Shits.

It seems like no one has found my blog. hoho.
Should I be happy or not? Heh, I guess I should be happy.

Life's been sucks.
No money. No pussies. No plans.
Garrrhh. Assignments been piling up like shits.
Going to become a trash mountain. Even Apollo11 also cannot reach that type.

Few days ago, my friend, DRIVE ALL THE WAY DOWN FROM PJ TO SERDANG.
come and find me. *yo, i emphasize your hardwork ok* says he miss me alot.
Yeah, I miss him too. Not to say I'm a fucking gay lar, but as a friend.
It has been quite a long time that we never meet each other already.
Hah, so that's it. He came and we hang out, to the basketball court.
Like what we used to during the weekends. Everything was cool though.
Nothing interesting to report =( my goodness, I think my blogging style ada siu siu problem d.

Everyone is writing like their own diary but I think I'm writing it like a damn fucked report shit man.
Just reporting the life I am lol. =(
Anyway this post suppose to be done in last few days, but I postponed it for unknown reason.
Please, don't ask. Because I can't even think of any fucking reason for it.
"Owwhhh ya.. I'm sicked. Thats why.." This ain't gonna work if it weren't used for class studies. =.=

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Days been passing in real quick and slow pace, whether you like it or not.
and the weather it's like hell like that. It's freaking COLD.
I mean it's nice to have a cooooooooooooool weather, but certainly not cold.
I can't really stand coldness myself, I rather the weather become slightly hotter.
It makes me sweat and it makes me feel like drinking water all the time. which keeps me healthy...in some ways lol? Fuck it.

Freakin' ass.. assignments are trying to occupy my time space liao.
Gets me scary all the night and keeps me asleep all day long. Why?
"I'm doing assignment at home.." and "Diuz lorh, another day for gaming, shit, done no shit."
Understand? or not, I don't fucking care. =P

Sighs. Sometimes it's sucks to being a smarter person.
I mean, not to say I'm very smart also. But when you're particularly good at some shit.
People just keep bugging you about it when it comes to a problem, you know?
Like...
...erm, see, every household, I mean student's hostel household has one nice rule for the house.
and thats
"No download that exceeding the limit of 10MB size are available before 12am, and that includes BT seeding down/upload, and PPStreaming."
Yeah, me myself set this also in this house.
and... I actually broke it =P I mean, into half or pieces. Hah, for your info, I'm still downloading now. My goodness the speed is fucking slow, I mean I downloading it, earlier than my frenz but he already finish download and playing d. FUCK.

Ok back to the story. So now.. the line service has been very bad since last week, or I should say, since the raining season started.
As the PM says all the time lar, Malaysia boleh ma. Line also boleh lag till you can't even fall asleep because of not even a chance to post a goodbye message on facebook.
So, yeah, all I want to say is.
I'm not trying to say girls are stupid, but please, gain alittle bit more knowledge.
Just siu siu enough, know the major reason of something else, problems, questions.
Don't come to me with a fuck face when the line become so lag and point the fingers to me lar.
I feel so disrespect lerh, when you came and ask "Hey are you downloading" while I'm not!
I know I did something big shit mistakes thats why you people misunderstand me lar.
But come on lorh, trust me alittle bit won't takes away 20 years of your life right.
It could've been any other reason for the cause of lagging internet!
Already told you all a thousand times that I am so not involved in this shit but you guys still suspects me!
Not to say I'm so innocent lar, but come on, I've gave you all the permission and the explaination. I did what I can, and I fucking tried to fix it but hell, I'm not the technician of the broadband service ok, Even if you ask the fella to come and fix, he might just rape your pussy and even your ass, then he tell you "Owh tak boleh oh, kerana itu apa maintenance ini maintainence, patient sikit lar" 5 minutes later you're enjoying sex with him.

Sighs.

Sometimes it sucks to be a bad guy, even though I told myself if there's no one to be the badass, I'll become one.

Actually, sometimes I don't really mind being suspected, about this.
It's just that... show me alil bit of trust lar, give me more comfort ma.
I told you I'm not lying means I'm not lar. Don't go behind me and fucking stab me with your dick or shitheaded knife lar. Tellin' all the way from KL to your place.
My goodness.
Sighs, problems problems problems.


