又过了一年
又过了平凡的一年
其实每一年我都在做同样的事情
吃喝玩乐肯定少不了
陪伴家人也有一定的日子
有一件事情
我觉得每个人都能维持的
而那样事情
却不是我能掌控得了的
就像手上涂了油一般
每年 都会在稳抓的一瞬间
滑掉
是的
我每年 都在重复
我每年 交新朋友
我每年 有好朋友
我每年 没有了朋友
的确 也许人家口头上
对着我说 我们是朋友
我很感谢 却很矛盾
我想怪你 却不想没有你
其实
我真的在想
如果事情就这样作结尾的话
那我 不如保持安静
还能省下很多力气
钱包也不会白白流血
时间也能够追上
数一数
我认识的人
其实也算蛮多
曾经比较友好的
也不至于 没有
可是到最后
我看到的
却是个陌生的人
他们 只不过是带着熟悉的面具而以
我摸不着
我看不透
我听不见
传达不了 当年的暗号
我也 曾经想过
问题 是不是出之于我呢
没有错 我有问题
你们也有问题
你们可以接受其他人
但你们却接受不了 我的其他人
更不能接受 我的自己人
我觉得 非常奇怪
我一直都在安慰自己
说
我根本就不需理会你们
我不需要你们来证明我
但是 每次 看到你们
我心里 酸了一下
体内的化学也开始转型
我 哭了
意识中是那么的说自己
我轻抚我的双眼
我知道 我并没有哭
我也知道 我不需要
眼泪来模糊视线
可是
心里的酸
不是说笑
那不是一种谎言
我每年 新年
都只希望一件事
我希望 我有一班
真的能够 脱下面具
接受我的 他们
我想和他们 分享我的点滴
我想和他们 分享我的心
再见 朋友
朋友 你好
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Whew, been busy for the past 36 hours.
For what? Movies movies and movies.
Ooops, never forget one more thing, GAMING.
Well I've watched Avatar and Storm Warrior II.
Avatar from James Cameron is seriously nice.
Refreshing. Creative. Impressive CGI.
Brilliant Ideas and design. Interesting visual.
Musics, languages, audio wise, superb, well-polishing job.
A very complete package for the price of 12.
and the outcome, is worth more than the price of 12.
I can really say nothing but good things about it.
Hahaha, since there's no one here, I urge people to watch the movie.
and then.. the next day, which is TODAY.
I went to KLCC and watch Storm Warrior II.
With a frenz, and a loser. hahahah he'll never know I call him like that.
Well.. Storm Warrior II.
I guess only SW die-hard fans will like it and understand the show.
Because the show has a very less dialogue,
and the camera, and the presentation, it's like imitating the original comic book.
So.. I guess alot of people don't like it because the way they present it.
Hah, take this out and I'm sure my frenz got alot to clash with my thoughts.
Visual effects are nice, so nice, for HongKong movie.
It's really fancy but there's too many of it I think.
I guess the director is trying to bring comic idealism to life huh.
Overall.. still, AVATAR rocks...!!
because James Cameron job are far more creative than the others.
Simply, because of that.
********
Well just now after the movie, we walk our way to the LRT station.
on the way, the fucking stupid loser ask me :"Hey, so when you're coming back to wangsa?"
"Hah, I'll stay at hometown until the school reopen lar."
and then he replied."Hah, stay at hometown got things to do meh? Not sienz meh?"
WALAO. that time i was so speechless. so damn speechless.
Actually there's nothing wrong with the question.
But the way he asked and replied, just started a conflict with my thoughts.
Come on man, Serdang, here, is my home.
If I don't go home, where should I go?
and, I'm not like you.
I don't need 24 hours of internet access to download porn.
I don't take that as a neccessity.
I come back, to make plans, and follow plans.
You balik kampung no plan your business.
Don't take me with you into the same category.
I call people to hang out one.
sighs, fucking loser.
When there's a place called home and you don't appreciate.
有家可归，就不要嫌弃。
以后无家可归，我看你怎样后悔。
我跟你不一样，不要问我回来不会无聊咩。
我回来就是要陪家人，要吃妈妈的饭，坐爸爸的车。
听哥哥的闲话，看姐姐的生活。
你不喜欢回家是你的事，不要问到好像要人家陪你一起离家出走那样。
酱子何止幼稚，简直连叉烧都不如。
For what? Movies movies and movies.
Ooops, never forget one more thing, GAMING.
Well I've watched Avatar and Storm Warrior II.
Avatar from James Cameron is seriously nice.
Refreshing. Creative. Impressive CGI.
Brilliant Ideas and design. Interesting visual.
Musics, languages, audio wise, superb, well-polishing job.
A very complete package for the price of 12.
and the outcome, is worth more than the price of 12.
I can really say nothing but good things about it.
Hahaha, since there's no one here, I urge people to watch the movie.
and then.. the next day, which is TODAY.
I went to KLCC and watch Storm Warrior II.
With a frenz, and a loser. hahahah he'll never know I call him like that.
Well.. Storm Warrior II.
I guess only SW die-hard fans will like it and understand the show.
Because the show has a very less dialogue,
and the camera, and the presentation, it's like imitating the original comic book.
So.. I guess alot of people don't like it because the way they present it.
Hah, take this out and I'm sure my frenz got alot to clash with my thoughts.
Visual effects are nice, so nice, for HongKong movie.
It's really fancy but there's too many of it I think.
I guess the director is trying to bring comic idealism to life huh.
Overall.. still, AVATAR rocks...!!
because James Cameron job are far more creative than the others.
Simply, because of that.
********
Well just now after the movie, we walk our way to the LRT station.
on the way, the fucking stupid loser ask me :"Hey, so when you're coming back to wangsa?"
"Hah, I'll stay at hometown until the school reopen lar."
and then he replied."Hah, stay at hometown got things to do meh? Not sienz meh?"
WALAO. that time i was so speechless. so damn speechless.
Actually there's nothing wrong with the question.
But the way he asked and replied, just started a conflict with my thoughts.
Come on man, Serdang, here, is my home.
If I don't go home, where should I go?
and, I'm not like you.
I don't need 24 hours of internet access to download porn.
I don't take that as a neccessity.
I come back, to make plans, and follow plans.
You balik kampung no plan your business.
Don't take me with you into the same category.
I call people to hang out one.
sighs, fucking loser.
When there's a place called home and you don't appreciate.
有家可归，就不要嫌弃。
以后无家可归，我看你怎样后悔。
我跟你不一样，不要问我回来不会无聊咩。
我回来就是要陪家人，要吃妈妈的饭，坐爸爸的车。
听哥哥的闲话，看姐姐的生活。
你不喜欢回家是你的事，不要问到好像要人家陪你一起离家出走那样。
酱子何止幼稚，简直连叉烧都不如。
Thursday, December 03, 2009
Lots of shits happening this lately
anyway it's not some big deal so...
I'm not going to talk about any details of it lol.
I think I'm just too lazy to talk about it.
hahaha. Optimistic? guess not =P
So.... I think I just talk about the histories of the past few weeks.
First..
Yeah, I've done something.. errr I guess it's just a normal something.
Because I dun think thats some big deal too.
Yeah I've done something stupid (refer to 2nd and 3rd party reaction)
I post a fake-confession on my facebook. but I guess I post it at the wrong time though.
Not many reaction received =(
Too bad I can't post the photo in here, cause it's just too difficult to control it.
Its hard to say so I'm not gonna fucking tell it. Unless you asked, but anyway there's no 'you' here.
So yeah, It's silly and it's foolish, because I'm just too bored for life.
I said "What if I said... I like Lim Pui Kuen"
Hah, for outsiders.. oops, not outsiders. For everyone.
I guess they really thought I'm in love with her lol. Ever since the malacca trip.
Well.. as I've said a thousand trillion times, I don't like her, seriously.
but my explaination just get ignored most of the time. hahaha.
anyway fuck it, I don't care what people think anyway.
Because I don't control brains. I'm not that maniac ok.
Well actually I was just testing about something they called.. attitude art? 行为艺术
I'm just trying to make a topic for my daydreaming session.
So I can think alot of nice scenario and made up a bad story.
But too bad.. all the facebookers just don't really comment about it.
Maybe they've seen tonnes of it before, or probably because I'm not the point too.
Hah, I guess the second reason are the most appropriate one.
Why? because when I say Hi to those fellas, they just fucking ignored me.
Anyway thats what happen last week. Not a really big deal actually.
As if I really did that for confession purpose. hahahaha.
****
sooo... all these weeks are super duper boring and I all lived is a nerdy life.
School games sports cocked around eat spend .. and yeah, thats about it.
Oh sports.
Lets talk about it.
So.. for all my friends who know me well, they know I only play basketball.
Why? Because I don't need to move. Hahaha, I just leave the running part to my teammate and thats all.
Yesterday me and my frenz went to the basketball court behind my living place.
To have a healthy life, LOL.
Yeah and we're like sohais back there.
Playing under strong flare that could burn our skin in any minute.
Everything went smoothly but then at the final match.
One of my frenz just went crazy or what, I really dunno lar.
But he suddenly gone so wrong with the game.
Actually I don't really care if he dunno how to play.
But the problem is, he knows, and he made mistake in purpose..!!
Although I don't really run and chase people like hell just to defend.
But at least I know the proper way to defend when I confronting the opponent.
It look sucks but at least I defend lorh, come on.
But you know what my frenz did?
He don't run, never mind.
He don't chase, ok mou man tai.
He don't block, WHAT THE FUCK??!
When he's confronting the opponent, you know what the fuck he's doing??
HE FUCKING DOING NOTHING AND STAND THERE LIKE A RETARD..!!
MACHIBAI TAK MAO MAIN JANGAN KELUAR LAR ADUI...
I remind him and tell him for like trillion times..
"Oi, you see people don't just stand there larh, put up your both arms and hands ma. At least people scare alil bit and stop at the spot ma."
If I never tell him maybe I can blame myself.
But I told him.. for like everytime we play!!!
Aihz.. actually I don't really get mad about this, because I know he's that kind of stupid unreasonable retard.
But then I've heard from my frenz says that.
He's fed up about the kids there from playing rough.
This is what he told my frenz.
"He come in front of me and do like this like this o, what the fuck?
He come play ball or have a fight one???"
So the detail is...
He's standing under the basket, I believe.
and then the opponent box-out in front of him.
and there's a skill to box out effectively under the basket.
Is that you stand still and firm your foundation, and lean backward so that you can press the opponent from jumping, just with that simple strengthen output...!
and he think thats rough, REAL BADASS STYLE OF ROUGH.
aihz.. what I'm trying to say is... he's not a basketball player.
He's not a basketball kaki, all the knowledge he know about basketballs are from games and shows.
He never really know about the skills and styles of playing basketball with people.
my goodness.. and yet he still dare to complain about the others.
what the fuck...ishhhh.
Some more he go and tell the third party to deliver the message to my frenz.
Here's the detail.
"XxxX, go tell Aaron and ask him tell his frenz dun play so rough, they want play or want fight? You tell him He must tell his frenz, MUST..!!!"
AIYOH SIAH SUI LIAO LORH CHIBAI KIAAAAAAAA.
AAAAAIIIIHHHHHZZZZZZ SPEECHLESS DICK.
Oh.. and.. actually before this I don't really hate him or so.
But then he's negative attitude just keep on coming, like you're surfing the internet with lots of pop up which you can't even have a single minute to off it all..!
First, he's becoming more and more ganas, fiercy type.
Red Hot chilli panas that kind.
Examples. We went for some multiplayer games in the cafe nearby and.
Everytime he's dead or make an unfortune or unworthy sacrifice, he diuz.
He give us the fucked face he give us the fucked speech and he play it the fucked style.
And he just keep on giving up everytime we seems to be losing the game.
"Haiz...*yawn*...sienz liao larh, lose liao larh"
MACHIBAI YOU GOT NO SPIRIT YOUR PROBLEM LAR MAHAI.
DON'T SIMPLY GIVE US THE AURA OK, LATER LOSE LIAO BLAME AGAIN MACHAOHAI.
But never mind, this will never happen cause.. we're not planning to invite him no more.
Second.
He's...He's a loser.
He lose in a love game.
He lose in his study.
He lose in his life.
He was dumped by his girlfrenz, because of his lousy attitude.
I heard someone said that.. his ex thinks that he's not aggressive enough.
I mean, in study, errrm easier said is.. He never try to be better.
Thats the reason she dumped her, I'VE HEARD.
second, he retained twice.
First time he retain.. he said never mind, I'll work hard.
and then he set his own target, and paste it in front of his pc desk.
and you know what happen? Dun blame us when you see this.
That time we were so hot in gaming and almost every night we went for the cc for games.
ALMOST EVERY NIGHT AND FOR LIKE 2 HOURS AT LEAST.
You have any idea how pain is my wallet every week? sakit babii.
It's ok larh.. just midnight gaming only.. once we stop and then we never play again at home.
but he's different abit.. HE GO HOME PLAY ANOTHER ONLINE GAME UNTIL LIKE.. 5AM??!!
and then some more due to his laziness, he was unable to wake up for classes.
he was unable to finish his assignment.
he was unable to show progress to his lecturer.
and he failed to meet his lecturer, when he got his appointment.
so thats the problem. again he failed.
He failed twice, and then he stop studying.
and joined some fucked up money making organization or what-so-ever.
I still remember he shout at facebook.
"I'll prove to you I can!!"
All I got to say is.. Ha Ha Ha.
sighs.. this fella really got problem one..
To tell you the truth I hate this kind of fella.
Bad socializing icon, bad attitude, bad thinking.
I know larh, he's trying his very best to communicate and socialize.
but sometimes when the joke just dun sounds right, then just dun make it lar.
It'll just affect the people around you, especially when the mood when down the slope.
And he never think properly..
not to say him, me as well, never think properly.
But from comparing facts, I think i'm way too good than him. Hah.
and the attitude.. aihz, fucking loser.
Wasting money wasting time waste the hopes been given.
Too bad larh, already jadi kawan. Maybe next time..
I won't ask him out that often, or maybe considering not letting him join too.
bad boy. XD
sighs, just let me open the eyes big big to see how he change.
Hopefully he will change. but its just to easy to be said.
oh and, he's a really bad singer, literally he's like.. bad in everything? lol
******
sighs.. I'm just back from an exhibition, organized by my frenz.
It's a kaleido-scope based exhibition, "Ka-Luan-Do-Scope乱花筒".
After I watched the video only I know whats the original name.
Hah, thanks Ady for mentioning the name before. Kaleida effect.
Well to tell the truth, I don't really like those stuff.
Cause it's messy. But thats the theme larh, hahaha, Luan 乱花筒.
Nothing really impressed me though. Cause the most geng one also got nothing to show.
Probably because he's still printing his works.
But some of the works and effort are nice.
Like.. one girl, her stuff doesn't really impress me.
Cause.. it's so normal. =.= but the way she exhibits is really.. nice?
hah, she made some merchandise based on her concepts.
She even make frames for some of her artwork.
But I think the frames are bought from out there somewhere.
But I really like the bags and her sketchbooks.
The effort is there and the colour is really nice, it attracts me. haha.
Thought of buy one for myself, but I've got no cash with me.
Cash been burning fierce this week. sighs..
And then.. one of my.. former frenz (sighs, bad memories again)
he's work are not that impressive also.. but I like his cutting job.
it's nice it's neat and it's almost perfect. hahaha if I could have some of that,
it could be nice too, for decorating walls.
If they come in 2 forms, even better..!! Black and white crossover.
and then.. the others.. not so special lorh.. sighs.. nothing really impressive there.
oh, and one more girl, hahahah nice effort she have.
She make a kaleidoscope herself. thanks to her, students and lecturer been able to experience the theme and the toy. hahahahah toy, yeah thats what it is.
hmmm overalll.. ok ok only. not to say I really like it.
but many people say very nice, maybe I have a really odd thinking?
or maybe because.. I'm too old for these stuff.
sighss.. I'm scared.
******
Yeah.. I really scared.
I scared and feared about everything.
Everything I have in my mind now it's just not enough for me to fit in the industry.
I guess people just starting to suspect about my ability.
Even me, myself also starting to doubt about it.
Yeah.. I guess I'm losing the touch.
I really scared...
******
One last thing perhaps?
Hah, this might sounds very loser.
Still.. I wanna say it.
I'm starting to regret.. about losing this frenz.
Sighs.. too much to tell, too complicating.
I just dunno how to say.. FUCKKKKKKKKKK
Bye.
anyway it's not some big deal so...
I'm not going to talk about any details of it lol.
I think I'm just too lazy to talk about it.
hahaha. Optimistic? guess not =P
So.... I think I just talk about the histories of the past few weeks.
First..
Yeah, I've done something.. errr I guess it's just a normal something.
Because I dun think thats some big deal too.
Yeah I've done something stupid (refer to 2nd and 3rd party reaction)
I post a fake-confession on my facebook. but I guess I post it at the wrong time though.
Not many reaction received =(
Too bad I can't post the photo in here, cause it's just too difficult to control it.
Its hard to say so I'm not gonna fucking tell it. Unless you asked, but anyway there's no 'you' here.
So yeah, It's silly and it's foolish, because I'm just too bored for life.
I said "What if I said... I like Lim Pui Kuen"
Hah, for outsiders.. oops, not outsiders. For everyone.
I guess they really thought I'm in love with her lol. Ever since the malacca trip.
Well.. as I've said a thousand trillion times, I don't like her, seriously.
but my explaination just get ignored most of the time. hahaha.
anyway fuck it, I don't care what people think anyway.
Because I don't control brains. I'm not that maniac ok.
Well actually I was just testing about something they called.. attitude art? 行为艺术
I'm just trying to make a topic for my daydreaming session.
So I can think alot of nice scenario and made up a bad story.
But too bad.. all the facebookers just don't really comment about it.
Maybe they've seen tonnes of it before, or probably because I'm not the point too.
Hah, I guess the second reason are the most appropriate one.
Why? because when I say Hi to those fellas, they just fucking ignored me.
Anyway thats what happen last week. Not a really big deal actually.
As if I really did that for confession purpose. hahahaha.
****
sooo... all these weeks are super duper boring and I all lived is a nerdy life.
School games sports cocked around eat spend .. and yeah, thats about it.
Oh sports.
Lets talk about it.
So.. for all my friends who know me well, they know I only play basketball.
Why? Because I don't need to move. Hahaha, I just leave the running part to my teammate and thats all.
