh, kerana itu apa maintenance ini maintainence, patient sikit lar" 5 minutes later you're enjoying sex with him.

Sighs.

Sometimes it sucks to be a bad guy, even though I told myself if there's no one to be the badass, I'll become one.

Actually, sometimes I don't really mind being suspected, about this.
It's just that... show me alil bit of trust lar, give me more comfort ma.
I told you I'm not lying means I'm not lar. Don't go behind me and fucking stab me with your dick or shitheaded knife lar. Tellin' all the way from KL to your place.
My goodness.
Sighs, problems problems problems.


So.. what now? I've so much to write about now. hahahaha, guess it's kinda boring without pictures, I know.
But since no one else is reading the blog so... I just fuck it lar, not to say I wanna get some reputation in blogging or what-so-ever.
Maybe I should wrap up a summary about 2009, a year that I've been through with my last teenage. T^T byebye sweet teenages.

So.. yeah, it's been another fucked year of life. Friendship come and go. Money come and go. Even the cpu come and go also. Nothing really stays with me this whole year, oh, my wallet and my phone?

-it's been great before the last time that particular fella says "We are no longer friends anymore!" Why? Heh, 'cause everyone likes him and everyone is attending his plan everytime he planned something.
Yeah, I like to being a part of it, socializing life! Even though I might not be able to talk alot with new people out there, but still, it's better to stay in front of my monitor all day long right? Hangin' out, crazy out there it's just the greatest spice ever to spice up your life!!
Owwhhhh I miss the time when we all hang out together. hahahaha. It's nice to have that as a memory, but... maybe I'm not grateful enough, it's just appear to be so short for me. It's only been half a year or lesser.. sighs. Too bad, maybe I've made a mistake, but I think that mistake saved my dad 6000 of cash, so... life's a choice, you make it, or you miss it.

-hmmmmm...love life. oops, no, relationships. hah, to describe it as a love life it's just so inappropriate for me, now. Well I guess I didn't really have the guts to tackle girls now. Girls nowadays are hard to entertain if you weren't one of the riches. I mean, yeah, you need alot of money to get a girl to stick with your life, investing relationships. Bullshits enough.
Just can't really find one suitable for me. and... yeah, it's already been 19 years.
Girls, never like me. I mean its sad to tell but it's a cruel fact and I have to accept it in several ways. Not to say I'm giving up, it's just that.. I don't see I have a problem, but people think I have a problem, thats why. and... that's what makes the socializing process become harder.
You know, sometimes it's just so unfair, that the girls would like to share their topics to another guy that they've just met, volunteered and automatically. But that just never happened on me, why? I don't understand. Yeah when I asks, they say
"You boys should open a topic ma, it's your job when you're trying to get girls, or else girl think you're super boring..!!"
but the fact is, it's not the way it should work..
See, this is what people said to me, always, and I dunno whether it's a joke or a bad joke.
"Face problem lorh, you so ugly, of course people don't want you ma"
FUCK YOU LARH. I MIGHT NOT THE HANDSOME ONE BUT I'M CERTAINLY NOT THE UGLIEST ONE. HELL DON'T CATEGORIZE ME INTO THE UGLY GROUP OK.
sighs, there's alot of issues need to be taken care of when it comes to relationships.
People hate your attitude people hate your background people hate your face looking, so?
I don't think I can't live without pussy, for worst it's just that I might live as a virgin for life.
As long as I be able to ejaculate.. i guess thats not a big deal for me, though.
"What a hero."