So.. what now? I've so much to write about now. hahahaha, guess it's kinda boring without pictures, I know.
But since no one else is reading the blog so... I just fuck it lar, not to say I wanna get some reputation in blogging or what-so-ever.
Maybe I should wrap up a summary about 2009, a year that I've been through with my last teenage. T^T byebye sweet teenages.

So.. yeah, it's been another fucked year of life. Friendship come and go. Money come and go. Even the cpu come and go also. Nothing really stays with me this whole year, oh, my wallet and my phone?

-it's been great before the last time that particular fella says "We are no longer friends anymore!" Why? Heh, 'cause everyone likes him and everyone is attending his plan everytime he planned something.
Yeah, I like to being a part of it, socializing life! Even though I might not be able to talk alot with new people out there, but still, it's better to stay in front of my monitor all day long right? Hangin' out, crazy out there it's just the greatest spice ever to spice up your life!!
Owwhhhh I miss the time when we all hang out together. hahahaha. It's nice to have that as a memory, but... maybe I'm not grateful enough, it's just appear to be so short for me. It's only been half a year or lesser.. sighs. Too bad, maybe I've made a mistake, but I think that mistake saved my dad 6000 of cash, so... life's a choice, you make it, or you miss it.

-hmmmmm...love life. oops, no, relationships. hah, to describe it as a love life it's just so inappropriate for me, now. Well I guess I didn't really have the guts to tackle girls now. Girls nowadays are hard to entertain if you weren't one of the riches. I mean, yeah, you need alot of money to get a girl to stick with your life, investing relationships. Bullshits enough.
Just can't really find one suitable for me. and... yeah, it's already been 19 years.
Girls, never like me. I mean its sad to tell but it's a cruel fact and I have to accept it in several ways. Not to say I'm giving up, it's just that.. I don't see I have a problem, but people think I have a problem, thats why. and... that's what makes the socializing process become harder.
You know, sometimes it's just so unfair, that the girls would like to share their topics to another guy that they've just met, volunteered and automatically. But that just never happened on me, why? I don't understand. Yeah when I asks, they say
"You boys should open a topic ma, it's your job when you're trying to get girls, or else girl think you're super boring..!!"
but the fact is, it's not the way it should work..
See, this is what people said to me, always, and I dunno whether it's a joke or a bad joke.
"Face problem lorh, you so ugly, of course people don't want you ma"
FUCK YOU LARH. I MIGHT NOT THE HANDSOME ONE BUT I'M CERTAINLY NOT THE UGLIEST ONE. HELL DON'T CATEGORIZE ME INTO THE UGLY GROUP OK.
sighs, there's alot of issues need to be taken care of when it comes to relationships.
People hate your attitude people hate your background people hate your face looking, so?
I don't think I can't live without pussy, for worst it's just that I might live as a virgin for life.
As long as I be able to ejaculate.. i guess thats not a big deal for me, though.
"What a hero."

-for so many times I thought I might have chances to, you know, talk with the girls and grow bridges between us. Not to say I want that girl to be my girl lar, but just become friends. The type that can share among and hang out together and talk, socialize. But...they don't really give chances...it's just simply because they think they've met the better one. so many reasons i can think out of it in my head right now. sometimes frenz also the fucking reason of it.
for example, like when we hang out with the girls, i talk to the boys, trying to have some funny topics, but they just kinda ignore me, like, because there's girls around us, they cannot have some craziest illegal excitement. Not to say to be the craziest one lar, but still stupid enough to have some happiness ma. To me, it looks like that. But they, they think I'm an idiot, and they walk away and act cool. so... yeah, sometimes it's kinda hurt, when you know frenz are all applying the facts "Ho's before the bros".
Damn, I feel so fucking sad right now. Screw you guys.
For so many years, I think I've lost the confidence on socializing with the others.
To tell you guys a truth, I was trying alittle too hard during the masquerade night.
I was scared. I don't know how to talk with people. I have to fake stuff and make stuff.
and I feel bad for that. I feel so sorry to myself, and to the girls that think that I'm so annoying.
BIG SIGHS. Is there anyone... can really, understand this? ...I'm really... sad to being alone all the time. even if... I've always told myself... it's ok.. to be alone...
I think i'm gonna cry in any minute now.

sighs.. as always i've so much to tell but i just have to pack everything up.
and... its too many liao. so.. i guess this is it.
*phew, what a long post.

Bye, no one.