Yesterday me and my frenz went to the basketball court behind my living place.
To have a healthy life, LOL.
Yeah and we're like sohais back there.
Playing under strong flare that could burn our skin in any minute.
Everything went smoothly but then at the final match.
One of my frenz just went crazy or what, I really dunno lar.
But he suddenly gone so wrong with the game.
Actually I don't really care if he dunno how to play.
But the problem is, he knows, and he made mistake in purpose..!!
Although I don't really run and chase people like hell just to defend.
But at least I know the proper way to defend when I confronting the opponent.
It look sucks but at least I defend lorh, come on.
But you know what my frenz did?
He don't run, never mind.
He don't chase, ok mou man tai.
He don't block, WHAT THE FUCK??!
When he's confronting the opponent, you know what the fuck he's doing??
HE FUCKING DOING NOTHING AND STAND THERE LIKE A RETARD..!!
MACHIBAI TAK MAO MAIN JANGAN KELUAR LAR ADUI...
I remind him and tell him for like trillion times..
"Oi, you see people don't just stand there larh, put up your both arms and hands ma. At least people scare alil bit and stop at the spot ma."
If I never tell him maybe I can blame myself.
But I told him.. for like everytime we play!!!
Aihz.. actually I don't really get mad about this, because I know he's that kind of stupid unreasonable retard.
But then I've heard from my frenz says that.
He's fed up about the kids there from playing rough.
This is what he told my frenz.
"He come in front of me and do like this like this o, what the fuck?
He come play ball or have a fight one???"
So the detail is...
He's standing under the basket, I believe.
and then the opponent box-out in front of him.
and there's a skill to box out effectively under the basket.
Is that you stand still and firm your foundation, and lean backward so that you can press the opponent from jumping, just with that simple strengthen output...!
and he think thats rough, REAL BADASS STYLE OF ROUGH.
aihz.. what I'm trying to say is... he's not a basketball player.
He's not a basketball kaki, all the knowledge he know about basketballs are from games and shows.
He never really know about the skills and styles of playing basketball with people.
my goodness.. and yet he still dare to complain about the others.
what the fuck...ishhhh.
Some more he go and tell the third party to deliver the message to my frenz.
Here's the detail.
"XxxX, go tell Aaron and ask him tell his frenz dun play so rough, they want play or want fight? You tell him He must tell his frenz, MUST..!!!"
AIYOH SIAH SUI LIAO LORH CHIBAI KIAAAAAAAA.
AAAAAIIIIHHHHHZZZZZZ SPEECHLESS DICK.
Oh.. and.. actually before this I don't really hate him or so.
But then he's negative attitude just keep on coming, like you're surfing the internet with lots of pop up which you can't even have a single minute to off it all..!
First, he's becoming more and more ganas, fiercy type.
Red Hot chilli panas that kind.
Examples. We went for some multiplayer games in the cafe nearby and.
Everytime he's dead or make an unfortune or unworthy sacrifice, he diuz.
He give us the fucked face he give us the fucked speech and he play it the fucked style.
And he just keep on giving up everytime we seems to be losing the game.
"Haiz...*yawn*...sienz liao larh, lose liao larh"
MACHIBAI YOU GOT NO SPIRIT YOUR PROBLEM LAR MAHAI.
DON'T SIMPLY GIVE US THE AURA OK, LATER LOSE LIAO BLAME AGAIN MACHAOHAI.
But never mind, this will never happen cause.. we're not planning to invite him no more.
Second.
He's...He's a loser.
He lose in a love game.
He lose in his study.
He lose in his life.
He was dumped by his girlfrenz, because of his lousy attitude.
I heard someone said that.. his ex thinks that he's not aggressive enough.
I mean, in study, errrm easier said is.. He never try to be better.
Thats the reason she dumped her, I'VE HEARD.
second, he retained twice.
First time he retain.. he said never mind, I'll work hard.
and then he set his own target, and paste it in front of his pc desk.
and you know what happen? Dun blame us when you see this.
That time we were so hot in gaming and almost every night we went for the cc for games.
ALMOST EVERY NIGHT AND FOR LIKE 2 HOURS AT LEAST.
You have any idea how pain is my wallet every week? sakit babii.
It's ok larh.. just midnight gaming only.. once we stop and then we never play again at home.
but he's different abit.. HE GO HOME PLAY ANOTHER ONLINE GAME UNTIL LIKE.. 5AM??!!
and then some more due to his laziness, he was unable to wake up for classes.
he was unable to finish his assignment.
he was unable to show progress to his lecturer.
and he failed to meet his lecturer, when he got his appointment.
so thats the problem. again he failed.
He failed twice, and then he stop studying.
and joined some fucked up money making organization or what-so-ever.
I still remember he shout at facebook.
"I'll prove to you I can!!"
All I got to say is.. Ha Ha Ha.
sighs.. this fella really got problem one..
To tell you the truth I hate this kind of fella.
Bad socializing icon, bad attitude, bad thinking.
I know larh, he's trying his very best to communicate and socialize.
but sometimes when the joke just dun sounds right, then just dun make it lar.
It'll just affect the people around you, especially when the mood when down the slope.
And he never think properly..
not to say him, me as well, never think properly.
But from comparing facts, I think i'm way too good than him. Hah.
and the attitude.. aihz, fucking loser.
Wasting money wasting time waste the hopes been given.
Too bad larh, already jadi kawan. Maybe next time..
I won't ask him out that often, or maybe considering not letting him join too.
bad boy. XD
sighs, just let me open the eyes big big to see how he change.
Hopefully he will change. but its just to easy to be said.
oh and, he's a really bad singer, literally he's like.. bad in everything? lol
******
sighs.. I'm just back from an exhibition, organized by my frenz.
It's a kaleido-scope based exhibition, "Ka-Luan-Do-Scope乱花筒".
After I watched the video only I know whats the original name.
Hah, thanks Ady for mentioning the name before. Kaleida effect.
Well to tell the truth, I don't really like those stuff.
Cause it's messy. But thats the theme larh, hahaha, Luan 乱花筒.
Nothing really impressed me though. Cause the most geng one also got nothing to show.
Probably because he's still printing his works.
But some of the works and effort are nice.
Like.. one girl, her stuff doesn't really impress me.
Cause.. it's so normal. =.= but the way she exhibits is really.. nice?
hah, she made some merchandise based on her concepts.
She even make frames for some of her artwork.
But I think the frames are bought from out there somewhere.
But I really like the bags and her sketchbooks.
The effort is there and the colour is really nice, it attracts me. haha.
Thought of buy one for myself, but I've got no cash with me.
Cash been burning fierce this week. sighs..
And then.. one of my.. former frenz (sighs, bad memories again)
he's work are not that impressive also.. but I like his cutting job.
it's nice it's neat and it's almost perfect. hahaha if I could have some of that,
it could be nice too, for decorating walls.
If they come in 2 forms, even better..!! Black and white crossover.
and then.. the others.. not so special lorh.. sighs.. nothing really impressive there.
oh, and one more girl, hahahah nice effort she have.
She make a kaleidoscope herself. thanks to her, students and lecturer been able to experience the theme and the toy. hahahahah toy, yeah thats what it is.
hmmm overalll.. ok ok only. not to say I really like it.
but many people say very nice, maybe I have a really odd thinking?
or maybe because.. I'm too old for these stuff.
sighss.. I'm scared.
******
Yeah.. I really scared.
I scared and feared about everything.
Everything I have in my mind now it's just not enough for me to fit in the industry.
I guess people just starting to suspect about my ability.
Even me, myself also starting to doubt about it.
Yeah.. I guess I'm losing the touch.
I really scared...
******
One last thing perhaps?
Hah, this might sounds very loser.
Still.. I wanna say it.
I'm starting to regret.. about losing this frenz.
Sighs.. too much to tell, too complicating.
I just dunno how to say.. FUCKKKKKKKKKK
Bye.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
滚，滚回家!!
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK..!!!
First, I'm fucking the sohai weather.
Raining can, but dun raining non stop larh wei, very suffering you know.
Want go out also cannot. What are you? Trying to trap me in my house?!!
GARRRRRRHHHHHHH.
Second, I'm fucking the sohai broadband service.
You lag can, BUT DON'T SO FREQUENT LARH WEI...
Annoying you know?!!! Want surf net also cannot..!!!
I stay at home very kesian liao.. no game no music..
Wanna find some enjoyment on the net also cannot meh...
FUCK YOU CHIBAI KIA MOTHERFUCKED A-HOLE!!!!
Third, I'm fucking... errr... OH!!!
JUST NOW THERE'S A SOHAI KELISA.
MAPUKI. I was trying to cross the road and I forgot to look whether there's other car from the back, and thank god I'm super agile larh.
I noticed the kelisa and I hold my steps before I make another tragedy.
and then horh, THE SOHAI KELISA DRIVER AND PASSENGER LOOKING AT ME WITH THEIR FUCKING EYES.
OMIGOD THEY ARE SO DAMN UGLY!!!!
AND THEY'RE FAT!!! DARK!!! LOOK UNEDUCATED!!!!
FUCK OFF LAR KIMAK, YOU THOUGHT YOU ELDER THAN ME YOU CAN GIMME THAT SHIT ASS EYE LOOK??? SUCK DICK PLEASE
Fourth.. dunno who to fuck liao...
maybe I should fuck my old pc. YEAH..!!!
But it's not really his fault also.. sighs..
so.. I'm fucking nothing right now. ho ho =.=
Fifth..!!! I really got no one to fuck liao.
If i wanna fuck, I could've fuck anyone lol.
Seriously, I CAN. But for some reason dun simply fuck people d.
Cause you know lar, one fuck can cause a thousand impacts.
Might crush something valueble or even a tank!!! hoho.
***************************************************
It's 5.50am now and I'm awake. Yes, I'm awake from sleep.
SERIOUS LERH BOSS =.=
Sometimes my body organism just alittle bit too strange for me, myself to figure, y'know.
Let's make an example.
Today I sleep at 3am, and I can sleep for 10 hours straight, until like 1pm on the next day.
And then, the next day I sleep at 12am, and I fucking wake up at 4.30am!!!
and How fucking stupid odd is that..?!!
Holyshit.. =.= My body is trying to ruin myself lar.. my spirit and my body..damn suffering shit.
Life's been very lazy...Oh, yeah, VERY LAZY.
None of the assignments has any progress, guess now I really repeating what I've been doing like the past semesters lol.
Aihz, better pray hard that tomorrow the world move slower abit.
*********************************************************
One day I saw my frenz posting a shoutout in facebook
and says that he's not studying anymore, and he posting farewell wishes to all his classmates.
But to be honest, he is not my brother or what important frenz lar, just normal frenz.
He cannot continue study.. then cannot lorh, so why the fuck I need to be sad about it?
Ok.
So when I see he finally make clear of shits and post it in facebook.
I'm trying to joke around with my frenz and told him let's sing a song for him.
"Goodbye my love..~ wo di ai ren..~ zai jian..~"
and you know what my frenz reply me?
When I heard this reply oo... I was kinda shocked, kinda FUCKING SHOCKED.
He answer me... "How come you seems to be very happy when you see he posting that shoutout?"
I was like...what the fuck?
Like I said just now.. me and him.. we don't have a strong bond, and I believe he don't appreciate me better also. because some shits happen before lar. small matter to him but big matter to me and I just too lazy to take it out and argue with him.
Sometimes arh...my sohai roommate oo.. talk without using brain one..
I admit I also brainless most of the time larh, I know you all so MATURED ma.
Always neglect me like a tao gei.
but my roommate o.. just to based on the case above lar.
When I hurt myself or die or whatever unlucky shit happen, he stand behind and laugh like a shittard. and never try to help, ya it sucks. and he thinks that, "It's none of my business"
HAH, GOOD ONE.
Even if it's none of your business.. also don't laugh in front of me lorh,
and never laugh behind my back.
You see ar.. everytime he diuz about my attitude o.. he most of the time also accidently doing it.
aihz.. human are really a stupid kind, they never do what they told.
Shit face roommate. and always trying to act pro. not to say act pro larh.
but he never trust me on something I'm certain.
and he never trust me on something that I dunno.
hoho i've got alot to tell now, and the fucktard is sleeping beside me.
So like.. for example.
I know about.. slightly lar, slightly know about networking data or stuff like that.
and then oo... everytime I get connected to the internet I'll automatically open a command prompt and ping the internet data transfer rate one ma.. to see and observe whether there's anything wrong about the house networking lar. you know lar, some biatches and fuckers like to complain and show some fuck face when they can't connect and play their facebook games.
and then oooh.. you know what my sohai roommate say arh?
"Yerrr what is that, you open that to snatch the speed arh?! no wonder you so smooth and fast lar..!!" LOL WHAT THE FUCK?! YOU MOTHERFUCKED RETARDED?!!!
and after that I tried to explain lar.. since he told me he never know about it.
and guess what, the next day he tells everyone about that and say I'm trying to snatch the fucking line. HOLYSHIT WEIII.. MY NAME ALREADY SO FUCKING BUSUK YOU STILL WANNA POUR WHAT ON IT? CHEMICAL ACID...?! WHAT.. YOU'RE TRYING TO RUIN MY NAME OR WHAT..? ALREADY BUSUK LIAO STILL DUN WANNA LET ME GO MEH.
ok another case.
one day he come and ask me about... some english stuff. or some other stuff.
and then i tell him i dunno ma, and i ask him to google lorh.
and you know what? he show me the fuck face.
like i know and i never wanted to tell him. MAHAI.
YOU THOUGHT I'M WHAT, WIKIPEDIA?
GOOGLE SO GENG JUST GO GOOGLE EVERY QUESTION YOU WANNA ASK LAR MACHIBAI.
EVERYTIME ASK YOU GOOGLE YOURSELF ALSO TAK MAO LISTEN. KIMAK LU.
and another case.. holyshit all these shit cases.
one day i see he making mistake, a very common mistake that i've been through before and i tell him. I TELL HIM POLITELY.
"oi, dun do that lar, cannot one, because o.. blablabla.. so it'll end up like that"
he give me a fuck face.. and then he turn his fucking head away and said.
"I don't believe it" and oops, he did it again~
"Hah, told you."
and again the fuck face he show me, some more use some stupid weird accent and say
"Ouuh Sssorry." mahai.. langsung tak de respect. like i need your apologize.
and this fucktard is a total asshole. not to say he look like a canned abalone lar.
but he act like one.
HE WILL ALWAYS HELP GIRLS.
i dunno why.
but he does
ALWAYS HELP GIRLS.
and GIRLS ALWAYS ASK FOR HIS HELP.
i dunno why too.
but he helped the guys too..
ONLY CERTAIN GUYS.
HE WILL ALWAYS HELP CERTAIN GUYS.
i dunno why, again.
and CERTAIN GUYS NEVER FIND HIS HELP.
this one i guess i know why.
and guess what?
he never help me. =(
every help i asked it's like i sending my request to government and once it sent, it never return and never reply.
how motherfucked is that?
做roommate做到酱死人样，还有什么意思？
平时跟你谈两句话就将我幼稚。你又何尝不是？
是啦，我回家是因为我要跟家人伸手讨钱，你就是回家尽你的lanjiao孝道！
是啦，房间我没扫过，是你扫罢了，功劳全归你！
是啦，我很不man，也不gentlemen，你最棒，你最好，你简直是女人心中的英雄！
给你讲对全部东西了啦，开心没？
给你讲中啦，我在幸灾乐祸，你满意没？
跌倒还要被你踩几脚，你爽了没？
是不是要让你看到我彻底毁灭了你才高兴？
是不是要让你看到我登逝世启示你才快乐？
滚，滚回家，用尽一生去干你的lanjiao事情！
你什么理由也不用说了，以后放飞机也不用道歉！
因为我都知道，你一定是回家尽你的孝道，孝顺父母爱护家人，很伟大兼高耸的责任来的！
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK..!!!
First, I'm fucking the sohai weather.
Raining can, but dun raining non stop larh wei, very suffering you know.
Want go out also cannot. What are you? Trying to trap me in my house?!!
GARRRRRRHHHHHHH.
Second, I'm fucking the sohai broadband service.
You lag can, BUT DON'T SO FREQUENT LARH WEI...
Annoying you know?!!! Want surf net also cannot..!!!
I stay at home very kesian liao.. no game no music..
Wanna find some enjoyment on the net also cannot meh...
FUCK YOU CHIBAI KIA MOTHERFUCKED A-HOLE!!!!
Third, I'm fucking... errr... OH!!!
JUST NOW THERE'S A SOHAI KELISA.
MAPUKI. I was trying to cross the road and I forgot to look whether there's other car from the back, and thank god I'm super agile larh.
I noticed the kelisa and I hold my steps before I make another tragedy.
and then horh, THE SOHAI KELISA DRIVER AND PASSENGER LOOKING AT ME WITH THEIR FUCKING EYES.
OMIGOD THEY ARE SO DAMN UGLY!!!!
AND THEY'RE FAT!!! DARK!!! LOOK UNEDUCATED!!!!
FUCK OFF LAR KIMAK, YOU THOUGHT YOU ELDER THAN ME YOU CAN GIMME THAT SHIT ASS EYE LOOK??? SUCK DICK PLEASE
Fourth.. dunno who to fuck liao...
maybe I should fuck my old pc. YEAH..!!!
But it's not really his fault also.. sighs..
so.. I'm fucking nothing right now. ho ho =.=
Fifth..!!! I really got no one to fuck liao.
If i wanna fuck, I could've fuck anyone lol.
Seriously, I CAN. But for some reason dun simply fuck people d.
Cause you know lar, one fuck can cause a thousand impacts.
Might crush something valueble or even a tank!!! hoho.
***************************************************
It's 5.50am now and I'm awake. Yes, I'm awake from sleep.
SERIOUS LERH BOSS =.=
Sometimes my body organism just alittle bit too strange for me, myself to figure, y'know.
Let's make an example.
Today I sleep at 3am, and I can sleep for 10 hours straight, until like 1pm on the next day.
And then, the next day I sleep at 12am, and I fucking wake up at 4.30am!!!
and How fucking stupid odd is that..?!!
Holyshit.. =.= My body is trying to ruin myself lar.. my spirit and my body..damn suffering shit.
Life's been very lazy...Oh, yeah, VERY LAZY.
None of the assignments has any progress, guess now I really repeating what I've been doing like the past semesters lol.
Aihz, better pray hard that tomorrow the world move slower abit.