-for so many times I thought I might have chances to, you know, talk with the girls and grow bridges between us. Not to say I want that girl to be my girl lar, but just become friends. The type that can share among and hang out together and talk, socialize. But...they don't really give chances...it's just simply because they think they've met the better one. so many reasons i can think out of it in my head right now. sometimes frenz also the fucking reason of it.
for example, like when we hang out with the girls, i talk to the boys, trying to have some funny topics, but they just kinda ignore me, like, because there's girls around us, they cannot have some craziest illegal excitement. Not to say to be the craziest one lar, but still stupid enough to have some happiness ma. To me, it looks like that. But they, they think I'm an idiot, and they walk away and act cool. so... yeah, sometimes it's kinda hurt, when you know frenz are all applying the facts "Ho's before the bros".
Damn, I feel so fucking sad right now. Screw you guys.
For so many years, I think I've lost the confidence on socializing with the others.
To tell you guys a truth, I was trying alittle too hard during the masquerade night.
I was scared. I don't know how to talk with people. I have to fake stuff and make stuff.
and I feel bad for that. I feel so sorry to myself, and to the girls that think that I'm so annoying.
BIG SIGHS. Is there anyone... can really, understand this? ...I'm really... sad to being alone all the time. even if... I've always told myself... it's ok.. to be alone...
I think i'm gonna cry in any minute now.

sighs.. as always i've so much to tell but i just have to pack everything up.
and... its too many liao. so.. i guess this is it.
*phew, what a long post.

Bye, no one.

It's been sometimes since the day I've updated my blog.
It's 4.40am now and I'm still awake, or should I say... I'm awake??

Yeap, I sleep at about.. 10pm just now..thought I could get an 8 hours of sleep.
GAH, screw this theory. Schedule confused because of not waking up at 6.

Nothing hot happening recently, it's been a cool extra study semester.
Went to school, play at school, talk at school and shits at school.
My goodness. What a life. Oops, skip school too =). It's been a part of it, since I'm a student.

Probably there's someone asking, "Why do you sleep so early?"
(Probably no one asking... 'cause no one is reading it? hah)
"I sleep early simply because... there's nothing to do and I'm too bored of doing something else?"
Yeah thats probably a sucking answer but hell yeah, I'm suck, and I'm bored of shit.
So... bounce to the bed and get a beauty sleep is fair enough, right?

Anyway if I could, I wish I could sleep for like 16 hours today. Why?
It's very simple. There's no class tomorrow, and there's no plan tomorrow.
But hell, thursday got class, and hell I can't go back tomorrow.
SHIT RIGHT?? Guess I should ask my lecturer change his class to wednesday.
IF HE COULD. Then that's a perfect ending for everyone...hah!
It's damn sad that tomorrow everyone has at least plan while I'm not.
Simply because I cut connection with one particular fella.
Nah I'm not going to call him a motherfucker, 'cause its really a misunderstanding.. i should say.
Anyway it's sucks to talk about this right now.
It's like I'm gonna be a puss and try to say every good word of it to maintain and repair the relationship, please.. Don't make me a puss. Fuck it, duh.

Well... I think I'm gonna play some stupid game to kill my time until the breakfast call.
So long people.

Failing wasn't cool, when you're actually have to pay for a few thousands for 6 months of it.

I feel so depressed now. I think I'm gonna die or what, whatever.

I thought everything will be okay. Things aren't going as planned.
Life's never fair right, you had your stuff but suddenly shits are all over your place.

Whats the issue here is, I'm might not be able to survive this semester.
Why? First because I passed my submission deadline.
The rendering speed is so damn slow. Everything is turning into the worst!!

Now I have to submit 2 assignments, and both are in progress zero.
I never thought shit could happen like that, but who else can I blame?

I know, in my heart, I'm the fucked-up fucker to be blame.
I played too much. I'm playing it cool, too cool.
All I did was open my mouth and talk, swear like a motherfucker.

See whats happening now? I'm late for submitting assignment, might not even have the chance o submit either..!
"I dun wanna be another 'senior'!!" I've been talking about this since 6 months ago.
My godness I was so fucking stupid.
and now what? I've became another 'senior' that juniors will always bear in mind that they never did well in their assignments.

I am so down now. I can't even think properly. I can't even talk properly.
I think I might puke or crying out loud now. For god sake..!

All I can think now is to pray hard, even though the possibilities aren't hot.
Hopefully.. I can pass this semester, just pass.

It's time to make a change, before it's too fucking late, for me.
Please. I need guidance.