*********************************************************
One day I saw my frenz posting a shoutout in facebook
and says that he's not studying anymore, and he posting farewell wishes to all his classmates.
But to be honest, he is not my brother or what important frenz lar, just normal frenz.
He cannot continue study.. then cannot lorh, so why the fuck I need to be sad about it?
Ok.
So when I see he finally make clear of shits and post it in facebook.
I'm trying to joke around with my frenz and told him let's sing a song for him.
"Goodbye my love..~ wo di ai ren..~ zai jian..~"
and you know what my frenz reply me?
When I heard this reply oo... I was kinda shocked, kinda FUCKING SHOCKED.
He answer me... "How come you seems to be very happy when you see he posting that shoutout?"
I was like...what the fuck?
Like I said just now.. me and him.. we don't have a strong bond, and I believe he don't appreciate me better also. because some shits happen before lar. small matter to him but big matter to me and I just too lazy to take it out and argue with him.
Sometimes arh...my sohai roommate oo.. talk without using brain one..
I admit I also brainless most of the time larh, I know you all so MATURED ma.
Always neglect me like a tao gei.
but my roommate o.. just to based on the case above lar.
When I hurt myself or die or whatever unlucky shit happen, he stand behind and laugh like a shittard. and never try to help, ya it sucks. and he thinks that, "It's none of my business"
HAH, GOOD ONE.
Even if it's none of your business.. also don't laugh in front of me lorh,
and never laugh behind my back.
You see ar.. everytime he diuz about my attitude o.. he most of the time also accidently doing it.
aihz.. human are really a stupid kind, they never do what they told.
Shit face roommate. and always trying to act pro. not to say act pro larh.
but he never trust me on something I'm certain.
and he never trust me on something that I dunno.
hoho i've got alot to tell now, and the fucktard is sleeping beside me.
So like.. for example.
I know about.. slightly lar, slightly know about networking data or stuff like that.
and then oo... everytime I get connected to the internet I'll automatically open a command prompt and ping the internet data transfer rate one ma.. to see and observe whether there's anything wrong about the house networking lar. you know lar, some biatches and fuckers like to complain and show some fuck face when they can't connect and play their facebook games.
and then oooh.. you know what my sohai roommate say arh?
"Yerrr what is that, you open that to snatch the speed arh?! no wonder you so smooth and fast lar..!!" LOL WHAT THE FUCK?! YOU MOTHERFUCKED RETARDED?!!!
and after that I tried to explain lar.. since he told me he never know about it.
and guess what, the next day he tells everyone about that and say I'm trying to snatch the fucking line. HOLYSHIT WEIII.. MY NAME ALREADY SO FUCKING BUSUK YOU STILL WANNA POUR WHAT ON IT? CHEMICAL ACID...?! WHAT.. YOU'RE TRYING TO RUIN MY NAME OR WHAT..? ALREADY BUSUK LIAO STILL DUN WANNA LET ME GO MEH.
ok another case.
one day he come and ask me about... some english stuff. or some other stuff.
and then i tell him i dunno ma, and i ask him to google lorh.
and you know what? he show me the fuck face.
like i know and i never wanted to tell him. MAHAI.
YOU THOUGHT I'M WHAT, WIKIPEDIA?
GOOGLE SO GENG JUST GO GOOGLE EVERY QUESTION YOU WANNA ASK LAR MACHIBAI.
EVERYTIME ASK YOU GOOGLE YOURSELF ALSO TAK MAO LISTEN. KIMAK LU.
and another case.. holyshit all these shit cases.
one day i see he making mistake, a very common mistake that i've been through before and i tell him. I TELL HIM POLITELY.
"oi, dun do that lar, cannot one, because o.. blablabla.. so it'll end up like that"
he give me a fuck face.. and then he turn his fucking head away and said.
"I don't believe it" and oops, he did it again~
"Hah, told you."
and again the fuck face he show me, some more use some stupid weird accent and say
"Ouuh Sssorry." mahai.. langsung tak de respect. like i need your apologize.
and this fucktard is a total asshole. not to say he look like a canned abalone lar.
but he act like one.
HE WILL ALWAYS HELP GIRLS.
i dunno why.
but he does
ALWAYS HELP GIRLS.
and GIRLS ALWAYS ASK FOR HIS HELP.
i dunno why too.
but he helped the guys too..
ONLY CERTAIN GUYS.
HE WILL ALWAYS HELP CERTAIN GUYS.
i dunno why, again.
and CERTAIN GUYS NEVER FIND HIS HELP.
this one i guess i know why.
and guess what?
he never help me. =(
every help i asked it's like i sending my request to government and once it sent, it never return and never reply.
how motherfucked is that?
做roommate做到酱死人样，还有什么意思？
平时跟你谈两句话就将我幼稚。你又何尝不是？
是啦，我回家是因为我要跟家人伸手讨钱，你就是回家尽你的lanjiao孝道！
是啦，房间我没扫过，是你扫罢了，功劳全归你！
是啦，我很不man，也不gentlemen，你最棒，你最好，你简直是女人心中的英雄！
给你讲对全部东西了啦，开心没？
给你讲中啦，我在幸灾乐祸，你满意没？
跌倒还要被你踩几脚，你爽了没？
是不是要让你看到我彻底毁灭了你才高兴？
是不是要让你看到我登逝世启示你才快乐？
滚，滚回家，用尽一生去干你的lanjiao事情！
你什么理由也不用说了，以后放飞机也不用道歉！
因为我都知道，你一定是回家尽你的孝道，孝顺父母爱护家人，很伟大兼高耸的责任来的！
Friday, November 20, 2009
Aihz, another emo post here liao larh.
Firstly I wanna congrats to a bitch that juz lost 2 rabbits in a row.
I mean her rabbits dead in a day, if i'm correct.
Hahahaha guess I'm really evil in some ways.
It's not that I hate her rabbits, but I hate her.
But anyway that doesn't matter now, she's not even in my interest list also lol.
Oh, let me start to work on my story here first.
I'm so glad that no one knows my blog ( i guess? )
in that case I can blog alot of stuff about other people that i hate or dislike.
Sighs, sometimes I guess friendship are really hard to maintain,
or even to find one, don't you think? maybe not you, but for me, yes.
Few days ago me and my frenz, were playing this online game,
Ragnarok Online, sounds familiar anyone? yeah that was a hell of a game.
We love the game, but we hate the system, so I go and find a dirtier server.
Not to say dirtier, that's a more exciting private server.
but why private server? because the experience rates is so... so... err, irresistable..!!
but still, everything seems to be very balance to me. for a private server.
so, i find and downloaded it, and i tried it.
of course, my frenz would love to play it, but i can't give it to him because of some small problem about file transferring.
so.. so i guess i play alone first lorh, until my frenz gimme back my pendrive.
but then after that i came back and then he suddenly told me.
they dun wanna play with that private server already, they're playing the actual server.
suddenly i was like, what the fuck? you kiddin' me?
then what for i search for the private server? my godness, waste my fucking shit ass time to find and download for you all.
but what i really afraid is, i scared that, i'll miss out alot of fun playing with them.
i dun wanna play that stupid noob freakin' server already, the rate is so lowwwww.
SUPER DUPERLY LOWWWWWWWWW THAT TYPE.
sighs, never mind larh, like i told myself.
i play myself, just for fun larh. because i'm not really that into online games.
but i'll certainly spend alot of time on this one, RAGNAROK ONLINE OWNED!!!
**********************************************************************
aihz, about the pendrive stuff.
my sohai frenz, also very sohai one.
he never EVER take care of stuff around him.
he lost his phone before.
he lost his wallet before.
he lost his pendrive before.
and he lost my pendrive.
HE NEVER KEPT ANYTHING. LOL.
OMIGOD HOW COULD THIS FELLA CAN BE SO STUPID?!
hopefully he can buy me back my pendrive...
because i need it urgently.
and if i got the cash, i'm going to get another new hard disk also.
the old one cannot use d, fuck. 200 dollars lari.
let see.. the 200 hundred dollars credit is.. like.. spent 2 years ago.
and 2 years ago the value it's like.. 250. FUCK!!!!!!
**********************************
I had a weird dream this morning.
not to say weird, but a dream about my family.
for the very first time, i dreamt about them, with lots of hearts.
I saw them, going somewhere. seperated with my brother and sister.
I feel so sad. because I've got so much to tell and do to them.
Then my brother and sister, left as well, I felt so depressing.
Deep down in my heart, I'm crying out very loud, screaming for love.
I walked, and walked, and walked. Finally I found a trace of theirs.
I walked through the path. and I saw my parents, my siblings.
Gather at a spot, it seems like they're waiting for me.
I reunite with them. I smiled, and I laughed.
My family members are very happy. Surroundings are turning warm.
It seems like the indulgence of love is the source of the incredible.
I turned my head, I saw my parents.
I thought they're gone forever, but they're not.
I ran to them. I hug them tight, real tight.
I cried. I cried out of joy. I cried because I love them.
Because I can't afford to lose them in a second.
We spent alot of time together, doing nothing, chit-chatting.
and then, my parents is leaving us.
I dunno why, but their feets are moving, taking steps away from me, from us.
But they looked back, giving the smile that I've never felt so comfortable before.
and then...
I wake up. My hearts are sore, but the feeling is very complicated.
I can't tell, whether it's sad or happy. I just have the feeling.
That I've cried for quite some time.
I think the dream.. is trying to deliver a message to me.
But it'll never be revealed, not until the day I grown up as a true man.
Once again, I love, my family.
Cheers.
************************************************
I guess thats all for today. =P
Firstly I wanna congrats to a bitch that juz lost 2 rabbits in a row.
I mean her rabbits dead in a day, if i'm correct.
Hahahaha guess I'm really evil in some ways.
It's not that I hate her rabbits, but I hate her.
But anyway that doesn't matter now, she's not even in my interest list also lol.
Oh, let me start to work on my story here first.
I'm so glad that no one knows my blog ( i guess? )
in that case I can blog alot of stuff about other people that i hate or dislike.
Sighs, sometimes I guess friendship are really hard to maintain,
or even to find one, don't you think? maybe not you, but for me, yes.
Few days ago me and my frenz, were playing this online game,
Ragnarok Online, sounds familiar anyone? yeah that was a hell of a game.
We love the game, but we hate the system, so I go and find a dirtier server.
Not to say dirtier, that's a more exciting private server.
but why private server? because the experience rates is so... so... err, irresistable..!!
but still, everything seems to be very balance to me. for a private server.
so, i find and downloaded it, and i tried it.
of course, my frenz would love to play it, but i can't give it to him because of some small problem about file transferring.
so.. so i guess i play alone first lorh, until my frenz gimme back my pendrive.
but then after that i came back and then he suddenly told me.
they dun wanna play with that private server already, they're playing the actual server.
suddenly i was like, what the fuck? you kiddin' me?
then what for i search for the private server? my godness, waste my fucking shit ass time to find and download for you all.
but what i really afraid is, i scared that, i'll miss out alot of fun playing with them.
i dun wanna play that stupid noob freakin' server already, the rate is so lowwwww.
SUPER DUPERLY LOWWWWWWWWW THAT TYPE.
sighs, never mind larh, like i told myself.
i play myself, just for fun larh. because i'm not really that into online games.
but i'll certainly spend alot of time on this one, RAGNAROK ONLINE OWNED!!!
**********************************************************************
aihz, about the pendrive stuff.
my sohai frenz, also very sohai one.
he never EVER take care of stuff around him.
he lost his phone before.
he lost his wallet before.
he lost his pendrive before.
and he lost my pendrive.
HE NEVER KEPT ANYTHING. LOL.
OMIGOD HOW COULD THIS FELLA CAN BE SO STUPID?!
hopefully he can buy me back my pendrive...
because i need it urgently.
and if i got the cash, i'm going to get another new hard disk also.
the old one cannot use d, fuck. 200 dollars lari.
let see.. the 200 hundred dollars credit is.. like.. spent 2 years ago.
and 2 years ago the value it's like.. 250. FUCK!!!!!!
**********************************
I had a weird dream this morning.
not to say weird, but a dream about my family.
for the very first time, i dreamt about them, with lots of hearts.
I saw them, going somewhere. seperated with my brother and sister.
I feel so sad. because I've got so much to tell and do to them.
Then my brother and sister, left as well, I felt so depressing.
Deep down in my heart, I'm crying out very loud, screaming for love.
I walked, and walked, and walked. Finally I found a trace of theirs.
I walked through the path. and I saw my parents, my siblings.
Gather at a spot, it seems like they're waiting for me.
I reunite with them. I smiled, and I laughed.
My family members are very happy. Surroundings are turning warm.
It seems like the indulgence of love is the source of the incredible.
I turned my head, I saw my parents.
I thought they're gone forever, but they're not.
I ran to them. I hug them tight, real tight.
I cried. I cried out of joy. I cried because I love them.
Because I can't afford to lose them in a second.
We spent alot of time together, doing nothing, chit-chatting.
and then, my parents is leaving us.
I dunno why, but their feets are moving, taking steps away from me, from us.
But they looked back, giving the smile that I've never felt so comfortable before.
and then...
I wake up. My hearts are sore, but the feeling is very complicated.
I can't tell, whether it's sad or happy. I just have the feeling.
That I've cried for quite some time.
I think the dream.. is trying to deliver a message to me.
But it'll never be revealed, not until the day I grown up as a true man.
Once again, I love, my family.
Cheers.
************************************************
I guess thats all for today. =P
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Shits.
It seems like no one has found my blog. hoho.
Should I be happy or not? Heh, I guess I should be happy.
Life's been sucks.
No money. No pussies. No plans.
Garrrhh. Assignments been piling up like shits.
Going to become a trash mountain. Even Apollo11 also cannot reach that type.
Few days ago, my friend, DRIVE ALL THE WAY DOWN FROM PJ TO SERDANG.
come and find me. *yo, i emphasize your hardwork ok* says he miss me alot.
Yeah, I miss him too. Not to say I'm a fucking gay lar, but as a friend.
It has been quite a long time that we never meet each other already.
Hah, so that's it. He came and we hang out, to the basketball court.
Like what we used to during the weekends. Everything was cool though.
Nothing interesting to report =( my goodness, I think my blogging style ada siu siu problem d.
Everyone is writing like their own diary but I think I'm writing it like a damn fucked report shit man.
Just reporting the life I am lol. =(
Anyway this post suppose to be done in last few days, but I postponed it for unknown reason.
Please, don't ask. Because I can't even think of any fucking reason for it.
"Owwhhh ya.. I'm sicked. Thats why.." This ain't gonna work if it weren't used for class studies. =.=
******************
Days been passing in real quick and slow pace, whether you like it or not.
and the weather it's like hell like that. It's freaking COLD.
I mean it's nice to have a cooooooooooooool weather, but certainly not cold.
I can't really stand coldness myself, I rather the weather become slightly hotter.
It makes me sweat and it makes me feel like drinking water all the time. which keeps me healthy...in some ways lol? Fuck it.
Freakin' ass.. assignments are trying to occupy my time space liao.
Gets me scary all the night and keeps me asleep all day long. Why?
"I'm doing assignment at home.." and "Diuz lorh, another day for gaming, shit, done no shit."
Understand? or not, I don't fucking care. =P
Sighs. Sometimes it's sucks to being a smarter person.
I mean, not to say I'm very smart also. But when you're particularly good at some shit.
People just keep bugging you about it when it comes to a problem, you know?
Like...
...erm, see, every household, I mean student's hostel household has one nice rule for the house.
and thats
"No download that exceeding the limit of 10MB size are available before 12am, and that includes BT seeding down/upload, and PPStreaming."
Yeah, me myself set this also in this house.
and... I actually broke it =P I mean, into half or pieces. Hah, for your info, I'm still downloading now. My goodness the speed is fucking slow, I mean I downloading it, earlier than my frenz but he already finish download and playing d. FUCK.
Ok back to the story. So now.. the line service has been very bad since last week, or I should say, since the raining season started.
As the PM says all the time lar, Malaysia boleh ma. Line also boleh lag till you can't even fall asleep because of not even a chance to post a goodbye message on facebook.
So, yeah, all I want to say is.
I'm not trying to say girls are stupid, but please, gain alittle bit more knowledge.
Just siu siu enough, know the major reason of something else, problems, questions.
Don't come to me with a fuck face when the line become so lag and point the fingers to me lar.
I feel so disrespect lerh, when you came and ask "Hey are you downloading" while I'm not!
I know I did something big shit mistakes thats why you people misunderstand me lar.
But come on lorh, trust me alittle bit won't takes away 20 years of your life right.
It could've been any other reason for the cause of lagging internet!
Already told you all a thousand times that I am so not involved in this shit but you guys still suspects me!
Not to say I'm so innocent lar, but come on, I've gave you all the permission and the explaination. I did what I can, and I fucking tried to fix it but hell, I'm not the technician of the broadband service ok, Even if you ask the fella to come and fix, he might just rape your pussy and even your ass, then he tell you "Owh tak boleh oh, kerana itu apa maintenance ini maintainence, patient sikit lar" 5 minutes later you're enjoying sex with him.
Sighs.
Sometimes it sucks to be a bad guy, even though I told myself if there's no one to be the badass, I'll become one.
Actually, sometimes I don't really mind being suspected, about this.
It's just that... show me alil bit of trust lar, give me more comfort ma.
I told you I'm not lying means I'm not lar. Don't go behind me and fucking stab me with your dick or shitheaded knife lar. Tellin' all the way from KL to your place.
My goodness.
Sighs, problems problems problems.
So.. what now? I've so much to write about now. hahahaha, guess it's kinda boring without pictures, I know.
But since no one else is reading the blog so... I just fuck it lar, not to say I wanna get some reputation in blogging or what-so-ever.
Maybe I should wrap up a summary about 2009, a year that I've been through with my last teenage. T^T byebye sweet teenages.
So.. yeah, it's been another fucked year of life. Friendship come and go. Money come and go. Even the cpu come and go also. Nothing really stays with me this whole year, oh, my wallet and my phone?
-it's been great before the last time that particular fella says "We are no longer friends anymore!" Why? Heh, 'cause everyone likes him and everyone is attending his plan everytime he planned something.
Yeah, I like to being a part of it, socializing life! Even though I might not be able to talk alot with new people out there, but still, it's better to stay in front of my monitor all day long right? Hangin' out, crazy out there it's just the greatest spice ever to spice up your life!!
Owwhhhh I miss the time when we all hang out together. hahahaha. It's nice to have that as a memory, but... maybe I'm not grateful enough, it's just appear to be so short for me. It's only been half a year or lesser.. sighs. Too bad, maybe I've made a mistake, but I think that mistake saved my dad 6000 of cash, so... life's a choice, you make it, or you miss it.
-hmmmmm...love life. oops, no, relationships. hah, to describe it as a love life it's just so inappropriate for me, now. Well I guess I didn't really have the guts to tackle girls now. Girls nowadays are hard to entertain if you weren't one of the riches. I mean, yeah, you need alot of money to get a girl to stick with your life, investing relationships. Bullshits enough.
Just can't really find one suitable for me. and... yeah, it's already been 19 years.
Girls, never like me. I mean its sad to tell but it's a cruel fact and I have to accept it in several ways. Not to say I'm giving up, it's just that.. I don't see I have a problem, but people think I have a problem, thats why. and... that's what makes the socializing process become harder.
You know, sometimes it's just so unfair, that the girls would like to share their topics to another guy that they've just met, volunteered and automatically. But that just never happened on me, why? I don't understand. Yeah when I asks, they say
"You boys should open a topic ma, it's your job when you're trying to get girls, or else girl think you're super boring..!!"
but the fact is, it's not the way it should work..
See, this is what people said to me, always, and I dunno whether it's a joke or a bad joke.
"Face problem lorh, you so ugly, of course people don't want you ma"
FUCK YOU LARH. I MIGHT NOT THE HANDSOME ONE BUT I'M CERTAINLY NOT THE UGLIEST ONE. HELL DON'T CATEGORIZE ME INTO THE UGLY GROUP OK.
sighs, there's alot of issues need to be taken care of when it comes to relationships.
People hate your attitude people hate your background people hate your face looking, so?
I don't think I can't live without pussy, for worst it's just that I might live as a virgin for life.
As long as I be able to ejaculate.. i guess thats not a big deal for me, though.
"What a hero."
-for so many times I thought I might have chances to, you know, talk with the girls and grow bridges between us. Not to say I want that girl to be my girl lar, but just become friends. The type that can share among and hang out together and talk, socialize. But...they don't really give chances...it's just simply because they think they've met the better one. so many reasons i can think out of it in my head right now. sometimes frenz also the fucking reason of it.
for example, like when we hang out with the girls, i talk to the boys, trying to have some funny topics, but they just kinda ignore me, like, because there's girls around us, they cannot have some craziest illegal excitement. Not to say to be the craziest one lar, but still stupid enough to have some happiness ma. To me, it looks like that. But they, they think I'm an idiot, and they walk away and act cool. so... yeah, sometimes it's kinda hurt, when you know frenz are all applying the facts "Ho's before the bros".
Damn, I feel so fucking sad right now. Screw you guys.
For so many years, I think I've lost the confidence on socializing with the others.
To tell you guys a truth, I was trying alittle too hard during the masquerade night.
I was scared. I don't know how to talk with people. I have to fake stuff and make stuff.
and I feel bad for that. I feel so sorry to myself, and to the girls that think that I'm so annoying.
BIG SIGHS. Is there anyone... can really, understand this? ...I'm really... sad to being alone all the time. even if... I've always told myself... it's ok.. to be alone...
I think i'm gonna cry in any minute now.
sighs.. as always i've so much to tell but i just have to pack everything up.
and... its too many liao. so.. i guess this is it.
*phew, what a long post.
Bye, no one.
Should I be happy or not? Heh, I guess I should be happy.
Life's been sucks.
No money. No pussies. No plans.
Garrrhh. Assignments been piling up like shits.
Going to become a trash mountain. Even Apollo11 also cannot reach that type.
Few days ago, my friend, DRIVE ALL THE WAY DOWN FROM PJ TO SERDANG.
come and find me. *yo, i emphasize your hardwork ok* says he miss me alot.
Yeah, I miss him too. Not to say I'm a fucking gay lar, but as a friend.
It has been quite a long time that we never meet each other already.
Hah, so that's it. He came and we hang out, to the basketball court.
Like what we used to during the weekends. Everything was cool though.
Nothing interesting to report =( my goodness, I think my blogging style ada siu siu problem d.
Everyone is writing like their own diary but I think I'm writing it like a damn fucked report shit man.
Just reporting the life I am lol. =(
Anyway this post suppose to be done in last few days, but I postponed it for unknown reason.
Please, don't ask. Because I can't even think of any fucking reason for it.
"Owwhhh ya.. I'm sicked. Thats why.." This ain't gonna work if it weren't used for class studies. =.=
******************
Days been passing in real quick and slow pace, whether you like it or not.
and the weather it's like hell like that. It's freaking COLD.
I mean it's nice to have a cooooooooooooool weather, but certainly not cold.
I can't really stand coldness myself, I rather the weather become slightly hotter.
It makes me sweat and it makes me feel like drinking water all the time. which keeps me healthy...in some ways lol? Fuck it.
Freakin' ass.. assignments are trying to occupy my time space liao.
Gets me scary all the night and keeps me asleep all day long. Why?
"I'm doing assignment at home.." and "Diuz lorh, another day for gaming, shit, done no shit."
Understand? or not, I don't fucking care. =P
Sighs. Sometimes it's sucks to being a smarter person.
I mean, not to say I'm very smart also. But when you're particularly good at some shit.
People just keep bugging you about it when it comes to a problem, you know?
Like...
...erm, see, every household, I mean student's hostel household has one nice rule for the house.
and thats
"No download that exceeding the limit of 10MB size are available before 12am, and that includes BT seeding down/upload, and PPStreaming."
Yeah, me myself set this also in this house.
and... I actually broke it =P I mean, into half or pieces. Hah, for your info, I'm still downloading now. My goodness the speed is fucking slow, I mean I downloading it, earlier than my frenz but he already finish download and playing d. FUCK.
Ok back to the story. So now.. the line service has been very bad since last week, or I should say, since the raining season started.
As the PM says all the time lar, Malaysia boleh ma. Line also boleh lag till you can't even fall asleep because of not even a chance to post a goodbye message on facebook.
So, yeah, all I want to say is.
I'm not trying to say girls are stupid, but please, gain alittle bit more knowledge.
Just siu siu enough, know the major reason of something else, problems, questions.
Don't come to me with a fuck face when the line become so lag and point the fingers to me lar.
I feel so disrespect lerh, when you came and ask "Hey are you downloading" while I'm not!
I know I did something big shit mistakes thats why you people misunderstand me lar.
But come on lorh, trust me alittle bit won't takes away 20 years of your life right.
It could've been any other reason for the cause of lagging internet!
Already told you all a thousand times that I am so not involved in this shit but you guys still suspects me!
Not to say I'm so innocent lar, but come on, I've gave you all the permission and the explaination. I did what I can, and I fucking tried to fix it but hell, I'm not the technician of the broadband service ok, Even if you ask the fella to come and fix, he might just rape your pussy and even your ass, then he tell you "Owh tak boleh oh, kerana itu apa maintenance ini maintainence, patient sikit lar" 5 minutes later you're enjoying sex with him.
Sighs.
Sometimes it sucks to be a bad guy, even though I told myself if there's no one to be the badass, I'll become one.
Actually, sometimes I don't really mind being suspected, about this.
It's just that... show me alil bit of trust lar, give me more comfort ma.
I told you I'm not lying means I'm not lar. Don't go behind me and fucking stab me with your dick or shitheaded knife lar. Tellin' all the way from KL to your place.
My goodness.
Sighs, problems problems problems.
So.. what now? I've so much to write about now. hahahaha, guess it's kinda boring without pictures, I know.
But since no one else is reading the blog so... I just fuck it lar, not to say I wanna get some reputation in blogging or what-so-ever.
Maybe I should wrap up a summary about 2009, a year that I've been through with my last teenage. T^T byebye sweet teenages.
So.. yeah, it's been another fucked year of life. Friendship come and go. Money come and go. Even the cpu come and go also. Nothing really stays with me this whole year, oh, my wallet and my phone?
-it's been great before the last time that particular fella says "We are no longer friends anymore!" Why? Heh, 'cause everyone likes him and everyone is attending his plan everytime he planned something.
Yeah, I like to being a part of it, socializing life! Even though I might not be able to talk alot with new people out there, but still, it's better to stay in front of my monitor all day long right? Hangin' out, crazy out there it's just the greatest spice ever to spice up your life!!
Owwhhhh I miss the time when we all hang out together. hahahaha. It's nice to have that as a memory, but... maybe I'm not grateful enough, it's just appear to be so short for me. It's only been half a year or lesser.. sighs. Too bad, maybe I've made a mistake, but I think that mistake saved my dad 6000 of cash, so... life's a choice, you make it, or you miss it.
-hmmmmm...love life. oops, no, relationships. hah, to describe it as a love life it's just so inappropriate for me, now. Well I guess I didn't really have the guts to tackle girls now. Girls nowadays are hard to entertain if you weren't one of the riches. I mean, yeah, you need alot of money to get a girl to stick with your life, investing relationships. Bullshits enough.
Just can't really find one suitable for me. and... yeah, it's already been 19 years.
Girls, never like me. I mean its sad to tell but it's a cruel fact and I have to accept it in several ways. Not to say I'm giving up, it's just that.. I don't see I have a problem, but people think I have a problem, thats why. and... that's what makes the socializing process become harder.
You know, sometimes it's just so unfair, that the girls would like to share their topics to another guy that they've just met, volunteered and automatically. But that just never happened on me, why? I don't understand. Yeah when I asks, they say
"You boys should open a topic ma, it's your job when you're trying to get girls, or else girl think you're super boring..!!"
but the fact is, it's not the way it should work..
See, this is what people said to me, always, and I dunno whether it's a joke or a bad joke.
"Face problem lorh, you so ugly, of course people don't want you ma"
FUCK YOU LARH. I MIGHT NOT THE HANDSOME ONE BUT I'M CERTAINLY NOT THE UGLIEST ONE. HELL DON'T CATEGORIZE ME INTO THE UGLY GROUP OK.
sighs, there's alot of issues need to be taken care of when it comes to relationships.
People hate your attitude people hate your background people hate your face looking, so?
I don't think I can't live without pussy, for worst it's just that I might live as a virgin for life.
As long as I be able to ejaculate.. i guess thats not a big deal for me, though.
"What a hero."
-for so many times I thought I might have chances to, you know, talk with the girls and grow bridges between us. Not to say I want that girl to be my girl lar, but just become friends. The type that can share among and hang out together and talk, socialize. But...they don't really give chances...it's just simply because they think they've met the better one. so many reasons i can think out of it in my head right now. sometimes frenz also the fucking reason of it.
for example, like when we hang out with the girls, i talk to the boys, trying to have some funny topics, but they just kinda ignore me, like, because there's girls around us, they cannot have some craziest illegal excitement. Not to say to be the craziest one lar, but still stupid enough to have some happiness ma. To me, it looks like that. But they, they think I'm an idiot, and they walk away and act cool. so... yeah, sometimes it's kinda hurt, when you know frenz are all applying the facts "Ho's before the bros".
Damn, I feel so fucking sad right now. Screw you guys.
For so many years, I think I've lost the confidence on socializing with the others.
To tell you guys a truth, I was trying alittle too hard during the masquerade night.
I was scared. I don't know how to talk with people. I have to fake stuff and make stuff.
and I feel bad for that. I feel so sorry to myself, and to the girls that think that I'm so annoying.
BIG SIGHS. Is there anyone... can really, understand this? ...I'm really... sad to being alone all the time. even if... I've always told myself... it's ok.. to be alone...
I think i'm gonna cry in any minute now.
sighs.. as always i've so much to tell but i just have to pack everything up.
and... its too many liao. so.. i guess this is it.
*phew, what a long post.
Bye, no one.
Thursday, November 05, 2009
It's been sometimes since the day I've updated my blog.
It's 4.40am now and I'm still awake, or should I say... I'm awake??
Yeap, I sleep at about.. 10pm just now..thought I could get an 8 hours of sleep.
GAH, screw this theory. Schedule confused because of not waking up at 6.
Nothing hot happening recently, it's been a cool extra study semester.
Went to school, play at school, talk at school and shits at school.
My goodness. What a life. Oops, skip school too =). It's been a part of it, since I'm a student.
Probably there's someone asking, "Why do you sleep so early?"
(Probably no one asking... 'cause no one is reading it? hah)
"I sleep early simply because... there's nothing to do and I'm too bored of doing something else?"
Yeah thats probably a sucking answer but hell yeah, I'm suck, and I'm bored of shit.
So... bounce to the bed and get a beauty sleep is fair enough, right?
Anyway if I could, I wish I could sleep for like 16 hours today. Why?
It's very simple. There's no class tomorrow, and there's no plan tomorrow.
But hell, thursday got class, and hell I can't go back tomorrow.
SHIT RIGHT?? Guess I should ask my lecturer change his class to wednesday.
IF HE COULD. Then that's a perfect ending for everyone...hah!
It's damn sad that tomorrow everyone has at least plan while I'm not.
Simply because I cut connection with one particular fella.
Nah I'm not going to call him a motherfucker, 'cause its really a misunderstanding.. i should say.
Anyway it's sucks to talk about this right now.
It's like I'm gonna be a puss and try to say every good word of it to maintain and repair the relationship, please.. Don't make me a puss. Fuck it, duh.
Well... I think I'm gonna play some stupid game to kill my time until the breakfast call.
So long people.
It's 4.40am now and I'm still awake, or should I say... I'm awake??
Yeap, I sleep at about.. 10pm just now..thought I could get an 8 hours of sleep.
GAH, screw this theory. Schedule confused because of not waking up at 6.
Nothing hot happening recently, it's been a cool extra study semester.
Went to school, play at school, talk at school and shits at school.
My goodness. What a life. Oops, skip school too =). It's been a part of it, since I'm a student.
Probably there's someone asking, "Why do you sleep so early?"
(Probably no one asking... 'cause no one is reading it? hah)
"I sleep early simply because... there's nothing to do and I'm too bored of doing something else?"
Yeah thats probably a sucking answer but hell yeah, I'm suck, and I'm bored of shit.
So... bounce to the bed and get a beauty sleep is fair enough, right?
Anyway if I could, I wish I could sleep for like 16 hours today. Why?
It's very simple. There's no class tomorrow, and there's no plan tomorrow.
But hell, thursday got class, and hell I can't go back tomorrow.
SHIT RIGHT?? Guess I should ask my lecturer change his class to wednesday.
IF HE COULD. Then that's a perfect ending for everyone...hah!
It's damn sad that tomorrow everyone has at least plan while I'm not.
Simply because I cut connection with one particular fella.
Nah I'm not going to call him a motherfucker, 'cause its really a misunderstanding.. i should say.
Anyway it's sucks to talk about this right now.
It's like I'm gonna be a puss and try to say every good word of it to maintain and repair the relationship, please.. Don't make me a puss. Fuck it, duh.
Well... I think I'm gonna play some stupid game to kill my time until the breakfast call.
So long people.
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Failing wasn't cool, when you're actually have to pay for a few thousands for 6 months of it.
I feel so depressed now. I think I'm gonna die or what, whatever.
I thought everything will be okay. Things aren't going as planned.
Life's never fair right, you had your stuff but suddenly shits are all over your place.
Whats the issue here is, I'm might not be able to survive this semester.
Why? First because I passed my submission deadline.
The rendering speed is so damn slow. Everything is turning into the worst!!
Now I have to submit 2 assignments, and both are in progress zero.
I never thought shit could happen like that, but who else can I blame?
I know, in my heart, I'm the fucked-up fucker to be blame.
I played too much. I'm playing it cool, too cool.
All I did was open my mouth and talk, swear like a motherfucker.
See whats happening now? I'm late for submitting assignment, might not even have the chance o submit either..!
"I dun wanna be another 'senior'!!" I've been talking about this since 6 months ago.
My godness I was so fucking stupid.
and now what? I've became another 'senior' that juniors will always bear in mind that they never did well in their assignments.
I am so down now. I can't even think properly. I can't even talk properly.
I think I might puke or crying out loud now. For god sake..!
All I can think now is to pray hard, even though the possibilities aren't hot.
Hopefully.. I can pass this semester, just pass.
It's time to make a change, before it's too fucking late, for me.
Please. I need guidance.
I feel so depressed now. I think I'm gonna die or what, whatever.
I thought everything will be okay. Things aren't going as planned.
Life's never fair right, you had your stuff but suddenly shits are all over your place.
Whats the issue here is, I'm might not be able to survive this semester.
Why? First because I passed my submission deadline.
The rendering speed is so damn slow. Everything is turning into the worst!!
Now I have to submit 2 assignments, and both are in progress zero.
I never thought shit could happen like that, but who else can I blame?
I know, in my heart, I'm the fucked-up fucker to be blame.
I played too much. I'm playing it cool, too cool.
All I did was open my mouth and talk, swear like a motherfucker.
See whats happening now? I'm late for submitting assignment, might not even have the chance o submit either..!
"I dun wanna be another 'senior'!!" I've been talking about this since 6 months ago.
My godness I was so fucking stupid.
and now what? I've became another 'senior' that juniors will always bear in mind that they never did well in their assignments.
I am so down now. I can't even think properly. I can't even talk properly.
I think I might puke or crying out loud now. For god sake..!
All I can think now is to pray hard, even though the possibilities aren't hot.
Hopefully.. I can pass this semester, just pass.
It's time to make a change, before it's too fucking late, for me.
Please. I need guidance.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
"Sometimes...
I think, everything is so unfair to me.."
Why...?
"Because.. I've always wish for more, when someone is having more..
Thats why..."
Why do you want to wish for more..? Isn't that.. your life now is good...?
"No... I'm lonely... and, I was left aside, without being noticed...
I... I feel sad. I don't know who to talk with. I'm really... really.. really, sad."
Prologue.
The night was dead, a cold-hearted nightmare. Creatures lurking on the streets can hardly bundle up. The flames can barely lighten up this city of death silence. Everyone is rushing back to where they're from, just to grab a warmed alcohols, from the dirty slut they've been sex with for years, and to lie down on the worned sofa, watching the battles of snow flakes between human and mother nature.
This, is the City of Nieko. Where dreams, turn into nightmares.
In the dark corner, within the roots of all demons and fallen angels, lies an uncomfort bed of all sins... No sign of happiness... No sign of hope... No sign of proper souls... There lies a seed of Satan. Crawling.. Staring.. Howling.. alone to the sacred moon that turns red whenever there's bloods and flesh business clashing through every minutes.
She picked up the seed.. risking her own dirty, filthy yet such cleansed pure soul, to escort the baby to a safer place.. Dreaming, hoping, expecting the seed can be purify by the hands of angels.. Bring hope to the fallen dead, unrested hatreds..
5 months of running on a wounded feet. 20 weeks of hiding from the hand of satan's salvation. 140 days of cursed living.. The mother, has finally fallen. Leaving the seed of satan, on a holy forest.. Before her very last breath, she endures every curses in her body, used up all her power she could gather, she moved her cheeks.. to the baby. She hold onto his arm, singing the poems of Nieko. She kissed him, even though that would mean her seal of life. One kiss, an innocent, loving, caring kiss, has finally ended a life of a mother.
The seed, has not fail on his mother's expectation. He was then picked up by the cleansed soul of blades, a blademaster from the other side of Holy Gate. Looking through the fire burning eyes, filtering through the cursed yet so innocent life sign, the blademaster foresee a truth, unstable truth. He knows in it, he now will have a tough decision to be made.
"The Dream" ...or, "The Nightmare"
15 years passed, the seed has finally sprouted. Growing into a fine, strong, energetic young man. His name, is Ares. Named by his mother, caged in the steel of underworld.
His day has finally came... is it Redemption? or... pure Vengeance?
-*End of Prologue*-
I think, everything is so unfair to me.."
Why...?
"Because.. I've always wish for more, when someone is having more..
Thats why..."
Why do you want to wish for more..? Isn't that.. your life now is good...?
"No... I'm lonely... and, I was left aside, without being noticed...
I... I feel sad. I don't know who to talk with. I'm really... really.. really, sad."
Prologue.
The night was dead, a cold-hearted nightmare. Creatures lurking on the streets can hardly bundle up. The flames can barely lighten up this city of death silence. Everyone is rushing back to where they're from, just to grab a warmed alcohols, from the dirty slut they've been sex with for years, and to lie down on the worned sofa, watching the battles of snow flakes between human and mother nature.
This, is the City of Nieko. Where dreams, turn into nightmares.
In the dark corner, within the roots of all demons and fallen angels, lies an uncomfort bed of all sins... No sign of happiness... No sign of hope... No sign of proper souls... There lies a seed of Satan. Crawling.. Staring.. Howling.. alone to the sacred moon that turns red whenever there's bloods and flesh business clashing through every minutes.
She picked up the seed.. risking her own dirty, filthy yet such cleansed pure soul, to escort the baby to a safer place.. Dreaming, hoping, expecting the seed can be purify by the hands of angels.. Bring hope to the fallen dead, unrested hatreds..
5 months of running on a wounded feet. 20 weeks of hiding from the hand of satan's salvation. 140 days of cursed living.. The mother, has finally fallen. Leaving the seed of satan, on a holy forest.. Before her very last breath, she endures every curses in her body, used up all her power she could gather, she moved her cheeks.. to the baby. She hold onto his arm, singing the poems of Nieko. She kissed him, even though that would mean her seal of life. One kiss, an innocent, loving, caring kiss, has finally ended a life of a mother.
The seed, has not fail on his mother's expectation. He was then picked up by the cleansed soul of blades, a blademaster from the other side of Holy Gate. Looking through the fire burning eyes, filtering through the cursed yet so innocent life sign, the blademaster foresee a truth, unstable truth. He knows in it, he now will have a tough decision to be made.
"The Dream" ...or, "The Nightmare"
15 years passed, the seed has finally sprouted. Growing into a fine, strong, energetic young man. His name, is Ares. Named by his mother, caged in the steel of underworld.
His day has finally came... is it Redemption? or... pure Vengeance?
-*End of Prologue*-
Monday, October 12, 2009
Confused Emotion.
I'm upset.
I'm jealous.
I'm sad.
I'm happy.
I'm calm.
I'm worried.
I'm bored.
I'm busying.
Who the fuck am I anyway?
Does anyone bother?
Who the fuck am I anyway?
Does anyone reply me?
Who the fuck am I anyway?
Does anyone know that I'm here?
Who am I?
Do I feel happy or sad?
Do I feel up or down?
Do I feel hot or cold?
I seriously got no idea about these questions.
I couldn't find the answer to fill in the blanks.
I couldn't find the path that leads to an end for the blanks.
I couldn't find a happy ending.
I couldn't find a proper ending.
I couldn't find... anything.
I've so many hatred in the deep of the heart.
I wish I have the power to consume everybody's darkness.
I wish to be the invincible villain, since no one think that I'm a hero.
I shall pierce through the heroes brains.
I shall consume their darkness and flood their heart.
I shall become the only one, in the world.
...Since...
There's no country for me.
What am I?
I'm jealous.
I'm sad.
I'm happy.
I'm calm.
I'm worried.
I'm bored.
I'm busying.
Who the fuck am I anyway?
Does anyone bother?
Who the fuck am I anyway?
Does anyone reply me?
Who the fuck am I anyway?
Does anyone know that I'm here?
Who am I?
Do I feel happy or sad?
Do I feel up or down?
Do I feel hot or cold?
I seriously got no idea about these questions.
I couldn't find the answer to fill in the blanks.
I couldn't find the path that leads to an end for the blanks.
I couldn't find a happy ending.
I couldn't find a proper ending.
I couldn't find... anything.
I've so many hatred in the deep of the heart.
I wish I have the power to consume everybody's darkness.
I wish to be the invincible villain, since no one think that I'm a hero.
I shall pierce through the heroes brains.
I shall consume their darkness and flood their heart.
I shall become the only one, in the world.
...Since...
There's no country for me.
What am I?
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Final Salute.
Thought about changing blog.
This is a very dangerous place.
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Went for the "Masquerade Dating" Event last night. Held by Mass-Com seniors.
Yeah... the word "Dating" sounds stupid right? Who will ever think of come and get a date for themselves? Not the girls I'm sure, some of the boys might have a thought like that.
Yeah, and I guess that's me. hehe.
Hmmph, well the party was a... well, normal. Yeah, it's normal, and it doesn't seems like a dating event, it's a party. A party for friends to join, instead of bachelors and single ladies.
Girls are pretty that night.
Boys are handsome that night. MOST of them were.
Lol.. I'm thinking for like 10 minutes but still got no idea how to continue the story of last night.
It was rather more disappointing, because I expected a little bit more... western-romantic?
They got no couple dancing session.. They got no table for two.. They got no proper meal for hungry people like me.. Ya lorh, just like I said just now, it's a party. It's not even a themed event.
People aren't really hanging along in the party, most of them are hanging with their groups. I might be wrong, but I think most of the people there didn't really.. play the rules. They just do what they've been told. Well I think i'm one of them too. and the meeting partner session is like... eating sushi? The boys are like the sushis on the kaiten belt, and then we change seats every 30 seconds, clockwise. Then the gurlz are the customers, come to taste the food on the belt, you don't like it, you puke and you complain about it. What are we doing in the 30 seconds? Talk rubbish. Noo no no, we aren't talking rubbish. We're answering questions for like 30 times?
Example:
-Hey are you dasein student?
yeah.
-Hey what batch are you?
081.
-Hey where you from?
I'm local.
I've almost telling the same answer for like... yeah, its about that, 30 times.
IT'S JUST PLAIN BORING. sicked ~.~
I'll rate it 7 out of 10. At least we're somehow not so bored in the 4 hours.
Anyway I'm not going to thank the organizer though, i think they received enough of appreciation in other ways. Especially Facebook. cheers to facebook eh?
oh, and I got a gurl's cell number, but I guess her number will soon disappear in my contact.
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So, why deleting a pretty babe number? Yeah, did you see what I just call her?
PRETTY. BABE.
As you can see, pretty babe are most likely the most happening being on Earth.
Which means, she doesn't live my life, and I don't live her life as well.
So, more to say, she got tons of plans and friends to hang out with, why bother a retard like me?
I guess readers(if there are) will strongly agree to me if they know who am I.
Aihz. Byebye sweet 19, I'm going to celebrate 20th single anniversary d.
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Why, not having a gurlfrenz? for 19 years? I think some people might wanna ask. MIGHT LAR.
First... I want pretty girls. I'm a very.. materialistic? guy. I don't want any other gurls that break my principles to be my gurlfrenz, or some even to be my friend. So yeah, that's how it is.
Second... So many babes out there why not even one? Let me straighten about the facts, THEY ARE NOT AS PRETTY AS YOU THINK. At least I think that way. They wear make-up. They wear HEAVY make-up. Which makes me wanna puke everytime I see that fake eye-lashes, drawn eyebrow, enlarge eyeballs(ew...), heavy heavy plus super duper mega bummer heavy smokey eyes colouring. I am so going to puke if I continue about this. I know lar, girls cannot see people without makeup, but don't wear heavy makeup lar, last night I thought I was going to be eaten by those watery juicy fake big eyeballs you know. Damn scary one.
Third... I need them to be good, at least for what I can accept.
Fourth... I have a really low self-esteem. I guess my life cause me that shit ass attitude.
Fifth... No one is perfect. Understand?
Sixth... I have too many negative attitude issues spreading out there, and I don't really think those are rumors, hah, It's a fact then.
hmmmm... I guess that's about it. Oh, one more.
Seventh... I don't desperate. I jealous. I'm thirst. But I don't desperate. Maybe I know that girls don't really wanna friend with me, or even come near me and say "Hi". OOwhh, so gonna cry after this.
"Sendiri pun belum settle dah nak settle satu gurlfren? Mimpa je larh tuk"
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Humiliated in the party. BIG HUMILIATE.
a very big one... big.. bigg... sighs.
Why?
First case, when we're having the.. knowing partner session. I was 'confronting' with this gurl, and we're suppose to have a talk. JUST BOTH OF US, at least I suppose that's what we're suppose to do. but then when the host came, the gurl just take her eyes off me and talk to the host. UNTIL THE TIME FINISH. It's not like the host wanted to talk with her, but she, herself, stall the host there. Well nice play girl, you've successfully dissed me. and pissed me off.
Hello, respect please? I'm not invisible. I'm just in front of you. What's the big deal about talking with me? At least respect alittle bit larh... I'm sick of this girl.
Oh ya, she's the girl I've mentioned just now, that have a big juicy watery scary fake eyes that wanted to swallow me alive.
big SIGHS.
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I have so many thoughts in my head now. Which I can't really interpret it properly.
I guess, at the end, I should've take all the blame. At least I'll make the others feel comfortable that way.
This is the judgement that I couldn't resist. It's like a drug, it makes me high. It builds me.
This is a very dangerous place.
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Went for the "Masquerade Dating" Event last night. Held by Mass-Com seniors.
Yeah... the word "Dating" sounds stupid right? Who will ever think of come and get a date for themselves? Not the girls I'm sure, some of the boys might have a thought like that.
Yeah, and I guess that's me. hehe.
Hmmph, well the party was a... well, normal. Yeah, it's normal, and it doesn't seems like a dating event, it's a party. A party for friends to join, instead of bachelors and single ladies.
Girls are pretty that night.
Boys are handsome that night. MOST of them were.
Lol.. I'm thinking for like 10 minutes but still got no idea how to continue the story of last night.
It was rather more disappointing, because I expected a little bit more... western-romantic?
They got no couple dancing session.. They got no table for two.. They got no proper meal for hungry people like me.. Ya lorh, just like I said just now, it's a party. It's not even a themed event.
People aren't really hanging along in the party, most of them are hanging with their groups. I might be wrong, but I think most of the people there didn't really.. play the rules. They just do what they've been told. Well I think i'm one of them too. and the meeting partner session is like... eating sushi? The boys are like the sushis on the kaiten belt, and then we change seats every 30 seconds, clockwise. Then the gurlz are the customers, come to taste the food on the belt, you don't like it, you puke and you complain about it. What are we doing in the 30 seconds? Talk rubbish. Noo no no, we aren't talking rubbish. We're answering questions for like 30 times?
Example:
-Hey are you dasein student?
yeah.
-Hey what batch are you?
081.
-Hey where you from?
I'm local.
I've almost telling the same answer for like... yeah, its about that, 30 times.
IT'S JUST PLAIN BORING. sicked ~.~
I'll rate it 7 out of 10. At least we're somehow not so bored in the 4 hours.
Anyway I'm not going to thank the organizer though, i think they received enough of appreciation in other ways. Especially Facebook. cheers to facebook eh?
oh, and I got a gurl's cell number, but I guess her number will soon disappear in my contact.
****************
So, why deleting a pretty babe number? Yeah, did you see what I just call her?
PRETTY. BABE.
As you can see, pretty babe are most likely the most happening being on Earth.
Which means, she doesn't live my life, and I don't live her life as well.
So, more to say, she got tons of plans and friends to hang out with, why bother a retard like me?
I guess readers(if there are) will strongly agree to me if they know who am I.
Aihz. Byebye sweet 19, I'm going to celebrate 20th single anniversary d.
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Why, not having a gurlfrenz? for 19 years? I think some people might wanna ask. MIGHT LAR.
First... I want pretty girls. I'm a very.. materialistic? guy. I don't want any other gurls that break my principles to be my gurlfrenz, or some even to be my friend. So yeah, that's how it is.
Second... So many babes out there why not even one? Let me straighten about the facts, THEY ARE NOT AS PRETTY AS YOU THINK. At least I think that way. They wear make-up. They wear HEAVY make-up. Which makes me wanna puke everytime I see that fake eye-lashes, drawn eyebrow, enlarge eyeballs(ew...), heavy heavy plus super duper mega bummer heavy smokey eyes colouring. I am so going to puke if I continue about this. I know lar, girls cannot see people without makeup, but don't wear heavy makeup lar, last night I thought I was going to be eaten by those watery juicy fake big eyeballs you know. Damn scary one.
Third... I need them to be good, at least for what I can accept.
Fourth... I have a really low self-esteem. I guess my life cause me that shit ass attitude.
Fifth... No one is perfect. Understand?
Sixth... I have too many negative attitude issues spreading out there, and I don't really think those are rumors, hah, It's a fact then.
hmmmm... I guess that's about it. Oh, one more.
Seventh... I don't desperate. I jealous. I'm thirst. But I don't desperate. Maybe I know that girls don't really wanna friend with me, or even come near me and say "Hi". OOwhh, so gonna cry after this.
"Sendiri pun belum settle dah nak settle satu gurlfren? Mimpa je larh tuk"
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Humiliated in the party. BIG HUMILIATE.
a very big one... big.. bigg... sighs.
Why?
First case, when we're having the.. knowing partner session. I was 'confronting' with this gurl, and we're suppose to have a talk. JUST BOTH OF US, at least I suppose that's what we're suppose to do. but then when the host came, the gurl just take her eyes off me and talk to the host. UNTIL THE TIME FINISH. It's not like the host wanted to talk with her, but she, herself, stall the host there. Well nice play girl, you've successfully dissed me. and pissed me off.
Hello, respect please? I'm not invisible. I'm just in front of you. What's the big deal about talking with me? At least respect alittle bit larh... I'm sick of this girl.
Oh ya, she's the girl I've mentioned just now, that have a big juicy watery scary fake eyes that wanted to swallow me alive.
big SIGHS.
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I have so many thoughts in my head now. Which I can't really interpret it properly.
I guess, at the end, I should've take all the blame. At least I'll make the others feel comfortable that way.
This is the judgement that I couldn't resist. It's like a drug, it makes me high. It builds me.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Fuck You.
You know, I really hate to complain about stuff. But sometimes when I keep my mouth shut, people thought I'm stupid and worthless. So, fuck you you motherfuckers.
So why I'm swearing in here again? Actually to the others it's just no big deal, but to me, it's about my fucking pride shit and stuff. Being a man, respects are the most most most fucking most important stuff, there's no man out there could lay down their pride and live like a slave, NO FUCKED WAY.
Ok, so the story is... There was this day I'm facebooking as usual, and then suddenly the people keep on spamming about this.. "Who's your next love" application. It's fine and ok to me they play with it. and then, the application, randomly picked me, for this gurl. Sounds not so big deal right? Yeah, the real deal is the fucked up comments.
So why I'm swearing in here again? Actually to the others it's just no big deal, but to me, it's about my fucking pride shit and stuff. Being a man, respects are the most most most fucking most important stuff, there's no man out there could lay down their pride and live like a slave, NO FUCKED WAY.
Ok, so the story is... There was this day I'm facebooking as usual, and then suddenly the people keep on spamming about this.. "Who's your next love" application. It's fine and ok to me they play with it. and then, the application, randomly picked me, for this gurl. Sounds not so big deal right? Yeah, the real deal is the fucked up comments.
please just click the motherfucked picture to see the details lar A-hole.
You guys see the first comment, THE VERY FIRST ONE. Ya larh the name sounds funny but people like to act cute ma, fuck it only, see the comment.
See the word "OMG" (ou-em-ji, i scared the retards tak tao baca)
"OMG!!!!"
what the fuck is that? I mean, WHAT THE MOTHERFUCKED IS WRONG WITH THIS CUTIE-WANNABE?!! owwhhh my god. Owwwhhhh Maiiiiii Gawwwwd. I am so damn speechless when I saw this dick-sucker post the comment of "OMG!!!!". with 4 "!" FOUR. FUCKED FOUR.
Yeah, so like, what is wrong with you guys? I mean, GIRLS. Is it that I'm so worst in your heart or what the fuck ever filled in under your skin? Yeah I admit I'm ugly and stupid and whatever-bad-you-name-it-i-have-it. But keep it to yourself lorh, no need to be so fucking obvious ma, what are you trying to do?!!!
My available reaction when I read the comment is. "Oooowwhhh maaiii gaawd, what is the pussy thinking about arh? What, she's trying to humiliate me or what?" Aiiihhhzzz
FUCK YOU LAR MIKAPI, GO BACK IN YOUR POKEBALL AND PI YOURSELF WITH YOUR DICK-SUCKING MOUTH. DOGFUCKED CUTIE-WANNABE.
Oh, I guessed I just missed out my reason about this fucking noob-shit bitchlike complain.
Maybe some of you might get it(or might not? cause nobody reading it anyway, you read then shaddap lar faggot bitch).
Look, like what I just said, I so bad meh? I so fucking worst meh? I mean I'm literally bad in some ways, but if you dunno who I'm really are, then just shut the fuck up and suck your brothers' dick if you feel your mouth is itchy!! The point, show me and give me some respect lar. It's just this fucking simple, do me a favor, and respect me! It's not that I've fuck you, or your ma, or your grandma, or even your pikachu! I did nothing to you, so don't mess up with me ok you pussyfucked?
Come on gurls, don't take things as granted shit lar wei. You got pussy You got menstruation You give birth You being fucked You being anally fucked You being kissed that means you're the world of all?? PLEASE WAKE UP AND DON'T THINK THAT MEN SHOULD DO THIS AND THAT YOU BRAINLESS RETARDED FAGGOT BIATCHES.
-You got pussy, means you'll be fucked no matter what. So why blame the men, and live like a pure-sister wannabe? You get pussy for something, NOT NOTHING. If you scared that you'll fucked by some twilight werewolf wannabe(assume they're more colourful than it should be), then just cut off the part and leave a straw underneath your urinal hose or what I dunno lar.
-You got menstruation so what?!! You stomach-ache Your pussy pain You spilt blood You headache or what pain. SO?!!! YOU THINK MEN VERY HAPPY?! TRY TO BECOME A MEN AND SEE LAR. HAVE YOU EVER TRIED PRE-EJACULATION WHILE YOU'RE ASLEEP? DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING STRESSED IS THAT WHEN YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP 5.30 AND YOU SLEEP AT 1.30 LAST NIGHT AND YOU PRE-EJACULATE AT 4.30AM!!???
-You give birth and then?!! For the next of few months you sit at home and being feed like a pig and what do you expect? The men was out there selling their blood and tears for you and your baby. It's not just after you gave birth you know, it's been always like that. Just for you to relieve your stress while taking care the baby and rest like a pig. DON'T EVER TELL ME MEN SHOULD DO THIS OR I'LL BITCHSLAPPED THROUGH YOUR DAMN FAKE NOSE. Because this is not the way it should work. NO!!! We work hard for you because we love you, because we respect you, because we appreciate you. Please don't take these emotions and precious feeling as for granted, we are not your slave. Remember? We love you doesn't make you become a queen with a whip, we just volunteered our live to love and live you to the best. Please please please for god sake Don't ever take men's attitude for granted please.
-You being fucked/anally fucked, and then? Don't tell me you don't enjoy the progress. PLEASE LAR DON'T TELL ME THAT LAR, IT'S JUST OFFENDING THE LAW OF NATURE. YOU TELL ME THAT IN FRONT OF MY FACE I SWEAR TO GOD I'LL STUCK YOUR SHIT FACE FIT INTO YOUR A-HOLE. Please, don't always tell people that "Oh I'm very pure and I have my dignity so I won't bla bla.." Ya I know you have dignity, but please don't tell me when you choose to being fucked you yourself don't enjoy it. PLEASE DON'T BE SO FUCKING STUPID.
So....
Actually all I'm trying to say is...While the men respect you, so why don't you respect them back? So why look down on men that grow uglier than your pussy? So why look down on men that more stupid than your grandparents?
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heh, actually, I've always talking about female shits and stuff. It's always the same point. So like, they never... did like what I said. It's not like I want them to be, it's just, be a part of it. Maybe there's still much more outside, the better that I don't know them. Well I do hope they are some good one out there.
Oh lets come back, anyway I hate this MikaPi girl. Let's just say that she got this temper issues and anger management issues. Her limit is so damn fucking short and shallow, and.. she thought she pretty? Well I guess everyone thought they were pretty too, while they're actually not. Sorry pussies, but fuck you if you think you're so beautiful.
So like, I've been fucked by her, straight on my face. It's like taking bitchslap on each side of my cheek and another jab on my nose. It's not fake but people hate it.
So yeah, thats why I'm here to assfucked her.. smelly ass?? nah forget it, she doesn't worth for the fuck =P
Finally.
FUCK YOU LAR MIKAPI. PI-PI-PI-PI YOUR DOLLS WITH YOUR DICK-LESS PUSSY.
*guess I've made alot of enemies. but yeah, sorry but fuck you. It's up to me to be so chiaodish.*
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
It's holiday now and it's been already like.. for 2 weeks?? Yeah, 2 fucking weeks. So, let see what I've done in this 2 weeks.
-I visitted the cc and pawned some of the asses on the net. Oops, and got my ass pawned by some other A-hole on the net too, but of course lar, overall ratio of course is my winning rate bigger lor. lol.
-I went for karaoke session. EARLY IN THE MORNING. shit that's real sucks for teenagers like us. To me went for early bird session is like a typical dau kei style. =( i mean they really need to look after their wallet and that shit.
-I went to my art class and visit my teacher and friend. Yeah, friend. Went to his house and taught him something and he thank me like I'm his only saviour. Oh my god, what for man?
-Oh right, I've discovered my roommate's blog, and guess what? After I told him, he balik rumah and changed the link. Yeah, a total Asshole. But still that's his blog lar, respect man.
-Think and talked about alot of stupid issues.
-Ohhhh yeah, I visitted my secondary school teacher's house. She's having this, Hari Raya now. It's great to see her, and of course, the classmates too. But all of them are those I see more often than the others one larh, especially the boys =P. And I'm glad the gurlz came, hahahahaha, if not the whole situation sure damn boring without some pussies. Ya nahmean?
So... this is like a conclusion for the past 14 days I've been through. and it sucks, not productive at all. Oh, I've forgot one more thing.
-I've been gaming for like.. 14 days? =P Games are real addictive oh my god. Just can't live without it.
-And, just got a very terrible news, the cpu I bought that time is like.. 2700? and guess what, now it dropped till like.. 1800?? FUCK YOU.
-I'm addicted to karaoke. But I prefer visitting KTV rather than singing at home. I have the sets =P
-Steamboat please.
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yeah, this post is ridiculous and so improfessional. Sorry but fuck you. This is my place and you just shut the fuck up and read if you choose to read.
-I visitted the cc and pawned some of the asses on the net. Oops, and got my ass pawned by some other A-hole on the net too, but of course lar, overall ratio of course is my winning rate bigger lor. lol.
-I went for karaoke session. EARLY IN THE MORNING. shit that's real sucks for teenagers like us. To me went for early bird session is like a typical dau kei style. =( i mean they really need to look after their wallet and that shit.
-I went to my art class and visit my teacher and friend. Yeah, friend. Went to his house and taught him something and he thank me like I'm his only saviour. Oh my god, what for man?
-Oh right, I've discovered my roommate's blog, and guess what? After I told him, he balik rumah and changed the link. Yeah, a total Asshole. But still that's his blog lar, respect man.
-Think and talked about alot of stupid issues.
-Ohhhh yeah, I visitted my secondary school teacher's house. She's having this, Hari Raya now. It's great to see her, and of course, the classmates too. But all of them are those I see more often than the others one larh, especially the boys =P. And I'm glad the gurlz came, hahahahaha, if not the whole situation sure damn boring without some pussies. Ya nahmean?
So... this is like a conclusion for the past 14 days I've been through. and it sucks, not productive at all. Oh, I've forgot one more thing.
-I've been gaming for like.. 14 days? =P Games are real addictive oh my god. Just can't live without it.
-And, just got a very terrible news, the cpu I bought that time is like.. 2700? and guess what, now it dropped till like.. 1800?? FUCK YOU.
-I'm addicted to karaoke. But I prefer visitting KTV rather than singing at home. I have the sets =P
-Steamboat please.
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yeah, this post is ridiculous and so improfessional. Sorry but fuck you. This is my place and you just shut the fuck up and read if you choose to read.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Shorts.
.1
Just finish watching the MTV Video Music Award 2009.
and guess what? I never thought that Kanye West can be so fucking sohai lol.
He is no.1 in the men fashion list, he's hot and he's top in the hip-hop ranking.
but what the fuck? =.= I mean like, WHAT THE FUCK is he doing????
It's not like I like Taylor Swift alot, but come on larh, people ambik award jangan kacao sangat lorh.
Oh before I continue I better tell the story.
Yeah its like this, Taylor Swift got the "Best Female Video Award".
and, when she's about to show appreciation to people who contribute and dedicated that video.
Kanye West showed up! and he snatch the mic from Taylor Swift.
You heard me? SNATCH. fucking rudely SNATCH.
"Yo Taylor, I'm happy for you and I.. I.. I ma let you finish. But Beyonce has one of the best video of all time!! ONE OF THE BEST VIDEO OF ALL TIME!!"
"Yo Taylor, I'm happy for you and I.. I.. I ma let you finish. But Beyonce has one of the best video of all time!! ONE OF THE BEST VIDEO OF ALL TIME!!"
Ok this is what he said when Taylor got her award on stage.
What the motherfucked hell is this shit man?? I just dunno how to explain this sohai lol.
Anyway, Beyonce finally gets the "Best Music Video of the Year". =.= lol
and she give the chance to share the moment with Taylor, and Taylor finally.
FINALLY. Gives her speech on the stage.
World Peace yo.
.2
Oh and one more thing.
Whats wrong with Lady GaGa? Is she taking drugs or something?
Seriously aku tak tao. =(
She changed her costumes for like... 4 times in 2 hours awards?
and each costume, has it own "uniqueness".
FIRST COSTUME. it looks like a peacock costume to me, and when she wear, her neck langsung tak boleh twist one. stupid right? she can only extend her sighting range by turning the whole upper body. my godnesss... and she got a very outstanding mask, I want it. its nice =)
hi peacock. nice mask =).
SECOND COSTUME. yeah this looks alil bit more normal. its white and its like a laced-table cloth covering the top and one plastic panties. but what so unique about this, is that this costume, can spill blood from the breast LOL. ok larh maybe there's alil trick on that but i dunno =P.
woot? breastmilk become breast-blood?
THIRD COSTUME. I guess she changed after the performance. This costume, is full of red. In fact, its just consist of red only, Fresh RED. also another laced-table cloth covering the whole body lol. but this time. It cover the face. FACE COVERED AND I CAN HARDLY SEE THERE'S A HOLE FOR HER TO SEE. but she still managed to walk onto the stage and get the award without mistaken anybody LOL. Oh and she's wearing a red, ok, another RED again. A red Needle look hat. It looks totally, creepy. It's like she's going to pierce people into a sponge.
hey there nidorina.
here's the close-up of red nidorina, female, LVL100. gg.
FOURTH COSTUME. hmmpphh, I guess China gives
alot of inspiration on this one. In Precise, its the "Niao Cao"(bird nest) Stadium architect's work. Can get alil bit of the picture already? Yes, she wears a "Niao Cao" on her face. Not head, is FACE. yes, FACE. and a dog chain on her neck, guess she needs alil bit of drug, anger issues, sexuality, and all sorts of controls after all. =P
I wonder if someone could grow hair like this...
.3 its the 5th day and i didn't even start anything yet. shit.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Confused.
It's another Sunday and as always, I'm was left alone in the house. Yeap, again.
It's not like the whole house got no people, its just that I felt lonely, no one can talk to. no one can play with. no one to diuz with.
Surprisingly I've come back to KL at the early noon, my frenz felt surprised and shocked. I thought when I come back I could spend some time with them. Hehe, what a selfish thought. And what now? They left for a karaoke session and won't be back, well at least I guess thats probably not before dinner.
I feel like missing so many stuff in my life. and what does that mean? I don't FUCKING know. I am so confused right now, it's like thousands of mini-guns and bang bang inside my head crossing fires. I once thought that, I'll never regret for what I've chosen, thats why I hate complaining, and so many "thats why" I compiled inside my brain storage. But when I heard some other shocking news and surprises, I started to think twice. What Did I really Missed?
I think I can list it out, if I grouped all them together. and the top of the list is always the same thing I've been mentioned about it ever since I know how to differentiate the importance of it.
Yes, it's the Friendship.
I've done alot of thinking, in fact, trillions of thoughts about this issues. Just this PARTICULAR issues. and it cost me headaches all the time. I never found anything, because at the end, I'm taking the blame. The truth is, I can never blame them, I just dunno why, maybe its because so many people assuming I'm the bad guy. So, yeah, I take the blame and I shut up. I think, if I fight back, hmph, the relationship might gone worse. So, just let it be bad before it gone worst.
Just now I've been thinking, 3 years is such a short distance for a diploma student, yeah, it's really short and guess what? I've left one more year only, until I graduate. So how many chances that I can actually get an Ace for my study? 3 times, not more than that. and think back, for what I've done in my previous assignments, the jobs are sucks and, I'm worried about my portfolio. I am damn worried about it. I don't have any awards, I don't have any flying colour results, I don't have precious comments from lecturers, so what else do I have? Nothing, absolutely nothing. I wonder what if I end up like a loser? I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm jobless, even if I got a job, I'm afraid that place is wasting my time. Time flies, even faster than any formulas we can even come out with. Once it gone, it's gone.
Once again, today I'm confused. and the haze is coming back, fuck.
It's not like the whole house got no people, its just that I felt lonely, no one can talk to. no one can play with. no one to diuz with.
Surprisingly I've come back to KL at the early noon, my frenz felt surprised and shocked. I thought when I come back I could spend some time with them. Hehe, what a selfish thought. And what now? They left for a karaoke session and won't be back, well at least I guess thats probably not before dinner.
I feel like missing so many stuff in my life. and what does that mean? I don't FUCKING know. I am so confused right now, it's like thousands of mini-guns and bang bang inside my head crossing fires. I once thought that, I'll never regret for what I've chosen, thats why I hate complaining, and so many "thats why" I compiled inside my brain storage. But when I heard some other shocking news and surprises, I started to think twice. What Did I really Missed?
I think I can list it out, if I grouped all them together. and the top of the list is always the same thing I've been mentioned about it ever since I know how to differentiate the importance of it.
Yes, it's the Friendship.
I've done alot of thinking, in fact, trillions of thoughts about this issues. Just this PARTICULAR issues. and it cost me headaches all the time. I never found anything, because at the end, I'm taking the blame. The truth is, I can never blame them, I just dunno why, maybe its because so many people assuming I'm the bad guy. So, yeah, I take the blame and I shut up. I think, if I fight back, hmph, the relationship might gone worse. So, just let it be bad before it gone worst.
Just now I've been thinking, 3 years is such a short distance for a diploma student, yeah, it's really short and guess what? I've left one more year only, until I graduate. So how many chances that I can actually get an Ace for my study? 3 times, not more than that. and think back, for what I've done in my previous assignments, the jobs are sucks and, I'm worried about my portfolio. I am damn worried about it. I don't have any awards, I don't have any flying colour results, I don't have precious comments from lecturers, so what else do I have? Nothing, absolutely nothing. I wonder what if I end up like a loser? I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm jobless, even if I got a job, I'm afraid that place is wasting my time. Time flies, even faster than any formulas we can even come out with. Once it gone, it's gone.
Once again, today I'm confused. and the haze is coming back, fuck.
Sunday, September 06, 2009
Saturday, September 05, 2009
Dreamers.
It's 6.30am now, and yet I still didn't get on the bed.
For what?
Yeah, tomorrow is one of the big day for animation students.
Assignments submission date. It's like how students handle with their shitty exams, stay overnights for the last sprint, drink coffee like a hardcore, and carrying pressure like a fucking stressed pig munching food with its fucking mouth whole day long.
I drank some coffee too, but I guess it didn't really work well. Lol. To tell you the truth I'm a little sleepy now. Sleepy and Headache, the aching pain just stops me from being sleepy head. It's a true nightmate, when you're having headache and forced to listen to Lady Gaga's "Just Dance". "Just dance~ gonna be okay~~" Yeah I like the "gonna be okay" part, it's like comforting us that late submission will never happen. LOL, a very bad quote I know.
I've few issues bang into my head, during the break when I was having coffee with my roommate in 7-11. (yeah it's totally gay, 2 fellas went to 7-11 to keep themselves up.) It's no big deal about what happen there, or I should say, nothing happen at all. So it's like this, I saw this fella, he's buying some stuff, and he looks.. sorry man, but he looks alil bit like a loser. This particular scene and image has suddenly ring my bell, yeah, I've been wondering, do they ever have a dream?
It's no ordinary dream, it's some dream. Not just earn alot of money, but doing something meaningful that could've become their life biggest achievement. You know, sometimes it makes me feel sad to see people live without dream, it's very pathetic. You got no strong motivation to keep yourself moves on with life. Maybe I thought too much, but I just can't help it, I often look at people expression, I look through their images.
Also, having a dream doesn't mean it has to be big, ridiculous, or impossible either. It can be something very simple, real simple thing, like, happiness or what-so-ever you could call it as simple as you can. A small dream with big fulfilness and satisfaction, is always better than having nothing in your heart.
So people, lets start living up our dream, and don't make yourself regret. Because our life has no 2nd take, we don't have special effects, we are a nude and vulnerable kind. Shits might happen tomorrow, or the next moment you could live.
Cheers, to all the dreamers.
*****
For what?
Yeah, tomorrow is one of the big day for animation students.
Assignments submission date. It's like how students handle with their shitty exams, stay overnights for the last sprint, drink coffee like a hardcore, and carrying pressure like a fucking stressed pig munching food with its fucking mouth whole day long.
I drank some coffee too, but I guess it didn't really work well. Lol. To tell you the truth I'm a little sleepy now. Sleepy and Headache, the aching pain just stops me from being sleepy head. It's a true nightmate, when you're having headache and forced to listen to Lady Gaga's "Just Dance". "Just dance~ gonna be okay~~" Yeah I like the "gonna be okay" part, it's like comforting us that late submission will never happen. LOL, a very bad quote I know.
I've few issues bang into my head, during the break when I was having coffee with my roommate in 7-11. (yeah it's totally gay, 2 fellas went to 7-11 to keep themselves up.) It's no big deal about what happen there, or I should say, nothing happen at all. So it's like this, I saw this fella, he's buying some stuff, and he looks.. sorry man, but he looks alil bit like a loser. This particular scene and image has suddenly ring my bell, yeah, I've been wondering, do they ever have a dream?
It's no ordinary dream, it's some dream. Not just earn alot of money, but doing something meaningful that could've become their life biggest achievement. You know, sometimes it makes me feel sad to see people live without dream, it's very pathetic. You got no strong motivation to keep yourself moves on with life. Maybe I thought too much, but I just can't help it, I often look at people expression, I look through their images.
Also, having a dream doesn't mean it has to be big, ridiculous, or impossible either. It can be something very simple, real simple thing, like, happiness or what-so-ever you could call it as simple as you can. A small dream with big fulfilness and satisfaction, is always better than having nothing in your heart.
So people, lets start living up our dream, and don't make yourself regret. Because our life has no 2nd take, we don't have special effects, we are a nude and vulnerable kind. Shits might happen tomorrow, or the next moment you could live.
Cheers, to all the dreamers.
*****
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Malay Land BOLEH!!!
manhand - 慢游世界
Manhand - 咩人
Lastly, my personal favourite, dedicated to all the haters. Cheers.
Fuck You by Lily Allen.
Manhand - 咩人
Lastly, my personal favourite, dedicated to all the haters. Cheers.
Fuck You by Lily Allen.
Monday, August 24, 2009
The Way I'm are.
Hmmmph.... It's strange you know?
What is the definition of blog? Do anyone out there have any idea about this?
Yeah, many might say it's a place for sharing text. Funny text interesting text distorted text anything you name it. Other than text, there will have pictures, videos, and audios. Same again, funny media interesting media distorted media, it's up to you to call whatever you like it.
Yes, you see the word "you like it"? It's your blog and you can do it the way you like it. Bloggers have many types, interesting one funny one distorted one etc. But when you gather all the bloggers and combine their ideas, it'll only become one. "I'll like to do the way I like it. Even if it means commercial or what-so-ever." See? Thats the idea of blogging, "The Way I like it". At least I thought so, and I'll always think so.
So here's about my blog, it's an open to public diary, a place where I split my silent sentences to the world, which filled with alot of emotional fuckers and biatches. See? Fuckers and biatches, I repeated and I'll just said 4 profanity in just 2 simple lines.
Ok you might say, my blog has alot of harsh sensitive contents. Yes it's true, and I like it the way I am. So if you're reading it, please please plea...hey wait, why the fuck am I begging you?
So at the end, whether you like it or not, just read and fuck off if you want. Leave harsh offensive counter-attack comments to me if you want. It's up to you and It's up to me.
Yeah, according to the last post, there's a guy commented and said why wanna diuz people in blog?? why not just talk and settle in front of that fucker's face? Ok now, here is the case.
-First I gave options to that fella, I gave my patience to that fella, and I gave my trust to him.
-Second He once felt damn fed up during the time I was seeking help from him. So for you, do you still wanna being an asshole and being fucked like a bitch again? Hell No.
-Third Blogging is my only options, that I can write everything DIRTY and CLEAR. Which means, whoever wanna know about the details, can refer to my blog because I write stories, pretty simple.
So at the end, This is my blog and This is my highway, you pay the rates I've set, you run the way I rules, and you leave with thousands of complains or rubbish whatever. I don't care. See?
I DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT IT BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT IN MY FAMILY BUSINESS.
***to all the readers that hates me. Cheers.***
What is the definition of blog? Do anyone out there have any idea about this?
Yeah, many might say it's a place for sharing text. Funny text interesting text distorted text anything you name it. Other than text, there will have pictures, videos, and audios. Same again, funny media interesting media distorted media, it's up to you to call whatever you like it.
Yes, you see the word "you like it"? It's your blog and you can do it the way you like it. Bloggers have many types, interesting one funny one distorted one etc. But when you gather all the bloggers and combine their ideas, it'll only become one. "I'll like to do the way I like it. Even if it means commercial or what-so-ever." See? Thats the idea of blogging, "The Way I like it". At least I thought so, and I'll always think so.
So here's about my blog, it's an open to public diary, a place where I split my silent sentences to the world, which filled with alot of emotional fuckers and biatches. See? Fuckers and biatches, I repeated and I'll just said 4 profanity in just 2 simple lines.
Ok you might say, my blog has alot of harsh sensitive contents. Yes it's true, and I like it the way I am. So if you're reading it, please please plea...hey wait, why the fuck am I begging you?
So at the end, whether you like it or not, just read and fuck off if you want. Leave harsh offensive counter-attack comments to me if you want. It's up to you and It's up to me.
Yeah, according to the last post, there's a guy commented and said why wanna diuz people in blog?? why not just talk and settle in front of that fucker's face? Ok now, here is the case.
-First I gave options to that fella, I gave my patience to that fella, and I gave my trust to him.
-Second He once felt damn fed up during the time I was seeking help from him. So for you, do you still wanna being an asshole and being fucked like a bitch again? Hell No.
-Third Blogging is my only options, that I can write everything DIRTY and CLEAR. Which means, whoever wanna know about the details, can refer to my blog because I write stories, pretty simple.
So at the end, This is my blog and This is my highway, you pay the rates I've set, you run the way I rules, and you leave with thousands of complains or rubbish whatever. I don't care. See?
I DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT IT BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT IN MY FAMILY BUSINESS.
***to all the readers that hates me. Cheers.***
Saturday, August 22, 2009
FUCK YOU.
It's the 2nd last week before my assignment submission and yet I'm doing nothing. The digit "0" is really cool but this time, it sucks the feeling that I am having right now.
But why my working progress still remain at zero percent?? its already been 8 weeks since the college started. Yeah it's pretty much simple that even kids would've know what's happening.
-Lazy, extremely lazy.
-Gaming addict.
-Major issues of PC breakdown.
Yeah, it's inevitable that the first 2 reasons that proves me wrong and strike me guilty. But the 3rd one, it's really unpredictable. You know it's coming but you just can't see it when it strikes on your critical, you see? I've thought of few options that can actually solve the PC issues but yet, it fails me and it takes longer time to get fixed. It's out of my predict, and it's taking more time than I've anticipated.
Ok so here's the story.
My hard disk is spoiled. A BIG spoil. And what I did is, I send it back to the manufacturer, and get it fix. But the problem here is, it's taking time. My precious time. Especially that I'm standing on the edge and is going to fall at any moment. So, I've decided to find another way. Yes, it can be solve by using CASH. $$
Good, I've decided and I've got the cash. And I survey about the market price with my frenz. And.. this is what he told me that time.
"Oh how bout this, I'm going to buy a new one, so I'll sell this one to you to replace the new one larh, ok?"
"Yeah sure, how much?"
"70 larh!"
"Ok deal."
"So when are you going to buy it? Can give me as soon as possible?"
"Yeah I'm going to buy it next week."
Yeah, a pretty convincing conversation right? It sounds believable and dependable right. But it turns out like this.
"Hey, so.. can I get my hard disk?"
"Oh can't o, I haven't buy yet."
"oo.. Ok larh, please buy it ASAP."
Good, I've pleased him. and then...
"Hey, bought your hard disk?"
"Oh.. Now I'm sick, having headache.. running nose and coughs.."
"Oh.. Ok"
So when the fella comes back, I visited him and he does looks Pale.
"Hey how you doing man?"
"Haven't bought the hard disk yet?"
"No.. Not yet"
"Yeah how bout this? You have 3 partition right? So the idea is, why don't you just transfer one of your partition to another partition since they still got the enough space right?"
"Ohh.. Ok ok.. "
"Well man, take care, get well soon. And please make it fast. I need it urgently, to do my assignments already."
"Ohh.. Ok ok, but it might takes 1 or 2 days worh. Due to the file transferring."
"Never mind. As long as you can give it to me before friday."
"oo sure sure sure."
"ok man, take care."
"K, thanks bye."
SO here it is. The final conversation we had before I got into any trouble with handling with lecturers in school. And now.. this time, It's Friday. And it become Saturday. past 2 hours.
And you know what I got with me now?
NOTHING BUT A BIG SIGH.
He still haven't give my the hard disk.
and I'm really out of patience and I sms him, I even asked him about that 2 hours later.
"eh Can give me the hard disk already?"
"Oh cannot o."
"Why? I thought I told you a way to backup your file?"
"Oh no, the problem now is I've made alot of shortcuts in my partition, so if I do the transferring, my shortcuts will messed up and then I'll have to reset everything back. So if I buy a new one and set the partition as the same partition drive, everything will be ok because they didn't move from their original directory path."
"Ooh.."
"So fastest is tomorrow larh, I buy already and then I'll come back and give it to Michael and you get it from him larh. If tomorrow can't make it means Monday lorh."
Did you guys just read what he said?? Yes he is stalling my time again. and next week I'm going to remain zero progress AGAIN. ITS ALREADY THE 3RD WEEK I BEEN DOING NOTHING.
**So what I'm trying to tell is. How come this fella can be that irresponsible? I mean, I know you're busy, and I'm busy too. It's a rush hour for both of us, but why the fuck just because of "shortcuts troubles", you can't give me a hard disk? You still can organize it if you're really familiar with your system, you see? If now is the 5th week, maybe I still can keep my heart calm and stay cool for the mean time larh. But now its not the 5th week but the 8th week my frenz. What the fuck are you doing and do you know what the fuck am I doing during this 3 weeks of life without my computer?!! and now you're going to tell me that if you can't get it on saturday and you're going to get it at Monday?!!!!
And how are you going to confirmed and guarantee that I'm gonna get my parts at the next Monday?!!! You know why I suspect about that? Because you guys dun have any fucking classes at monday and tuesday!!
You know I really do want to scream and yell at you? I don't do it, because I care about your feelings. I know you're frustrated due to your assignments but I have my assignments issues too! So we have to be fair and I'm in emergency. I don't scold you I don't yell at you, I just sms and talk to you, I begged and pleased you to be quick and I talk so politely. AND I AM PRETTY SURE I'VE MENTIONED THE WORD "EMERGENCY". You dun give me sohai explaination, unless you yourself admit that you're a fucking retarded sohai.
I really dislike about complaining people. I really do. Because these options are chosen by myself. Complaining just make it worst!!
It's hard to make decision, especially when you know the ending is going to involve with relationship issues.
and lastly, thank you for making me to be such a bitch that tells people he hates complaining and he complains alot in his blog.
But why my working progress still remain at zero percent?? its already been 8 weeks since the college started. Yeah it's pretty much simple that even kids would've know what's happening.
-Lazy, extremely lazy.
-Gaming addict.
-Major issues of PC breakdown.
Yeah, it's inevitable that the first 2 reasons that proves me wrong and strike me guilty. But the 3rd one, it's really unpredictable. You know it's coming but you just can't see it when it strikes on your critical, you see? I've thought of few options that can actually solve the PC issues but yet, it fails me and it takes longer time to get fixed. It's out of my predict, and it's taking more time than I've anticipated.
Ok so here's the story.
My hard disk is spoiled. A BIG spoil. And what I did is, I send it back to the manufacturer, and get it fix. But the problem here is, it's taking time. My precious time. Especially that I'm standing on the edge and is going to fall at any moment. So, I've decided to find another way. Yes, it can be solve by using CASH. $$
Good, I've decided and I've got the cash. And I survey about the market price with my frenz. And.. this is what he told me that time.
"Oh how bout this, I'm going to buy a new one, so I'll sell this one to you to replace the new one larh, ok?"
"Yeah sure, how much?"
"70 larh!"
"Ok deal."
"So when are you going to buy it? Can give me as soon as possible?"
"Yeah I'm going to buy it next week."
Yeah, a pretty convincing conversation right? It sounds believable and dependable right. But it turns out like this.
"Hey, so.. can I get my hard disk?"
"Oh can't o, I haven't buy yet."
"oo.. Ok larh, please buy it ASAP."
Good, I've pleased him. and then...
"Hey, bought your hard disk?"
"Oh.. Now I'm sick, having headache.. running nose and coughs.."
"Oh.. Ok"
So when the fella comes back, I visited him and he does looks Pale.
"Hey how you doing man?"
"Haven't bought the hard disk yet?"
"No.. Not yet"
"Yeah how bout this? You have 3 partition right? So the idea is, why don't you just transfer one of your partition to another partition since they still got the enough space right?"
"Ohh.. Ok ok.. "
"Well man, take care, get well soon. And please make it fast. I need it urgently, to do my assignments already."
"Ohh.. Ok ok, but it might takes 1 or 2 days worh. Due to the file transferring."
"Never mind. As long as you can give it to me before friday."
"oo sure sure sure."
"ok man, take care."
"K, thanks bye."
SO here it is. The final conversation we had before I got into any trouble with handling with lecturers in school. And now.. this time, It's Friday. And it become Saturday. past 2 hours.
And you know what I got with me now?
NOTHING BUT A BIG SIGH.
He still haven't give my the hard disk.
and I'm really out of patience and I sms him, I even asked him about that 2 hours later.
"eh Can give me the hard disk already?"
"Oh cannot o."
"Why? I thought I told you a way to backup your file?"
"Oh no, the problem now is I've made alot of shortcuts in my partition, so if I do the transferring, my shortcuts will messed up and then I'll have to reset everything back. So if I buy a new one and set the partition as the same partition drive, everything will be ok because they didn't move from their original directory path."
"Ooh.."
"So fastest is tomorrow larh, I buy already and then I'll come back and give it to Michael and you get it from him larh. If tomorrow can't make it means Monday lorh."
Did you guys just read what he said?? Yes he is stalling my time again. and next week I'm going to remain zero progress AGAIN. ITS ALREADY THE 3RD WEEK I BEEN DOING NOTHING.
**So what I'm trying to tell is. How come this fella can be that irresponsible? I mean, I know you're busy, and I'm busy too. It's a rush hour for both of us, but why the fuck just because of "shortcuts troubles", you can't give me a hard disk? You still can organize it if you're really familiar with your system, you see? If now is the 5th week, maybe I still can keep my heart calm and stay cool for the mean time larh. But now its not the 5th week but the 8th week my frenz. What the fuck are you doing and do you know what the fuck am I doing during this 3 weeks of life without my computer?!! and now you're going to tell me that if you can't get it on saturday and you're going to get it at Monday?!!!!
And how are you going to confirmed and guarantee that I'm gonna get my parts at the next Monday?!!! You know why I suspect about that? Because you guys dun have any fucking classes at monday and tuesday!!
You know I really do want to scream and yell at you? I don't do it, because I care about your feelings. I know you're frustrated due to your assignments but I have my assignments issues too! So we have to be fair and I'm in emergency. I don't scold you I don't yell at you, I just sms and talk to you, I begged and pleased you to be quick and I talk so politely. AND I AM PRETTY SURE I'VE MENTIONED THE WORD "EMERGENCY". You dun give me sohai explaination, unless you yourself admit that you're a fucking retarded sohai.
I really dislike about complaining people. I really do. Because these options are chosen by myself. Complaining just make it worst!!
It's hard to make decision, especially when you know the ending is going to involve with relationship issues.
and lastly, thank you for making me to be such a bitch that tells people he hates complaining and he complains alot in his blog.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
So many to be complain now.
Too much of it.
It's really too much of it.
Maybe its not just complaining, but explaining as well.
-1
There's a guy, which is quite.. capable? and knowledgeable?
yeah i guess that's how to describe him. and he help people while he can.
ok so, here's the thing.
Recently I've encountered alot of this.. configuring pc hardware and software stuff.
Everytime I encounter one of these problems, I'll ask and find out from him.
because he knows alot about computer. so.. for you you also will ask him one ma, right?
but the problem is.
once you ask too much, for normal person larh, also will out of patience one right.
so.. thats the case lorh =.= .
he out of patience d.
BUT. I'm sorry to tell you that, sometimes when it comes to emergency.
I really fuck it, I dun care what you think, because my situation also quite danger d you know.
It's not that I dun respect your feelings, but sometimes shits do happen, and I had to make tough decision. It's not easy man, it's really not easy.
So.. from here, to all my friends and frenz.
Sometimes I could be very disturbing.
but please, I have my own reason and I'll do it to achieve my target.
And I apologize about it, but please forgive me that I really cannot afford to care about your feelings at the mean time.
thank you.
-2
Sometimes I've been thinking... Did I really often make the wrong choices?
It sucks. It is really sucks to tell myself, "yeah, you're so wrong"
Did I come to the world at the wrong time?
Did I walk at the wrong time?
Did I talk at the wrong time?
Did I draw at the wrong time?
Did I choose at the wrong time?
Did I think at the wrong time?
Seriously I do not know the answer.
but the truth of my heart is telling me.
"Yes."
Why am I assuming that this is wrong?
Because I've been so jealous about the others life.
Some are rich.
Some are pretty.
Some are adorable.
Some are smart.
Some are kind.
There's so many 'some are..' that I've been jealous about.
And it can't be satisfied by complaining in words, or even pictures.
The life that I've dreamed of.
When will it come? The foundation stage is over.
It's hard to come. It's hard to find.
and It's hard to keep.
Yeah, maybe I'm just myself all the time.
All, by myself.
-3
I hate complaining.
Why people complain? because.
They cannot get what they want. and it end up with shits that they can never foresee.
Why I hate? because.
I believe everything muz have a reason behind.
I choose the path. and no one warn or stop me.
It's my path and I shall face whatever consequences.
Even if its mean death.
It will be never-ending for complaining issues.
Because issues are all chain-related.
You complain about A and you will complain about B later.
After B then it comes to C.
and complaining means, You're always right. I hate this.
If you're wrong then just admit it. No point finding excuse to defend yourself.
I guess now I sounds like complaining too.
Complain about people who like to complain.
Yeah, it sucks, and I feel conflict about myself, about hating to complain.
So at the end of the day, I'm disturbing but forced to do so, and I'm lonely, and I hate complaining but I'm complaining.
Too much of it.
It's really too much of it.
Maybe its not just complaining, but explaining as well.
-1
There's a guy, which is quite.. capable? and knowledgeable?
yeah i guess that's how to describe him. and he help people while he can.
ok so, here's the thing.
Recently I've encountered alot of this.. configuring pc hardware and software stuff.
Everytime I encounter one of these problems, I'll ask and find out from him.
because he knows alot about computer. so.. for you you also will ask him one ma, right?
but the problem is.
once you ask too much, for normal person larh, also will out of patience one right.
so.. thats the case lorh =.= .
he out of patience d.
BUT. I'm sorry to tell you that, sometimes when it comes to emergency.
I really fuck it, I dun care what you think, because my situation also quite danger d you know.
It's not that I dun respect your feelings, but sometimes shits do happen, and I had to make tough decision. It's not easy man, it's really not easy.
So.. from here, to all my friends and frenz.
Sometimes I could be very disturbing.
but please, I have my own reason and I'll do it to achieve my target.
And I apologize about it, but please forgive me that I really cannot afford to care about your feelings at the mean time.
thank you.
-2
Sometimes I've been thinking... Did I really often make the wrong choices?
It sucks. It is really sucks to tell myself, "yeah, you're so wrong"
Did I come to the world at the wrong time?
Did I walk at the wrong time?
Did I talk at the wrong time?
Did I draw at the wrong time?
Did I choose at the wrong time?
Did I think at the wrong time?
Seriously I do not know the answer.
but the truth of my heart is telling me.
"Yes."
Why am I assuming that this is wrong?
Because I've been so jealous about the others life.
Some are rich.
Some are pretty.
Some are adorable.
Some are smart.
Some are kind.
There's so many 'some are..' that I've been jealous about.
And it can't be satisfied by complaining in words, or even pictures.
The life that I've dreamed of.
When will it come? The foundation stage is over.
It's hard to come. It's hard to find.
and It's hard to keep.
Yeah, maybe I'm just myself all the time.
All, by myself.
-3
I hate complaining.
Why people complain? because.
They cannot get what they want. and it end up with shits that they can never foresee.
Why I hate? because.
I believe everything muz have a reason behind.
I choose the path. and no one warn or stop me.
It's my path and I shall face whatever consequences.
Even if its mean death.
It will be never-ending for complaining issues.
Because issues are all chain-related.
You complain about A and you will complain about B later.
After B then it comes to C.
and complaining means, You're always right. I hate this.
If you're wrong then just admit it. No point finding excuse to defend yourself.
I guess now I sounds like complaining too.
Complain about people who like to complain.
Yeah, it sucks, and I feel conflict about myself, about hating to complain.
So at the end of the day, I'm disturbing but forced to do so, and I'm lonely, and I hate complaining but I'm complaining.
Friday, August 14, 2009
Cakap Cakap.
why today's title so plain.
because there's some stupid irritating shit is reading this blog.
-so first i'm gonna say. i'm most probably moving somewhere.
-second. it sucks that people watching over you. i dun specify who larh, later sensitive issues came in and all that shits.
oh ya. last night me and my frenz went to the CC for games.
I suddenly found out arh... nowadays de gamers.
dun have this .. so called, DotA Spirit.
they complain everytime when:
-enemy know their whereabout ; some pros really know where you are. they can predict
-enemy can evade their ambushes ; some pros really know what you're doing.
-teammate 'kill and steal' mistake ; sometimes the global spell juz can't help, especially the random one
-teammate finger slow ; err this one is because teammate skill not that good, but dun blame if you know it lar.
-enemy owning ; they jealous
-blame by teammate ; they think they're always right and the most geng one
-enemy/teammate leave game ; they spoiled the game
-teammate feed(this i sure complain lol. =.=) ; ..... totally noob??
i mean, what the fuck is this arh??
just a game only mah, why spit on people face and blame the others??
oh i miss the olden days while i'm playing in blueserver v3.
where the Pros and the Noobs gather around.
no one will ever lan sii, no one will ever leave.
THESE PEOPLES. EVEN IF THEY FEED, THEY'VE GOT THE SPIRIT!!!
and all the people there, they are well educated.
they understand english. they can talk and write english.
its like a hall of higher end gamers.
Playing in BlueServer. Its the best server I've ever played with.
-but now it become UCPro. and it charged for members.
sighs. =( and the installation protocols are troublesome.
maybe later i'll consider playing. hahahahhaa.
at the end of the day. all i wanna say is.
ITS JUZ A GAME, WHO CARES AND WHY CARES??!!!
because there's some stupid irritating shit is reading this blog.
-so first i'm gonna say. i'm most probably moving somewhere.
-second. it sucks that people watching over you. i dun specify who larh, later sensitive issues came in and all that shits.
oh ya. last night me and my frenz went to the CC for games.
I suddenly found out arh... nowadays de gamers.
dun have this .. so called, DotA Spirit.
they complain everytime when:
-enemy know their whereabout ; some pros really know where you are. they can predict
-enemy can evade their ambushes ; some pros really know what you're doing.
-teammate 'kill and steal' mistake ; sometimes the global spell juz can't help, especially the random one
-teammate finger slow ; err this one is because teammate skill not that good, but dun blame if you know it lar.
-enemy owning ; they jealous
-blame by teammate ; they think they're always right and the most geng one
-enemy/teammate leave game ; they spoiled the game
-teammate feed(this i sure complain lol. =.=) ; ..... totally noob??
i mean, what the fuck is this arh??
just a game only mah, why spit on people face and blame the others??
oh i miss the olden days while i'm playing in blueserver v3.
where the Pros and the Noobs gather around.
no one will ever lan sii, no one will ever leave.
THESE PEOPLES. EVEN IF THEY FEED, THEY'VE GOT THE SPIRIT!!!
and all the people there, they are well educated.
they understand english. they can talk and write english.
its like a hall of higher end gamers.
Playing in BlueServer. Its the best server I've ever played with.
-but now it become UCPro. and it charged for members.
sighs. =( and the installation protocols are troublesome.
maybe later i'll consider playing. hahahahhaa.
at the end of the day. all i wanna say is.
ITS JUZ A GAME, WHO CARES AND WHY CARES??!!!
Saturday, August 08, 2009
Sometimes its juz plain pathetic that you've got a blog. But you've got nothing to blog about. This kind of emptiness is driving me crazy man. Maybe I've lost the colour pencil to paint out my days? Ok enough about craps and shits. (why the fuck I write like someone is reading it? good here i go again, Think too much :p)
.1
Just went to THE MINES ( i guess this is so damn familiar and popular to people nowadays lol ) for dinner. and just for the DINNER. Dua Puloh terbang macam babi already. Stupid Carl's Jr. why charge so darn expensive, dun have student price meh?
And guess who I saw there? He's a celebrity.
He's tall! He's handsome! He's smart! He's...rich? He can sing! He can dance!
and He's.....Will Pan 潘韦伯!! (did i spell wrongly? fuck it :p)
Ok it was crazy there..errr, ok lar, not so crazy. But it still crazy. All the people do are juz screaming. SCREAMING. SCREAMING ONLY!!!! And all the fans are like.. kiddos? Daukei i should say.
Come, let me analyse and interpret the gurlz screaming.
-First Will Pan step onto the stage *AARRRHHHHH~~~*
it means, "OMIGOD HE'S HERE!!!"
-Second Will Pan talk on the mic. *ARRRRHHHHHH~~`*
it means, "OMIGOD HE TALKS!!!" (what, you think he retarded??)
-Third, Will Pan walks. *ARRRHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~*
it means, "OMIGOD HE KNOWS HOW TO WALK!!!" ......
....
...ok this is juz i simply made one. sorry fans. i dun mean to say he's stupid.
-Fourth, Will Pan waves his hands to the fans. *ARRHHHHHHHH!!!*
it means, "OMIGOD HE WAVES AT ME!! I THINK HE LOVES ME!!!"
sure love you lar, you pay his salary one ler jiejie.
-Fifth, Will Pan sing. *ARRRHHHHH~~!!! ENCORE ENCORE ENCORE!!"
it means, "OMIGOD HE SING!!! SING AGAIN PLEASE!!!"
yeah this one I agree, sing more please >.< its like a free concert XD hahahaha. but anyway, what the fuck??? A singer that dunno how to sing, still dare to release album and sing to you meh? fuck brainless shits. after all the introduction shits then its time to sign autograph to the fans. well it ends very fast. I guess thats like.. abit faster than Jolin signing at Times Square. =.= ALOT faster. LOL sorry Will Pan, dun mean to say that you're out of fans XD its juz that you're not sexy enough to attract boys =P Oh, and There's another new celeb with Will Pan too, I dunno whats his name, but he looks alot like a LaLa-zai, a gangsta...oh, no not a gangsta, a... spoilt loser??? =.= and you know what he did on the stage?? HE'S JUST FUCKING PLAYING WITH HIS MOUTH AND THATS IT. beat box lar ... this is plain stupidness. =.= sick of these shits ler. some more its not that good. Sorry guys!! I stil prefer DaiChi!! sighs, Tonight's a waste you know. Thought I can find some pretty at the event. But hell, all the gurlz are like... still in mid-school??? 15 16 years old?? ....but kids nowadays arh.. really geng, can make up super thick one. and you know what they wear? They wear a 21 years old female fashion. I wonder what will happen 5 years after. Will they ever wear grandma clothes that time??? and... one thing for sure, 5 years later there will be no true beauty. Because everything is covered up. I prefer.. staying behind the scene lol.
.2
there goes another major big problem about my sohai pc. it sucks that I'm a true PC dumb lar, cruel said I'm a sohai in PC sector lar. It's like a hell and heaven. When I use it, its like heaven, worry-free and ecstasy shits; When I'm about to lose it, its like hell, worry-ful and ecstasy shits again. SIGGHHHSSS Tomorrow have to get back early to solve shits again.
WHY?!!!!!
.3
ok, games are really addictive. I mean, REAL ADDICTIVE. all these gaming shits are totally pwned and owned me since I've got my SUPER(compare to the old one larh..god dammit) CPU to play.
Lets make an example,
[Prototype].
Ok this is a game title, not a serial code for your fucking projects ok. It's a sandbox-gaming style game, and It has like.. totally freedom for you to roam the whole fucking Manhattan to kill.. oh, is CONSUME (that means eat people lar, for kiddos language) people. You can either consume civillians, armies, creatures bla bla shits. and it's really FUN to consume INNOCENT CIVILLIANS!! HOHOHOHOO!! Me and my frenz are totally into this shits and we're really enjoying killing the innocent one...muahahahahaha.
it's fun that you can see how your weapon shove the enemy asshole up from the bottom.
another example, The Sims 3.
alright this game is really sucking me in. I've SPENT most of the time on this never-ending game. because its fun! its new!! and It's like living in my dream... Hohoho, I can manipulate lives in the game XD thats what I love to play with. but sometimes shits does happens, My wife juz popped out 2 TWINS!!! 2 X 2 = 4 !!! THAT MEANS I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF 4 XIAO CHAR SHAO AT THE SAME TIME!!! WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. Thank god they've got babysitting services... muahahahahahahahah!!! ITS FUN TO MANIPULATE LIVES!!!
omigod i'm going into gaming madness.. someone please drag me into hell... OH NO, not into hell lar.. outta hell.. XD hahahaha and then push me into the gaming heaven~
.4
this post is so gonna be extremely longer than before.
.5
taxi fare is damn expensive now. last time the meter starts at 2. now starts at 3. what the fuck...and now the meter is jumping superbly faster than before. I guess nows the time for me to quit my study and join the cab services lol. Imagine one day you fetch 20 trip from one place to another with the average rate of 5 dollar. everyday you earn 100. and one month you're earning 3000. THE LEAST!!!! ok for more detail, 20 of weekdays, 2000. and let say weekends they got doubled-customers, so they're earning 200 each weekend. 10 days of weekends x 200 = 2000. IMAGINE LAR PRICKS!! ONE MONTH THEY CAN AT LEAST EARN 4000
OMIGOD
THAT IS SO MUCH MORE THAN A TOP STUDENT JUZ FRESHLY GRADUATES FROM FAMOUS SCHOOL EMPLOYED HIMSELF IN A BIG 5 COMPANY!!!
.6
My Impossible Wish List :
-I'm a pussy magnet
-I have a strong sex appeal
-I'm tall
-I'm strong but not so buffed
-I've got a wide shoulder and comfortable chest
-Somehow but I dunno how every morning my wallet automatically reload 2 pieces of 100 dollars note. If can, let it be BUCKS.
-I have a girlfriend that is super compatible with me.
-Having houses everywhere and nicely decorated.
-Having 48 hours per day but everything progress like 24hours per day.
-Have a really healthy body and heart.
-Have a strong heart.
-Have an agile body.
-Have a fast and intelligent brain.
...lol i guess i've wished too much XD.
omigod...juz concentrate on the height part lar wei.. i want her height only.. but stil.. omigod..@@
.1
Just went to THE MINES ( i guess this is so damn familiar and popular to people nowadays lol ) for dinner. and just for the DINNER. Dua Puloh terbang macam babi already. Stupid Carl's Jr. why charge so darn expensive, dun have student price meh?
And guess who I saw there? He's a celebrity.
He's tall! He's handsome! He's smart! He's...rich? He can sing! He can dance!
and He's.....Will Pan 潘韦伯!! (did i spell wrongly? fuck it :p)
Ok it was crazy there..errr, ok lar, not so crazy. But it still crazy. All the people do are juz screaming. SCREAMING. SCREAMING ONLY!!!! And all the fans are like.. kiddos? Daukei i should say.
Come, let me analyse and interpret the gurlz screaming.
-First Will Pan step onto the stage *AARRRHHHHH~~~*
it means, "OMIGOD HE'S HERE!!!"
-Second Will Pan talk on the mic. *ARRRRHHHHHH~~`*
it means, "OMIGOD HE TALKS!!!" (what, you think he retarded??)
-Third, Will Pan walks. *ARRRHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~*
it means, "OMIGOD HE KNOWS HOW TO WALK!!!" ......
....
...ok this is juz i simply made one. sorry fans. i dun mean to say he's stupid.
-Fourth, Will Pan waves his hands to the fans. *ARRHHHHHHHH!!!*
it means, "OMIGOD HE WAVES AT ME!! I THINK HE LOVES ME!!!"
sure love you lar, you pay his salary one ler jiejie.
-Fifth, Will Pan sing. *ARRRHHHHH~~!!! ENCORE ENCORE ENCORE!!"
it means, "OMIGOD HE SING!!! SING AGAIN PLEASE!!!"
yeah this one I agree, sing more please >.< its like a free concert XD hahahaha. but anyway, what the fuck??? A singer that dunno how to sing, still dare to release album and sing to you meh? fuck brainless shits. after all the introduction shits then its time to sign autograph to the fans. well it ends very fast. I guess thats like.. abit faster than Jolin signing at Times Square. =.= ALOT faster. LOL sorry Will Pan, dun mean to say that you're out of fans XD its juz that you're not sexy enough to attract boys =P Oh, and There's another new celeb with Will Pan too, I dunno whats his name, but he looks alot like a LaLa-zai, a gangsta...oh, no not a gangsta, a... spoilt loser??? =.= and you know what he did on the stage?? HE'S JUST FUCKING PLAYING WITH HIS MOUTH AND THATS IT. beat box lar ... this is plain stupidness. =.= sick of these shits ler. some more its not that good. Sorry guys!! I stil prefer DaiChi!! sighs, Tonight's a waste you know. Thought I can find some pretty at the event. But hell, all the gurlz are like... still in mid-school??? 15 16 years old?? ....but kids nowadays arh.. really geng, can make up super thick one. and you know what they wear? They wear a 21 years old female fashion. I wonder what will happen 5 years after. Will they ever wear grandma clothes that time??? and... one thing for sure, 5 years later there will be no true beauty. Because everything is covered up. I prefer.. staying behind the scene lol.
.2
there goes another major big problem about my sohai pc. it sucks that I'm a true PC dumb lar, cruel said I'm a sohai in PC sector lar. It's like a hell and heaven. When I use it, its like heaven, worry-free and ecstasy shits; When I'm about to lose it, its like hell, worry-ful and ecstasy shits again. SIGGHHHSSS Tomorrow have to get back early to solve shits again.
WHY?!!!!!
.3
ok, games are really addictive. I mean, REAL ADDICTIVE. all these gaming shits are totally pwned and owned me since I've got my SUPER(compare to the old one larh..god dammit) CPU to play.
Lets make an example,
[Prototype].
Ok this is a game title, not a serial code for your fucking projects ok. It's a sandbox-gaming style game, and It has like.. totally freedom for you to roam the whole fucking Manhattan to kill.. oh, is CONSUME (that means eat people lar, for kiddos language) people. You can either consume civillians, armies, creatures bla bla shits. and it's really FUN to consume INNOCENT CIVILLIANS!! HOHOHOHOO!! Me and my frenz are totally into this shits and we're really enjoying killing the innocent one...muahahahahaha.
it's fun that you can see how your weapon shove the enemy asshole up from the bottom.
consuming is another entertaining brutality that you can find in the game.. omigod..yummy^^
another example, The Sims 3.
alright this game is really sucking me in. I've SPENT most of the time on this never-ending game. because its fun! its new!! and It's like living in my dream... Hohoho, I can manipulate lives in the game XD thats what I love to play with. but sometimes shits does happens, My wife juz popped out 2 TWINS!!! 2 X 2 = 4 !!! THAT MEANS I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF 4 XIAO CHAR SHAO AT THE SAME TIME!!! WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. Thank god they've got babysitting services... muahahahahahahahah!!! ITS FUN TO MANIPULATE LIVES!!!
omigod i'm going into gaming madness.. someone please drag me into hell... OH NO, not into hell lar.. outta hell.. XD hahahaha and then push me into the gaming heaven~
.4
this post is so gonna be extremely longer than before.
.5
taxi fare is damn expensive now. last time the meter starts at 2. now starts at 3. what the fuck...and now the meter is jumping superbly faster than before. I guess nows the time for me to quit my study and join the cab services lol. Imagine one day you fetch 20 trip from one place to another with the average rate of 5 dollar. everyday you earn 100. and one month you're earning 3000. THE LEAST!!!! ok for more detail, 20 of weekdays, 2000. and let say weekends they got doubled-customers, so they're earning 200 each weekend. 10 days of weekends x 200 = 2000. IMAGINE LAR PRICKS!! ONE MONTH THEY CAN AT LEAST EARN 4000
OMIGOD
THAT IS SO MUCH MORE THAN A TOP STUDENT JUZ FRESHLY GRADUATES FROM FAMOUS SCHOOL EMPLOYED HIMSELF IN A BIG 5 COMPANY!!!
SO FELLAS!! EVER THINK OF QUITTING STUDY AND ROAMING THE CITY WITH TOTAL FREEDOM?!! COME AND JOIN OUR TAXI CAB SERVICES!!! WEALTHINESS SHALL AWAITS YOU AT THE END OF THE HIGHWAY!!! WOOOHOOOOOO~~fuck shits...
picture is so darn not related.
.6
My Impossible Wish List :
-I'm a pussy magnet
-I have a strong sex appeal
-I'm tall
-I'm strong but not so buffed
-I've got a wide shoulder and comfortable chest
-Somehow but I dunno how every morning my wallet automatically reload 2 pieces of 100 dollars note. If can, let it be BUCKS.
-I have a girlfriend that is super compatible with me.
-Having houses everywhere and nicely decorated.
-Having 48 hours per day but everything progress like 24hours per day.
-Have a really healthy body and heart.
-Have a strong heart.
-Have an agile body.
-Have a fast and intelligent brain.
...lol i guess i've wished too much XD.
omigod...juz concentrate on the height part lar wei.. i want her height only.. but stil.. omigod..@@
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